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Saturday, March 11, 2017

dreamt of insects after first fulfilled deal of laundry.

first dream in highly dense space, human crowd with dense snakes.
those baby snakes in every atom of air, or liquid, like spray. that's
quite shockingly frightening. they didn't bite but terrifying. then
dreamt my son and his mom's family. I likely returned from long
journey and urged his mom to restore normal life. the woman and her
mom recognized our previous marriage hopelessly sank. they arranged
extraordinary a meal to farewell. when I prepare tea, I found many
large strong black ants busy moving in the jar neck. its again such a
shocking scene I almost lose clinch to the jar. they all likely
concerns the first time handover of my laundry deal with dorm canteen
woman. last week when I visited my son and brought him to shower in
public shared bathroom, I found my dirty clothes a week there was not
washed. the small woman several times threatened not to wash my
clothes even I offered her monthly ¥150 many months but recently due
to credit crisis I asked permission to indebted her. so this time I
thought ripe to be more independent. I informed my son the new expense
and he agreed. returned to dorm, I headed to dorm canteen where the
woman in charge of preparing food materials right there for ordering.
I discussed the possibility to pay her to wash my clothes. she first
defied, with encouragement from the executive woman, she accept my
proposal of increased ¥50 to ¥200/month. last Friday dusk, before I
dined there, the executive woman fetched me the washed clothes, our
first deal sealed, except my payment. for penniless, I asked the woman
loan me ¥200 for visiting my son weekends. then she told me my recent
months bill with canteen didn't clear, for my kid brother promised to
pay instead of me in his last year's visit now evaded by him. I
previously called him to pay my online shopping but my phone number
likely blacklisted and redirected. so I never knew what's going on
with him. the woman said she sms my brother but never responded. I
told her I visioned I lost my brother's aid but I never equipped
financially to save the situation, so I didn't probe my due payment in
canteen any more. the woman disliked my answer so I promised will call
my brother in the night. on jogging after dinner, I buzzed my 3rd
elder sister and hope she check our kid brother's status, she accepted
the task. when I went to toilet for toothbrush hours later, I saw the
canteen worker woman washing there. I told her I will pay her as soon
as I get my salary this month, ie. 2 weeks later. she replied no hurry
cordially. God dad, I know it will be OK after all, but the situation
now really draining. this week I also try web tutorial to setup
selective vpn routing to escape PRC main sites' discriminating foreign
ips, but so far failed. in so many programs I benefited from online
communities discussions, now I have to cope it on my own for solution.
I tried to contact vpn support team but out of their service scope and
denied help. I also contact godaddy PRC office girl last time helped
me with discount for unknown renewal price increase, evasive
conversations sucks in grudge. this week makes me sad when I last
night reviewed it, but also affirm my determination to sit with them,
those deny of service, and breakthrough on my own. God dad, bring me
sooner my Royal China to sustain my cultivation here, bring me my new
family and hope of stepping out of adversity here. bring me learning
ability in every stages in my life. bring me my Crowned Queen from
Japan, Asoh Yukiko, to better my children's life. in a few hours I
will visit my son, in your mercy our joys will doubles.