Friday, April 23, 2010
note 2rd on Hometown Journey countdown: tickets of train ready.
this again a brilliant morning. i stayed in office for the last work day in the week. i saw bliss of God, as well as of my girl zhou, for whom i searched via cyberspace for so many years, with whom we will at least have a twin babies in coming years that soon, and who follows me the best. God, sees my love for u, for ur Heaven, for my beloved, my passed dad, my baby son in growth, Masheng the Japanese Crowned Queen of mine, my girls that's praying for our reunion in their prime time. God, save me from eagerness for my new life ahead, like the marvelous booming summer season in my hometown, central China!
note 2rd on Hometown Journey: trains ticket ready.
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Thursday, April 22, 2010
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1st note in countdown of hometown journey.
note 1st in the countdown of hometown journey
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Wednesday, April 21, 2010
a chat with baby's mom on Chinese inferior
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a chat with baby's mom, emakingir, about the inferior of Chinese.
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edit&corrected my typo in Chinese.
posted yesterday:
yesterday, God let me prepared to return to my hometown. now preparing working environment for baby's gaming&entertainment, by buying a new dell notebook. i will stay till the working environment working for baby, then i start my hometown journey, the second since recent years.
life so sweat with God's guidance.
i m returning to my hometown in Hubei Prov., central China
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Tuesday, April 20, 2010
shiny even in a pale day: love between Son&Father.
19/4/2010
a gloomy day with heartbreaking love&pardon.^those days i slept sound. after visited office later than 8am, got know by chat with baby's mom, emakingir, online, that baby cried in the morning, don't want to join the kindergarten. ema likely weeps online. my heart fulfilled with sorry and loving. the weather also reminded me unfavorable, so i left office to visit baby son. the kindergarten quite near my office, a tour on foot for less than 10 minutes. i doubting if dog, ie. porter will blocked me, for in China dog or cops dominating all fields. but God lets me direct walked to the classroom baby members. the teacher received me with smile, and asked who i m. i told her i m the father. as soon as caught sight of baby, i kneed a leg and squadded to talk with baby. i talked him how his parents love him, and urged him happy time should arrives in sequence, in our anticipation with patience. baby nodded when i affirmed him. i kiss his cheek&left with his consent. in office i roamed for about an hour, reviewing love in my family, between Son&God. then most of the day enjoying reading and web assets hunting. in the restaurant, some trifle people, likely some were my once colleagues, babbled about Internet and China censorship. returned to dorm, i sorted stuff awhile, then again reviewed love of Holy between baby and me, in music lately after 11pm. when i returned from lavatory&prepared to sleep, the kitty in the dorm visited me and ask for food. i went to the grocer within the dorms area&bought it 2 sausage, fed it with a small one. the roommate of its owner, a grey man i referred in previous blog, went to buy ready food&found us. i let him take away the kitty with the remnant of the sausage. its really not bad to feed a animal friend. now its a bright morning, with crisp breeze and brilliant sunshine. when i got up i found some queues on the ground, with a lecturing man. likely they r senior collegians taking practice here in the factory. God, time sliding, where is my beloved?From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
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Holy love in a pale day, Masheng sees.
19/4/2010
a gloomy day with heartbreaking love&pardon.^those days i slept sound. after visited office later than 8am, got know by chat with baby's mom, emakingir, online, that baby cried in the morning, don't want to join the kindergarten. ema likely weeps online. my heart fulfilled with sorry and loving. the weather also reminded me unfavorable, so i left office to visit baby son. the kindergarten quite near my office, a tour on foot for less than 10 minutes. i doubting if dog, ie. porter will blocked me, for in China dog or cops dominating all fields. but God lets me direct walked to the classroom baby members. the teacher received me with smile, and asked who i m. i told her i m the father. as soon as caught sight of baby, i kneed a leg and squadded to talk with baby. i talked him how his parents love him, and urged him happy time should arrives in sequence, in our anticipation with patience. baby nodded when i affirmed him. i kiss his cheek&left with his consent. in office i roamed for about an hour, reviewing love in my family, between Son&God. then most of the day enjoying reading and web assets hunting. in the restaurant, some trifle people, likely some were my once colleagues, babbled about Internet and China censorship. returned to dorm, i sorted stuff awhile, then again reviewed love of Holy between baby and me, in music lately after 11pm. when i returned from lavatory&prepared to sleep, the kitty in the dorm visited me and ask for food. i went to the grocer within the dorms area&bought it 2 sausage, fed it with a small one. the roommate of its owner, a grey man i referred in previous blog, went to buy ready food&found us. i let him take away the kitty with the remnant of the sausage. its really not bad to feed a animal friend.now its a bright morning, with crisp breeze and brilliant sunshine. when i got up i found some queues on the ground, with a lecturing man. likely they r senior collegians taking practice here in the factory. God, time sliding, where is my beloved?
From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
for picasaweb&flickr blocked within China mainland, the shit&dog dominated sinful land, here some digest of photos hosted domestically.
sunset among trees outside of QRRS stadium.
QRRS statue in sunset.
a slice of grass in front of my office.
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love deepen in Holy family, in a touched pale day.
19/4/2010
a gloomy day with heartbreaking love&pardon.^those days i slept sound. after visited office later than 8am, got know by chat with baby's mom, emakingir, online, that baby cried in the morning, don't want to join the kindergarten. ema likely weeps online. my heart fulfilled with sorry and loving. the weather also reminded me unfavorable, so i left office to visit baby son. the kindergarten quite near my office, a tour on foot for less than 10 minutes. i doubting if dog, ie. porter will blocked me, for in China dog or cops dominating all fields. but God lets me direct walked to the classroom baby members. the teacher received me with smile, and asked who i m. i told her i m the father. as soon as caught sight of baby, i kneed a leg and squadded to talk with baby. i talked him how his parents love him, and urged him happy time should arrives in sequence, in our anticipation with patience. baby nodded when i affirmed him. i kiss his cheek&left with his consent. in office i roamed for about an hour, reviewing love in my family, between Son&God. then most of the day enjoying reading and web assets hunting. in the restaurant, some trifle people, likely some were my once colleagues, babbled about Internet and China censorship. returned to dorm, i sorted stuff awhile, then again reviewed love of Holy between baby and me, in music lately after 11pm. when i returned from lavatory&prepared to sleep, the kitty in the dorm visited me and ask for food. i went to the grocer within the dorms area&bought it 2 sausage, fed it with a small one. the roommate of its owner, a grey man i referred in previous blog, went to buy ready food&found us. i let him take away the kitty with the remnant of the sausage. its really not bad to feed a animal friend. now its a bright morning, with crisp breeze and brilliant sunshine. when i got up i found some queues on the ground, with a lecturing man. likely they r senior collegians taking practice here in the factory. God, time sliding, where is my beloved?From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
From heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines. |
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heal for heartbreaking moment with baby son. God shines.
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Sunday, April 18, 2010
shines baby son with God in weekend's visit, rid off dwelling devil.
18/4/2010
visit baby son yesterday.^yesterday is a bright day. when i arrived, baby son watching animation online. God let me doubt if i should buy him his favorite food first, but i didn't, except a capsule of dry beef i bought last day. then i launched to backup my stuff to dvds via my Acer notebook left to baby's mom to use those months, restored the os from backup. the grandma soon arrived, cooked us 2 meat dishes: a chicken with mushroom, a fish. the noise of her cutting the chicken let baby uncomfortable, and he asked his mom and me to care him by sat around him. after lunch, with which i quite enjoyed while baby ate less, baby was brought outside by his mom for sunburn, while i busy with installing all new games on the notebook, after trying to restore its previous personal settings. baby slept on way near his mom's home, i was asked to fetch them, met them when baby dozed on his mom's back. after shown ema some stuff, ie. cliparts and templates, for her courseware, and educational multimedia for baby son, i went to public bathroom, where i showered&haircut. bought baby son icecream. baby enjoyed it at once after i returned there. then shown baby newly installed games. baby partially attracted&tried some with my companion. the devil, the grandma, likely maltreated baby son with rudeness and sins, so when i talked about God, baby shown impatience, and reluctant to game on the digital virtual land i trust a lot. God, u know what i want to pray, never let baby son erode by meaningless boring nor too much wasted time among human that's meaningless.baby's mom, emakingir, likely enchanted by the rich materials i prepared for her work. she let me replace my worn winter coat, later pants before i left, both never washed for the whole winter for i had no enough clothes to rotate, with in season suite. when i left, i forgot my under clothing left after shower. in the night the demons in neighbor room in QRRS dorms shown me their hatred when i went to lavatory to fetch boiled water. their sins more and more in my view.
its a pale day so far. the canteen of QRRS dorms, resumed into service after a month and more time to refurnish. but likely not so many residents in the dorms were attracted. i visited office after some doubts in the dorm room. now i will enjoy surfing as time glides. God, u save.
benzrad's tweet on Apr 16,2010
most of the morning sunny. enjoy flying with breeze online, by keeping gains from web resource. time to still the moment that's rich in the world. God saves me from aggressive hunting in the realm. i love staying with the intelligent properties so much. save me from danger, God. i surely abide self-restraint. let me fly and forget myself awhile! i enjoy the flood of freedom. - yesterday
last night busy with trying new games till 11pm, prepared for baby son in next visit. i also determined trying my best to game more in my own leisure time. its now a sunny morning, after yesterday's brilliance. God, save me in balance of resources hunting and enjoyment with the fruits of collecting&cultivating. i want less nerd and more persistent hero of life's truth, public and private. now let me submerging into stuff and news world again.
God, keep ur shines over baby son, against the devil of boring&pragmatism.
18/4/2010
visit baby son yesterday.^yesterday is a bright day. when i arrived, baby son watching animation online. God let me doubt if i should buy him his favorite food first, but i didn't, except a capsule of dry beef i bought last day. then i launched to backup my stuff to dvds via my Acer notebook left to baby's mom to use those months, restored the os from backup. the grandma soon arrived, cooked us 2 meat dishes: a chicken with mushroom, a fish. the noise of her cutting the chicken let baby uncomfortable, and he asked his mom and me to care him by sat around him. after lunch, with which i quite enjoyed while baby ate less, baby was brought outside by his mom for sunburn, while i busy with installing all new games on the notebook, after trying to restore its previous personal settings. baby slept on way near his mom's home, i was asked to fetch them, met them when baby dozed on his mom's back. after shown ema some stuff, ie. cliparts and templates, for her courseware, and educational multimedia for baby son, i went to public bathroom, where i showered&haircut. bought baby son icecream. baby enjoyed it at once after i returned there. then shown baby newly installed games. baby partially attracted&tried some with my companion. the devil, the grandma, likely maltreated baby son with rudeness and sins, so when i talked about God, baby shown impatience, and reluctant to game on the digital virtual land i trust a lot. God, u know what i want to pray, never let baby son erode by meaningless boring nor too much wasted time among human that's meaningless. baby's mom, emakingir, likely enchanted by the rich materials i prepared for her work. she let me replace my worn winter coat, later pants before i left, both never washed for the whole winter for i had no enough clothes to rotate, with in season suite. when i left, i forgot my under clothing left after shower. in the night the demons in neighbor room in QRRS dorms shown me their hatred when i went to lavatory to fetch boiled water. their sins more and more in my view. its a pale day so far. the canteen of QRRS dorms, resumed into service after a month and more time to refurnish. but likely not so many residents in the dorms were attracted. i visited office after some doubts in the dorm room. now i will enjoy surfing as time glides. God, u save. http://amplify.com/u/4qkgPosted via web from benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly...鸠昱隆嘉
Friday, April 16, 2010
cloudy of stuff, freedom of farming&hunting like primitive.
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Wednesday, April 14, 2010
God shows with crystal clearance and shocking accurateness his gift for the Son, me
harness rich media for family entertainment.^a cloudy day. busy with rich resource on web. dash and rush for store of plays. God, save me from obsessing with those stuff i reckon valuable and hold dear. i know u grant my hobby on it.
this late afternoon u let me meet up my baby son, God of Universe, Hope of China, u let me not to eat steam bun any more, u let me doubting what is wrong in my recent life. i m a bit in puzzle. God, i know the life of ur son can't be more glorious, i know any moment i molding history with my deed and choice. God, let me in ur love, in ur shine, in ur consistent joys, let my beloved closer to me, to my new life in growing the Royal of China.
God, i trust u. promise me forever covering me with Spirit!
below is benzrad's web comments on Apr 14, 2010, lunar first day of March.
the world aphasia upon sinful challenge.
Re: http://amplify.com/u/4ijh @shaor3 yes, world steadily steers into total war between religions. "smart people" just half-close their eyes upon the International dumbfound and mute upon the mutation and persistent evil challenge.
all after all, God saves. the sin's brewing, its rise and fall, wax and wane, all in God's setting. the land's residents can change, but the title of God never changes.
in reference to: http://jatfla.amplify.com/2010/04/13/obama-no-guarantee-on-sanctions/#liComment_403 (view on Google Sidewiki)
on war by muslim.
Benzrad Zhu Re: http://amplify.com/u/4ijp @shaor3 new forms of threats. war of security never stops, but changes forms. however, human history don't stopped by a single threat just for its alien harmful at cost of helpful.
on just-do-it life motto.
Benzrad Zhu Re: http://amplify.com/u/4io9 @dgrossman yes, the bible also suggests the greatest joy of now, being now.
on mobile payment encourage Intelligent property.
Benzrad Zhu insightful. easy payment on cell really somewhat encourage user to buy to read.
a new start, on lunar Mar 1st, 2010.
below is benzrad's web comments on Apr 14, 2010, lunar first day of March.
the world aphasia upon sinful challenge.
Re: http://amplify.com/u/4ijh @shaor3 yes, world steadily steers into total war between religions. "smart people" just half-close their eyes upon the International dumbfound and mute upon the mutation and persistent evil challenge. all after all, God saves. the sin's brewing, its rise and fall, wax and wane, all in God's setting. the land's residents can change, but the title of God never changes. in reference to: http://jatfla.amplify.com/2010/04/13/obama-no-guarantee-on-sanctions/#liComment_403 (view on Google Sidewiki)on war by muslim.
Benzrad Zhu Re: http://amplify.com/u/4ijp @shaor3 new forms of threats. war of security never stops, but changes forms. however, human history don’t stopped by a single threat just for its alien harmful at cost of helpful.on just-do-it life motto.
Benzrad Zhu Re: http://amplify.com/u/4io9 @dgrossman yes, the bible also suggests the greatest joy of now, being now.on mobile payment encourage Intelligent property.
Benzrad Zhu insightful. easy payment on cell really somewhat encourage user to buy to read. http://amplify.com/u/4j6uPosted via web from benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly...鸠昱隆嘉
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
quilty and sanity
13/4/2010
a windy morning but now sunny.^yesterday can called a accomplishment. my work style should prolonging it: blog, clog, plog with people sharing common interests. last night in office, i first time tried screenshot warez to demo baby's mom, emakingir, some powerpoint skill, before i left to dorm. when i informed her the file sent to her email box, she said baby was gaming on her notebook so she can't check it right now. i felt so glad to know that baby, who shown reluctance those days in the threatening of hot competition among Chinese youth even in childhood just for a securer advantage in the rat's race of burning&smashing social pot, enjoyed pc games alone, that i buzzed in later than 9pm. but baby was a bit confused by my query which game he played. so it turns clear that his mom likely lied to me in the claim that baby gaming. she always insecure upon her job, a middle school teacher, which is dirty and inferior equality among China education nowadays. she frequently hates anyone attempts to teach, the profession she still making a living with quite some gray incomes, with her barking at corner. i called back later than 10pm to inform her guilty of lying, and baby's, too. i felt an urgency to tell baby his mom is insane, just the same of his mom's mother, the grandma, in family name Ruan 阮. i then envisaged the source of being guilty, the Holy's pure sanity, his love to let people step out of their guilty or dark in just a repent to God, rid of harms of self-destructive and abuse of evil, and the ruined balance in their shabby lives by evil's don't gave up their lingering assault on human soul. i appeal for God's mighty to rid baby son any of sin, praying God to let me do at once over the need. praying that i never had to cram with any anxiousness to correct something, but anytime in Spirit and done in flicker of the thought's invite. i rest in love of God, and slept after 11pm.in the dawn, i was woke up by pains in stomachs. its the second time. i went to lavatory and shit, then resumed my dream on bed. i dreamed of all my brothers in my hometown. its a strong windy weather when i went to office, God let me shot a movie of the wind. after i settled in office and prepared posting, it turns bright sunny. God, saves me in Joice, in astonish of gift u present me. bring my girl zhou, my 3rd wife and crowned Queen of China, with my 2rd marriage. bring me closer to my 2nd wife, Masheng, my Japanese Crowned Queen, and our first son, my 2nd son, yearning for birth. bring me my most satisfied wife, my Taiwanese bride, to prepared our first son, my 3rd son, in my Royal. that's the brilliant today's meaning. God, u see.
From first rain in lunar 2010 |
From first rain in lunar 2010 |
video of windy in QRRS Dorms:
http://vimeo.com/10886898
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http://www.flickr.com/photos/benzhu/4516406073/
http://posterous.com/getfile/files.posterous.com/benzillar/FtOMt3560efHIqQllnmRfOZUkoerNc92N2DD0xXVANp7yXMvfKircbx0YTdK/windy_morning_in_QRRS_Dorms.mp4
[flickr video=4516406073 w=418 h=320]
for picasaweb&flickr blocked within China mainland, the shit&dog dominated sinful land, here some digest of photos hosted domestically.
abirds' meeting on top of trees.喜鹊跃高枝,齐车好出处.
birds' gathering, within QRRS factory area, with an abstract touch.齐车厂院聚喜鹊。
guilty and sanity
From first rain in lunar 2010 |
From first rain in lunar 2010 |
video of windy in QRRS Dorms:
abirds' meeting on top of trees.喜鹊跃高枝,齐车好出处. birds' gathering, within QRRS factory area, with an abstract touch.齐车厂院聚喜鹊。 http://amplify.com/u/4h95Posted via web from benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly...鸠昱隆嘉
guilty and sanity
13/4/2010
a windy morning but now sunny.^yesterday can called a accomplishment. my work style should prolonging it: blog, clog, plog with people sharing common interests. last night in office, i first time tried screenshot warez to demo baby's mom, emakingir, some powerpoint skill, before i left to dorm. when i informed her the file sent to her email box, she said baby was gaming on her notebook so she can't check it right now. i felt so glad to know that baby, who shown reluctance those days in the threatening of hot competition among Chinese youth even in childhood just for a securer advantage in the rat's race of burning&smashing social pot, enjoyed pc games alone, that i buzzed in later than 9pm. but baby was a bit confused by my query which game he played. so it turns clear that his mom likely lied to me in the claim that baby gaming. she always insecure upon her job, a middle school teacher, which is dirty and inferior equality among China education nowadays. she frequently hates anyone attempts to teach, the profession she still making a living with quite some gray incomes, with her barking at corner. i called back later than 10pm to inform her guilty of lying, and baby's, too. i felt an urgency to tell baby his mom is insane, just the same of his mom's mother, the grandma, in family name Ruan 阮. i then envisaged the source of being guilty, the Holy's pure sanity, his love to let people step out of their guilty or dark in just a repent to God, rid of harms of self-destructive and abuse of evil, and the ruined balance in their shabby lives by evil's don't gave up their lingering assault on human soul. i appeal for God's mighty to rid baby son any of sin, praying God to let me do at once over the need. praying that i never had to cram with any anxiousness to correct something, but anytime in Spirit and done in flicker of the thought's invite. i rest in love of God, and slept after 11pm.in the dawn, i was woke up by pains in stomachs. its the second time. i went to lavatory and shit, then resumed my dream on bed. i dreamed of all my brothers in my hometown. its a strong windy weather when i went to office, God let me shot a movie of the wind. after i settled in office and prepared posting, it turns bright sunny. God, saves me in Joice, in astonish of gift u present me. bring my girl zhou, my 3rd wife and crowned Queen of China, with my 2rd marriage. bring me closer to my 2nd wife, Masheng, my Japanese Crowned Queen, and our first son, my 2nd son, yearning for birth. bring me my most satisfied wife, my Taiwanese bride, to prepared our first son, my 3rd son, in my Royal. that's the brilliant today's meaning. God, u see.
From first rain in lunar 2010 |
From first rain in lunar 2010 |
abirds' meeting on top of trees.喜鹊跃高枝,齐车好出处.
birds' gathering, within QRRS factory area, with an abstract touch.齐车厂院聚喜鹊。
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