Friday, May 20, 2016

dream in prewar.

dreamt of social motivation. in dawn dream I was in team to allocate social resources. I assign reward for every personel enrolled, encode frequent used amount into quantity unit, embed short code replacing frequently used long terms like compression in propaganda slogans, which includes Zhao Benshang’s northeastern Chinese folk ballad, 二人转. civil war’s fog topmost heavy in the dream, we do our best to prepare for it. my old family’s enemy, the second husband of my aunt and his offspring, one of them is our neighbor in hometown village Zhudajiu, tempted me comment on his youngest brother’s performance, I said he is kind and popular. my passed mother in dream then asked me about myself, I said anyone know me would respect me. the enemy agreed. my mother glad upon my reputation. the dream is very clear and I needn’t hurry to blog after I woke up. this week I mostly peacefully enjoy silence before change. I watched more movies online, esp love movies which remind me of my broken love in Nankai Univ, and my crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, when she studies abroad with us. I also bathed more in noon sunshine now that summer weather gradually steps in. Qiqihar this summer peculiarly cold among world report of increased temperature most places on the earth. last night I watched a Japanese episode, life in additional time. first episode about a youth values vocation more important than family and died on site and regret for his family he even didn’t know still loving him. second about common family how hard to find a better commodite like a richer meal in routine life. the good wife risk her life to bring a beef meal for her family before her decrease on rush road for discount meat. that reminds me of my burden in my trying best to support my son a better life so far, lends us to credit deficit. but I don’t regret, and only Christian saves China and Japan. only YHWH blesses world of no shortage but plenty in glory. out of him poverty and chaos breeds like rats and murders like norm, esp. in Buddhism and Islamic, in Asia and Africa. God, dad, thanks for the holy sign of rejoice. grant us a peaceful reunion this afternoon when I dine out my son grill mutton. dad, God, grant me more agile growth in my cyberspace existence. bring me my Royal China and its outline from distant view when I moulding Empire of China. fill my heart with love and brave. thx for the summer morning, God.

Sunday, May 15, 2016

dwell with hardness on my nation.

dreamt of summit. yesterday is exhausting for me after reunited with
my son, woz, my most concerned. I told him my new source of
confidence, new strategy to cope with current hard finance. I brought
him dine out with Islamic noodle cuisine with which I again groupon
and paid by my credit digitally, our favorite mean of dining out but
forgiven this year for credit crisis and slump economy. my son less
surprised but maintained acknowledged. I also tried to prepare his
smart TV with more functions the android os powered. in dorm in the
dawn I dreamt assigned to write speech for boss who will lecture on
the summit. I managed separate headline and body of the speech, embed
my family domains' site each part, for more appearance of zhone
cyberspace existence. when the summit gathered, the keynote didn't
take place, I only saw the labor union chairman of QRRS, a guy almost
same period enrolled by the SOE and more or less acquaintance. I
watched far from the hot circle of audience among the party and some
QRRS staff playful with me nearby. we gradually retreated and I woke
up lately. I don't know why I felt so sleepy, but I now have more time
to sleep while my whole business stable and in early stage which means
more patience. I likely wouldn't find myself another job to make a
living, for I resolved to sit and dwelt with hardest situation in
sinking PRC, my vested kingdom. I needn't another option to flee from
my people, my land which so fertile and sustaining. I have vocation
and proud of it, which is not weak one nor demands protection from
peer stable source of feed. I don't need a second occupation for
sacrifice for my main concern, my kingdom and cyberspace startup.
that's my rebirth of confidence from void in wane of hardness these
weeks. God, dad, save my nation from broken, save us from starving and
scatter of exile. grant me regal life with my son, my girls I
entreated so far online. bring me life style we enjoy so far, remove
my debt burden step by step when beholding my enterprise online. dad,
God, help me live healthy and resilient in my mid-age.

Saturday, May 7, 2016

dream of revolution.

dreamt first about resort in farming field to treat insomnia. my once
colleague in QRRS, Chi, a shameless bureaucracy career chaser, also in
the farm resort and likely surveillance me. then dream being a
rebellion, with his 2 comrades, one titled cloud blade, 云锋 in Chinese,
one titled period blade, 节锋 in chinese. the latter likely betrayed to
and murdered by our enemies. I with cloud blade probing the missing of
our comrade, among risky mob of rebellions and counter rebellions. its
a pale morning since last drizzling night. I missed 2 breakfasts and
kept awake earlier not to miss it again. yesterday PSBC local branch
buzzed again that its his last call before possible seizure of my
salary card if I unable return credit deficit in time in last chance.
if so, I would have to make a living alone beside salary offered by my
once and long time employer, QRRS, an old style SOE, whose poor salary
forces me to loan and miserable. I yet configured the ethic aspect of
my financial status, but likely change occurs now, for surviving
myself and my son. finding a job always daunting challenge for me,
used to be casual and common. lower salary or lower skill intensified,
that's likely a balance I will strike. God, its not easy for a man in
his near 50s to be relocated. grant us life we enjoy so far. grant us
balance between personal achievement and social contribution. dad,
God, bring me sooner my Royal China to boast sinking PRC. bring me
affordable entrepreneur for better life and time management.
#God #AsohYukiko #dream #love #life

Sunday, May 1, 2016

fantasy in western Chinese woman.

dreamt of Islamic woman and fantastic scene. yesterday dinned in a
Islamic restaurant we haunted a lot and where I especially amazed by
the hostess by her exotic beauty. in dawn dream I with the woman on a
giant dam control unit and watching huge flow. I then on guestbook
chose a heroic name as my name. then in a comic movies scene I chatted
with female partner and experienced adventure. I again chose a
historic name as my signature. I tried to blog but its too cold to
open my pc right the moment after woke up. I napped again and in dream
I wording details for blog in dawn time. when I actually started to
blog on my chromebook half put on, most memories gone. last week busy
with reinstall os on woz's 2 pcs which lagging and likely infected.
lots of data, esp. online games, await to restore before we enjoy the
fruit of a cleaner system. one of my credit card issuer, ICBC, warned
of possible lock down my salary card before I fully return its credit
due. I reported danger of the scenario to my hometown relatives, ie.
my elder brothers. they likely mobilized to try to help, but so far
result unknown. I badly need ¥9000 inject to my bad debt to re-enable
currency of my credits quota and living cost, while my relatives
insisted disabled all my credit card forever, for they don't want to
respond with my debt, esp credit anymore. I love my credit card, my
websites online. they engage me with workload and manageable. God dad,
please allow me cultivate on my vested land. allow me grow vegetables
in my backyard. I'm now in my prime light while aging makes daily work
more definitive personally. rid me off anxiousness of living expense,
focus me on building and expanding cyberspace reality under Holy
affirmative. bring me sooner my Royal China for the better China
Empire in 1109 years ahead. bring me my girls and offspring that's
vital for my destiny.
#God #AsohYukiko #dream #life #love