Sunday, April 24, 2016

my marriage in dream.

dream of my new marriage. my passed parents prepared me for new
marriage. my 2nd elder brother managed custom and celebration team
from the village, Zhudajiu. I saw my parents-in-law, my fiance, who is
shy free and visited us the night before rite. I saw clear I never saw
here. last week banks' call of returning credit deficit were frequent.
I buzzed my 2nd brother, kid brother and 2nd sister. my kid brother,
likely the only one who affordable to help, always felt frustrated
upon my conversation or appeal, refuted me 2 times, but finally called
me back last Saturday. he got all my credit card number, likely trying
to cancel them. he said banks' call disrupted him a lot and can't bear
it without actively dealt my problem. God, no matter how the problem
large, I always look my business bright in the end. but I really don't
know how to return the $70000 in my so pinched situation. this month
my salary in 3 serie months as low as 1800. I had to borrow to live
up. my son woz last Friday night visited my dorm. we ate grilled
mutton as scheduled. I don't feel like to put him in panic of economic
slump. he more and more silent upon my insistent life we deserve.God,
dad, I want get through hardness alone, with hope and prayer. God, I'm
confident my debt, 75000, is not a big sin. help me reverifying it.
this spring chill lingers, and put my dorm quite uncomfortable. bring
me sooner summer heat with life we enjoy. bring me sooner my Royal
China for grace. save Japan from earthquake suffering, save my crowned
Queen, Asoh Yukiko, and show us the union fasten our 2 nations.
#God #AsohYukiko #dream #life #love

Sunday, April 17, 2016

rare dream of my passed eldest sister.

dreamt of my once brother-in-law. this week I restore my 3 dynamic
sites powered by web apps. cleaning data costs some time, but
godaddy's cpanel quite helpful and setup quickly. yesterday I
demonstrated my work to my son, woz, Hope of China, and confessed how
I love my own hut of communication, my own publication like the
website. this dawn I dreamt visiting my passed eldest sister's house.
my eldest sister committed suicide in her prime time, likely after
long time disharmonious with her husband. I love my sister very much
and my old family in debt of my sister for her marriage with a worker
which life much easier than our in early hardest time of PRC. I dreamt
my siblings gathered to visit my eldest sister's house. on a fork road
stop we met our brother-in-law, a widow now, trying repair his
tricycle. his son, my cousin grew up his teenage in my old family
after his mother's passed by and under my parents' custody with his
younger sister, offer a silent helping hand in the house and delayed
there while most of my siblings leaving. I tried to blog after got up
but memory scattered and I napped again. then dreamt I was forbidden
to communicate with the brother-in-law, but get a "matb" certificate
of permission to create access with the past. I also dreamt I on my
website considering published a worker's poems. he is an employee of
my once workplace, QRRS. his poems mostly old styled and mirrors PRC
old custom. I likely then attending a site owners' seminar. last week
PSBC bank urged me to return overdrawal of my credit card. I contacted
my senior middle school alumni and one of them offered me ¥1000. even
I badly need ¥5000 to facilitate fluit of my credit, I can't blame my
alumnus' poor kindness. I hope step by step break barrier of locked
credit. God dad, my web site, esp powered by database and web apps, is
my contribution to the world voices. pl help me maintain it and let it
booms. grant me renew my hosting plan graceful and reasonably secured
duration. grant us the cosy workspace we enjoy now. bring me sooner my
Royal China, my girls and my offspring in time. dad, let my dearest
eldest sister stays in my heart and forever in love. let the coming
history witnesses the blessing her concerned.
#God #AsohYukiko #dream #life #love

Friday, April 8, 2016

dream of flying.

So I napped again after a sandstorm noon. I dreamt using water as fuel
and a pair of light wings. I flied over a slop and carefully
calculated fuel consuming. on the hill of my hometown, I finally ran
out of water fuel and woke up. in the past week banks called me
several times but now less burning. I hope my business outruns the
ever accumulating profit in addition principal in a decade. this week
financial hardness embarrassed me so miserable that sometimes humbled
me to bite, esp occasionally an old cop near retired age ate his rich
lunch in dorm canteen with his pal in canteen. after restored hope of
life, my dinners in canteen even delicious since then, from complain
of loan from its operating woman. this week my restoring dynamic sites
also makes proud progress. backup partially imported to new database,
and fresh web apps targeting new domains tried and satisfying. our new
site gathers thin traffic but God, plenty of holy world, let me feel
capable of the online presence now and then. my own especially glad to
see these beautiful huts of interactive, of hospitality, of service,
regardless sunshine nor turbulence. they will be history and morality,
will be testimony of holy commitment. previously I tried hard to build
them on google infrastructure, but now financial situation hardly
support it, and compatibility with php less satisfying. now I found
cheaper hosting at godaddy. and free hosting at God, dad,
let the freedom of cyberspace persistent, let the internet affordable
forever. above all of them, I gladful upon hardware upgrade last year
I pushed recklessly. dad God, bring me sooner my Royal China to foster
good world closing the sinking PRC, bring me sooner my children, my
girls with whom I prayed so long online. in coming salary pl allow me
to alleviate more or less my credit overdraw burden. grant us purchase
power among my dear credit cards. thx, dad, in this chill afternoon.
Photo Description: woz, Hope of China, has painting lesson arranged by
his mom. here his talent artwork in early stage.