Wednesday, May 16, 2012

seasonal but none seasonable.

15/5/2012

taught the sinful woman a lesson.^last dusk visited my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲. God allows me meeting him on way when his grandma leading him leaving from his calligraphy class his mom arranged. we played awhile in the nearby southern park, where he didn't find pals, so shot some photos with my camera. i promised him playing pc game he likes as long as i stay. but that postponed by his mom, the dirty bitch. she is really cheap, blocking my son's independent free time by checking frequently our son's homeworks and demanded amend, driving our son busy around her aimless and useless. her whole life is cheap and usually spent accompanying her so call students writing rubbish notes in her house, as a way to earn dirty money. before leaving i found her put her hand under my son's shirt and likely that's her usual habit. i warned her that would be bad for kid. the rain started when i prepared my son his favorite old pc game while waiting his mom return. the grandma laid lots of pressure when my son trying his old game, urging he eating dinner where she forced to feed my son herself, as a way to gain from my son's buddy life. how sinful the woman's family! God, u see, pl save my son from dirts and insane! 

14/5/2012

historical heaviest rain in decades.^ God, i see familiar raining scene in my hometown, Hubei Prov, central China, in recent rains which last more than 2 days in series. in rhythm of rain, i felt lonely, sorry, praying, warming heartthrob of memories of my loves. in this eccentric city of Qiqihar, where i yet found my rooting nor seeding, my longing town-sick cured by recent weather changes, esp. sunshines and rains. God, my life so far is drifting, until my Royal China surfaces the sinking torrent of PRC, where turning riots and rotten. God, please bring my girls sooner in our prime time.

these days sees peace again after our son, warrenzh 朱楚甲Hope of China, performed less brilliant in his mid-term exam in elemental school. his mom, urged by even spiteful grandma, both losers with bitter and biting heart against my joys with my son in pc games with improved hardware, blustered/outbroke scorns upon us and demanded ridding my son off our game gears, ie. dell notebook, 32' LED TV, gamepads, etc. i also burst to blame son for his loose management over his own matter or stuff, a bad habit stemmed from his mom's enzyme, like scattered items, dependent task implementing. his mom is totally a bitch, messy and fur(r)y little beast, I knew it. after an enduring work week of silent reckon&plot, they waded and my son resumed to play pc games with me in his mom's house in weekends. God, i see ur promise in our joys, and our glorious way on the scary land of eastern Asia we bounded to. God, promise me warrenzh's road of graceful and joyful and fruitful. promise us our vested Empire from ur Heaven message. God, thx for sunshines now outside.

11/5/2012

almost wet myself.^ these days I spent more time outdoor in the garden of QRRS Dorms. at noon after lunch i will enjoy sunburn till those mean young beasts in the dorms leaving for work. in dusk i will jog in solitude. last dusk during the jog when i watched a bug walking on a vertical wall of lid of underground water, some young male beasts tentatively loudly talking about how large a cunt and passing me, trying leaving dirts in my mind. returned to dorm and went surfing the web, i felt the drive to watch erotic video online. but soone calling of grace welcomes me and I quit to movies of love. in the mid night, i dreamed of sex and almost half wet myself before i halt. its nice to know I'm ready for my girls, my Royal China. God, u see how close we are in the web of connectivity. It's now a sunny morning. 

7/5/2012

dreamed of python and persuade my family to feed it.^ dreamed of in my hometown village pested by large pythons. the male one killed by villagers before i knew it. the female python partially lingering in my house. its so large that my house can't space its whole body. it's spawning and its bite leaves iron sticks planting on the ground. my wife, likely my son, warrenzh's mom, tried to kill her in fear, but i managed to cure it and feed it. then woke up. its a brilliant morning. 

2/5/2012

family 2nd scheduled bimonthly dinning out, the dad and his son alone. ^ the proposal by benzrad朱子卓, the dad, in May, thanks God for stable and improved salary, executed yesterday. son,warrenzh 朱楚甲, these days frequently felt sad for no more time with his dad with pc games. I, benzrad, also immersed several chances insight the deep love in warrenzh's pour and sanctified heart. so we look forward to cheers. his mom felt misery in her life more and more, but again hide it in posed easy angry and aggressiveness. during Int' Labor Day holiday, i accompanied son with pc games for 2 days, but 1st, May summoned by the mother, who refused my visit on the day and also defied to tell where she brings our son to. near 3pm she buzzed in when i busy in my QRRS dorm, said she already brought our son into Qiqihar peace square, where as I told her we will haunt around. she always want to prevail us, or my treats for son. lately she embarrassed to inquire me if she was invited for the dinner i arranged 2 month ago when she narrowly joined by suggesting herself, I told her nope. when she brought our son from the square to the buffet, I found she didn't take bus but by her poor bike. I knew her cheap at once but no cure for her usual self-possessed. my son and I had a nice dinner, even the restaurant likely in loose management and failing in discipline, like most Chinese corporations, esp in PRC nowadays. after we returned to son's mom's house, his mom monitored his doing homeworks all time, refused allowing our son trying pc games as he planned. I left with empty hand and sorrow to son. God, my sailing toward Royal China already launched, no once can break in midway. save the poor woman, and dearest son's good will for his mom, in ur freedom, ur boundless freedom abound ur Mightiest! 

27/4/2012

warrenzh first exam.^today is a wet day, mostly cloudy, dripping awhile at noon when I walked to join QRRS canteen. from the dawn i felt sleepy among chill, then restless after sleepiness waned and aimless. now sunshine appears again, allowing my sorting recent photos. dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲Hope of ChinaGod of Universe, didn't excel as should in his first exam, a mid-term one, and his anxious mom warned to ban our gaming time on his new notebook and 32' LED TV. God, I know it's a long while short in glory road in front of us, esp. of warrenzh's. God, u see how smart our son is, how evil plots ahead against our Empire emerging. God, trust us smooth way our son bestowed, put peace and joys in our gathering in this corner of stormy China under failing PRC. God, save us from anxiousness and live aboard and broadly. 

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Thursday, April 19, 2012

life in still stream of complacent.

19/4/2012

dreamed of Japanese divided China again.^ a dawn dream look like pale morning now: China was half controlled by Japan. i traveled and felt its ruling as an interpretor, while Chinese part under CCP dooming lifeless. God, Asoh Yukiko, bring my new family, new Royal China sooner!

18/4/2012

thx God, son now enjoys larger LED TV.^ we ordered online from Haier's official shopping mall. for its logistic unit likely doesn't reside Qiqihar, our goods delayed and arrived today. we had already exchanged more than 5 phone calls for the e-commercial site didn't respond after my payment settled. today they also cost 2 and more phone calls for changed shipping time. my last query to its support desk didn't get a clear answer but i felt bliss in the sunshine, which encourages me waiting near my son's mom's house even clueless about the postponed handover time around 11am. they indeed arrived soon after 11am while i roaming and praying God for the shiny gift in the shiny day. installation quite smoothly. what surprised me is that gear to hang the TV on wall is free. i had informed son's mom about borrowing her a small amount money to buy the hanging parts. my son glad to see the new gadget but i merely got familiar with its user interface before his departure for his school. his mom got angry as usual and urged son coming school time. all the afternoon i alone setup the TV as second display of son's Dell notebook, for gaming and online video. after settled down, i missing my son very much. i even proposed a dine out to his mom, who posed to refuse but finally arranged it. son ate toast mutton more than usual. i carried him on my shoulders to go his mom's home. after finished his homeworks his mom administrated, we played 2 pc games and found how adorable a gear, like the 32' inch LED TV, can be. when i leaving, i encouraged my son use Internet daily based and he admitted it. on way to my QRRS dorm, i called back expressing sorry for my scorning his habit to stand close to the TV even its screen size should allow looser watching for the sake of his sight. Its just too beautiful today, God, u see it. 

12/4/2012

dosed in sunshine in a snow melting day.^ yesterday i first time in the year roamed in QRRS Dorms' garden, review enemies of my Empire of China, and their newest trapdoor of asylum. in my latest visit, on first work day after lunar Tomb-Sweeping holiday when i attempted to buy medicine of Risperdal, dog in the municipal mental health center already barked with teeth. dogs rampant around trembled upon my joys in life and hatred of envies burning their brains. last night a shallow snow descended without foretoken. when i woke up lately in morning sunshine through window, those white wet on ground show me so many fondness of Holy. afternoon after lunch, i felt cold again and soon dozed in sunshine from window on my bed. i dreamed my passed mother entreated me to endure for survival. a woman colleague, a Wu, with his husband, a Liu, unbalanced with their fortunes in the dream, liked when we played on the bank of a river. 
God, grace in my road to reclaim my Kingdom of China from my ancestor with glory is huge, here my pray for u for testimony. 

7/4/2012

dreamed of quarrel over family heritage.^ dreamed of financial disturb with my hometown neighbor who makes a small business from performing as priest for local villagers' call for God in their nature faith. my passed mom, with my sinful 2nd brother also appeared in the dawn dream. after woke up doubting the plot of my nephew who demand his poor dad, my 1st brother long time weak in finance and recently attempted to ask loan from me, preparing his engagement&celebration. something dangerous falling&failing. reviewed curse from son's mom, a bitch, last night when we played pc game, burned and reborn in preach from bible radio online till mercy saves my pains. God, sooner bring me my Royal China, my girls praying for me, for our family. show my son warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of ChinaGod of Universe, bliss in my new life, my new family with my girls full heartedly, to witness falling and failure of his mom, the sinful soul and her old dirty family. God, sing u in the sunshine now outside. 

30/3/2012

A March snow, a white present.^ yesterday is a brewing day for me when i waiting aside my notebook. it had been cloudy days, which brought me doubts and anxiousness. a morning frost indicating the snow, but until stronger sandstorm brought down the sight, it descends. looking outside through my dorm window, i felt my dearest son's call of gift in the dripping snowflakes. even almost penniless, i managed to borrow ¥40 from the canteen operator, who more or less cold-shoulder to me, for its 3rd times i asked for loan in a month. last week i decided to buy my son a larger LCD TV for his weakening eyesight, for our more appealing pc gaming experience. i asked my 2nd sister to loan us, she admitted but delayed to her next salary release day, IE, Apr 1st. my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲Hope of ChinaGod of Universe, welcome the gift heartedly. in the dusk, with his favorite KFC food in handbag, i waited for him alone the street near his mom's school for half hour. i sang and teased him when we reunited and returned to his mom's house. we didn't play pc game as usual, for time of gathering too short the moment. in the night after returned to my QRRS dorm, i saw golden skylight all over out of my window. God, doesn't it exactly free me of sorrow and unease?

benzrad's comment on the day.

sinking PRC.^ sink, sink sinful PRC, as a due pay for benefit western world brought forth and saves so many disasters in the totalitarian system likes a half century nightmare.
美国政府问责局从中国购买到山寨潜艇零件 

28/3/2012

dreamed of a worm or snake in my shits. ^ got up earlier to let d/l, then dozed. dreamed of poo. then found a worm in it&doubting if parasites in my body. then 3 men expert in hunting snakes plot and steal my snake. its a sunny morning. 

26/3/2012

a prayer in new moon, for grace in God.^ now 2nd new moon night in March. rid me anxiousness of dearest son's healthy environment, inc emotional. God, Asoh Yukiko, affirm me the sanity of my Royal China, as well as the nice day on which i prayed for our gathering again between the weeks. grant us sooner our new LCD, for our better gaming experience and warrenzh's joy of watching. God, u see these days young beasts around us, in the rotten and sinking PRC. only u save our untouchable grace, brightest dream since my ancestor's Empire half millennium ago.

God, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, now u under custody of ur mom's. in this night, she, a mean bitch, arbitrarily banned me talk u later than 8:30pm, defied my 2 buzz in moments ago, but i know ur heart in the air, in the inseparable connect in Holy Spirit in any moment. let's dream deeper and purer in moonlight tonight, in bliss from Zhu's root, and stream of glories.

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Tuesday, March 13, 2012

nice season.

13/3/2012

dreamed of my being Israeli and contesting with Bill Gates family.^ last night visit son even his mom want it next day instead of the brillant day, for her duty in her school. I told son I changed my judge, claiming visiting him is my best gift from Heaven and the brightest moment in my life, not previously urged him waiting for my good news of arriving presents. in dawn dreamed my family, inc my parents and dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, is an Israeli family. we traveled and competed with Bill Gates' family in showtime. then in war time and we fought hard to survive the war field. lots of loving moments of team in the march in dream. Its a sunny morning even sun ray not so strong. 

10/3/2012

family traveld&dined out.^ thx God, with improved salary, I proposed son to dine toast buffet locally bimonthly and he admits. I think it will meaning we stay together alone from his mom's companion as commonly from now on. but as its first implement this time, and his mom help us seek group coupon online, so we invited her. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, ate less in the popular restaurant but in happy time. we managed to shoot photos there, with aid from a kind woman on neighbor seat. before the lunch, we traveled Qiqihar Peace Square, exactly other on the western part of the city from my QRRS dorm. son giggling a lot, even his mom got angers as usual after I held no brief upon her clumsily using our camera. this week I can't rid myself anxiousness with my pinched purse, but faith from Holy saves me from upset the gathering when dearest son enlightened so much. his mom likely strikes to re-zip the family, but that doomed to fail. my sailing out for my girls, for my Royal China, on solider concrete than any before. God, bring son his kindle reader sooner, and enrich his holy spirit even more! 

5/3/2012

recent extended morning sleeps.^ recent weekends enjoy more satisfying pc gaming with son, aided by his new powerful dell notebook. the air in this season really refreshing, we also enjoyed happy talks when we hanged out at noon. I also enjoyed movies made by BBC adapted from classic English literature. they really the potential limestone that brings forth recent world history full of mercy and glories influenced by English. I saw God's deed and Holy message reflects among the epics consists of real life of English society. however, recently I felt more exhausted on bed, and late sleep in mornings. I dreamed more in these lingerings on bed in dawn. I also felt more sex drive with bare sleepcoat on bed alone. God, isn't my girls approaching closer, isn't my new family emerging solider? God, my son,warrenzh 朱楚甲Hope of ChinaGod of Universe, recent referred several times that promised gift, a kindle reader with color e-ink, in his passionate expectation, bring us the gift, grant sooner my Royal of China on the scary land under title of my ancestor half millennium ago in shape sooner. God, affirm tender heart of my son, exactly yourself, with broader view of ur universe, ur galaxy. God, dad, put prayers in our family that forever grows, esp in this growing season. thx God, in ur grace! God, its now a milky pale morning, but I know bliss in every mouth nodding the Son and his family this beginning of day. 

27/2/2012

happy weekends as usual, but not without anxiousness.^ last Friday night my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, ported in my QRRS dorm. we gamed on my acer notebook and snacked. next morning we ate breakfast in nearby KFC, which so nice. the following weekends we immersed in pc games till his mom pushed my departure. this night in dorm, my heart full of bliss and thanks. Its second night with newest moon in the month. I praying smoothly next weekend we can dine in toast buffet restaurant, Golden Hans buffet. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, really didn't enjoy delicacy too much, I hope surprise him in the western style restaurant. God, my ancestor, Emperor of Ming Dynasty, bless us the joyful moment. 

24/2/2012

dreamed of passed mom in dawn. ^ last night went to bed earlier. got up later this morning, after lingering dream in which my passed mother managing our old family. its sunny now, but missing my son, who also want more gaming time with me. God, let's us reunion more meaningful! let our coming dinning out richer! 

22/2/2012

dreamed of death hunting in asylum.^ dreamed trapped again in mental hospital, plot of murder including doctors, state intelligent agents, against me and my son. a Uygur girl wardmate, also in the exile or jailbreak. God, thx for the Holy message. pl see my visit next month to the hospital peacefully. 

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