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Thursday, January 12, 2017

ready to leave for hometown tour 3rd.

dreamt of my once campus alumnus, in surname Shi. he was one of 2
schoolmates helped me when I first settled in Qiqihar after
graduation. in dream his house near mountain and open. at first I
thought its scenery. then I anxious about safety. Shi first denied
problem then gradually admitted it. his only elder sister also join
conversation, review gunned robberies, as well as wild mountain
predators and their brutality hurt their family and young memories.
then I review our old house also near mountain and kept so well by my
grant dad, warm and self-relies. in reality when I first settled in
Qiqihar and visited Shi's house, his house is a little slum among
shabby northern China residential area. toilet was near mile away and
backyard least spacey. but after nearly 2 decades, many slums turned
into skyscrapers now and I don't know where is Shi and his old family.
these weeks preparing hometown tour 3rd with woz, dearest son. I
previous severe concerned if my credit debt deprives me of airline,
but narrowly I got our flight ticket in a mid Monday night. my kid
brother tried his best to sell poverty, claiming my sister can't
afford our flights but under my emphasis promised ¥5000 from my sister
arrived in 2 times remission my failing kid brother loathed to
complete. we got a flight toward hometown while return voyage is train
whose ticket paid but still in hunting by ctrip.com, a Chinese
mainstream travel agency, due to PRC cheap policy said to protect the
poor while in fact lots of mid handlers profit from the scare of train
ticket. my alipay also once strangely locked me out of payment, till
called its support crew to fix it. recently I most concerned if my
payment totally freezed but so far attests I at large with my assets.
nevertheless, with stocking Chinese Yuan, I equipped myself another
domain, billingzhu for my future new family member in holy message.
soon after I gained it from godaddy its strangely deleted from my
account. after spent near half day desperately resuming it, I had to
call godaddy support and found unknown deletion likely beyond my
activity. and PRC tighten law against personal domain, restricting ISP
within its sovereign from support. God, reckless dictator in sinking
PRC desperate clinging to my portal online. where is the barked tree
tall enough for voice of holy bliss, voice of hope in destructive
nation like China? bring me sooner my Royal China to extinguish
sickened tyrant in PRC falling day by day. bring me sooner my Crowned
Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and our happy journey to central China,
our hometown, in gathering our relatives in lunar new year 2017. grant
us free web and steady investment on our cyberspace startup. thx, dad
God.

Thursday, December 29, 2016

dreamt with kid in tour.

first dreamt Pony Ma, founder of tencent.com, lives our neighbor. when I leaving my house topless, he and his parents just returning home and caught astonished. I explained I was in active art performance after found myself fully naked. then dreamt among kids. I esp cared a little girl likely a Tibetan. then with my kid traveling in delegation of my once colleagues of QRRS cable TV station. my kid creative and rushes to package and seats for the bus when we leaving a mountain village, just like myself unsettled for tour coming. this week barely looking forward to new year end bonus from my once and long time employer, QRRS. last salary brought me ¥3100, merely covered credit debt clearance monthly, 2000rmb. now I had several small bill to write off, inc tea subscription, treating neighbor kid for his lent us internet during our switching to fiber cable from PPPOE dialing, monthly cinema with woz, Taiwanese restaurant Formosa membership recharge, keep alive several debit accounts after annual fee charges, groupon showers, etc. I already had 2 local debtee with debt 1100rmb, and my web assets didn't fully renew, esp small cost but largely rewards, like amazon prime, localphone rental. I almost can't live without them. zhone's 16 domains under woz, my dearest son's title, also needs renewal which nearly charges $250. coming new year holiday also renders additional expense for dorm canteen then will out of service. I have to feed myself and treat my son in gatherings in the period. devil in dorm still pesters me, even more shamelessly and desperate. they frequently cut me offline when I enjoy passive listening or watching, ie. no my input on computer, trying to entangle me in cheap under espionage. they also deprive me off due caliber of web traffic capacity, results in badly lagging video and webpage loading loop at rate near 0 bit/s. they trying ruin my pleasure among cyberspace community. my dorm's window wall leaked, loose with many ashes broken down. I invited dorm director, a young tall and beautiful woman, to inspect if it turns dangerous. but she brought 2 technicians and they claimed well around. I still don't believe in. I want change to another dorm room well in shape and to evade the dark and poisonous souls around my current dorm, esp the spitting and cough pretending cow in facing neighbor. my current residential situation likely predefined before my move in, doomed to frustrate me and intimidate me into sad silence among criminal and sick. they hated my brilliant website long enough. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to revitalize my mission so far so joyful to discipline Chinese in new millennium for future gracious survival, for greater transformation of its people and culture sound and independent. bring my son and myself via airline to our hometown in 3rd journey anxious free. grant me independent finance to maintain our web investment and growth of presence online.

Tuesday, December 20, 2016

in need of caring.

dreamt detailedly about Japanese chore machine. there are 4 or 5
cabins, with different functions, like washing clothes, shower, put on
clothes, sleeping, massage, etc. each item has checkout or deduction,
financial log function. shower and put on clothes let me lingered a
lot. clothing charges 198 Japanese Yen. I even can't leave but trying
more and more till penniless. they are all 360 rotatable, around human
body inside. putting on clothes let you extending arms and shift your
waist to slide into clothes with string direction. it even can be
erotic. I later anxious if showering robot including smart toilet
cover function. its a silent Tuesday morning. since Monday morning
hoarfrost appeared on trees. salary day coming and I put on so much
hopes. next month I will book airline and railway for our hometown
tour, among rumors that during lunar spring festival holiday train
ticket will be scarce. last Friday night my son, woz, Hope of China,
ported a night in my dorm. recent credit debt crisis drove me away
from caring his living, so many occasions I asked why he always put on
his school uniform which is boring even in weekends, he didn't reply.
I thought his mom or the grandma would buy him more or less clothes in
my hard time. but they never. in the night when we lately went to bed,
I found my son slept with an old style cotton-padded trousers, likely
the trousers too tight to take off, my anger roused thick. I know at
the moment his sinful mother never bought him new clothes. I tried to
pacify myself but can't. so I got up and ordered 2 winter trousers and
2 pants for being stylish my son deserves. I asked my kid brother to
pay instead of me, for my only reservoir in ABC bank didn't bundle
with mobile number and can't spend online. so next morning I brought
my son on way returning his mom's house visit ABC bank and settled it.
just when I preparing to pay via alipay, I found my order already
paid, likely by my brother. so I additionally bought my son a pair of
winter shoes on my own. I asked my son let me know next time when
something needed. God, dad, what a misery my son was once! what a
affirmative my role as a proud dad meaningful! dad God, never let that
happen again, never deprive me from support my son's living! bring me
sooner my Royal China to sustain Chinese children, China wet and land!
bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, to improve
my son's standard. in coming year end fulfill us with due joys and
anxious free. grant us a flight tour for better means of travel and
timespace.