love since 2008,

31/12/2012

all about spouse dream. ^ yesterday I had good time with my son, after broke by his sinister mother so long. we lunched together, and showered, too. I recently introduced son my love story with Asoh Yukiko, back to 1999 in Nankai Univ, and her motherhood to him. my son listened carefully. in dawn dreamed cozily. in a piece with my Nankai Univ alumni, esp. Chenfeng, a guy from Huan Prov, southern China. he with his spouse, an alumni of Nankai 2 years later than us in same school of philosophy. they treated me well and I likely saw my future wife among people in the party. then dream of some guy from QRRS, where when we lived in QRRS' dorms we got familiar. Yushunde, likely so called a gentle young man, also kindly introduced me to their party. and finally I was in a school with a girl classmate, she asked my help to make note with teacher's lecture. the later teaching how to use "look into something in team", or so. my cordiality likely won the girl's heart, at least I felt love between us which is a kind of emotion long time no see in my waiting for reuniting my girls, girl LV, Asoh Yukiki, girl Zhou, my Taiwan girl, for my Royal China. God, this morning I woke up earlier, pl see my girls my concerning, my praying every moment to join them. God, thx for son's new kindle paperwhite, for which we want so long and gained it so quick. thx, God dad. 

28/12/2012

odd dreamed of campus friend. ^ this dawn I had a long dream, in which first time one of my best friend in youth appeared. He is Qiu Xiaolin, now a literature professor in Shichuan Univ. likely at first we gossiped as usual. then my nail clipper infected with virus. i brought it to visit Qiu in campus dorm. the virus on the clipper turns huge and dangerous, like eating flesh. then dreamed among air combat teams we piloted jets and enjoy raids. this week I too busy with setup my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲's 3rd domain, woz.fm, and never buzzed him. his mom, disabled mentally like her body size, jealous freakishly upon my son's good time with me in video games, so now more and more deprive my son from computer, including surfing online. this week my son likley banned from going online. the dirty bitch really go mad. God, save us good time in video game, free my son of anxious &burden of Chinese education, esp in PRC, which draining and killer of originality and curiosity. God, bring me sooner my Royal China to home my sons, esp God himself, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe. 

24/10/2012

dreamed of local mafia.^ yesterday when i ate lunch before showering with son, in the restuarant we frequented a table occupied by 3 males likely gangsters, around the other table a team gossiped about mafia in Qiqihar. I had good time when dining there, for son enjoyed the feature dish, souped dumplings. in public bathroom, i felt faint after a sudden stand up when crouched to bath my son. this dawn I dreamed my son outperformed in family gathering. his mom and me, his proud dad, felt so glorious being his parents. in guests, likely mafia appeared. at least in half consciousness I reviewed a mafia stemmed from QRRS, where I still paid and lived. It shallowly snowed last night, God, clear world of Royal China never arguable. God, thx the gift, son's new kinder paperwhite, in year end. bring me sooner my Royal China, esp. my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and allow us 2 additional sons in our prime time. 

21/12/2012

dreamed of competing.^ son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, due to complete his frequent heat treatment yesterday. I didn't visit him the day, but busy claiming him new domain online, as a promised wishlist. recently many dreams scattered when i got up. but this late dawn I had something notable. I dreamed with my passed mother, and my son's mother, accompanied son in competing social circle or career avenue. my childhood friend in my hometown village, Zhudajiu, with whome last year I found deep hatred after a heartedly chat online, my cousin there who works in bureaucracy in bloody hatred, and some other challenges all stemmed from jealousy. now Its a sunny morning, after bright new half moon night. the seasonal gift, a kindle paperwhite, cheered us so much! my son brought it everywhere like what I encouraged him. God, u see our thanksgiving, we obliged to u so much. God, free me of anxious about my entrepreneurship, esp in broadening family cyberspace. God, bring me sooner my Royal China, bring me my crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, to setup my new fmaily sooner, for her due motherhood with warrenzh. God, see me my prayer! 

14/12/2012

a week in moving.^ this week almost all spent accompanying my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, in hospital, where his heat after skating in a snowing day treated. my son finally ordered a Kindle paperwhite ebook reader aid by my Nankai alumni, thx God. so good so far. in the hospital in-patient department, i tried all means to help my son being busy or meaningful, likely playing video games, ate KFC i bought, massage and lots of chatting. in Tuesday night i buzzed to curse his mom for again let my son x-rayed, after read a tweet online that x-ray photography harmful to kids and shouldn't be used as regular diagnosis method while in corrupting PRC its widely adopted. this dawn i dreamed a lot, my son appears and so concerned in my heart in dream and in recent dreams. Its a promising sunny morning, God, dad, thx for the blessing week aside my dearest son. thx for gifts in the gift season. bring me sooner my Royal China to allow me home my son, God on earth now! 

6/12/2012

dreamed of my passed parents. ^recent water heat in QRRS Dorms, esp in night, frequently chill me to woke up. last night a Taiwan love TV show again concerned me lingering in front of screen lately near 1am. this afternoon i dozed, and dreamed of my grand dad, God in Heaven now, and my mother, my aunt's husband. both men cordially while my mother first encouraged my hobby of carrying a camera everywhere, but later anxious about photographer's life's impact on me. then in half-consciousness the story of the Taiwan TV drama interacts with me. God, blessing me anxious free about my aging and future family life. grant us season gifts and fulfill us hopes in surprise. God, dad, thx for the warmth when i napped. 

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gingerbread for holiday season.

4/12/2012

a strange dream. ^last night I visited my son &had good time immersed together in video games. this dawn dreamed with my cousin, Zhuwusong, in our hometown village, Zhudajiu, voluntarily donate blood. then I visit a digital tech company, impressed by their digital door keeper gears, inc computers managed card reading, and 3D animation workstations, which is my previous job. then with the cousin leaded by teachers or group, we voluntarily donate sperm. we dissected fields and choose woman in it. I managed to pick healthy and attractive woman for breeding but the cousin let me hurry. the dorm's water heat again less satisfactory, chilled me up. Its a peaceful sunny morning now. God, bring sanity to my son's living environment. bring sooner my Royal China to allow me home my son, and my sons and daughters arriving. 

3/12/2012

warrenzh's first skate in 2012. ^ this weekends reunion sweeter in our hearts, for I told my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, that I prepared to live him alone with me, away from his mom's dirty and poisonous seductive home life. last Friday afternoon I visit my son when his school is in break. my son was arranged by his mom to do homework while the bitch grandma, herself a dummy stone intelligently, supervised my son. I so picked to busy on my notebook away till found the cheap grandma selling sexually to my son. so I hauled &scorned &cursed. my son soon quit his homework and played pc games with me and made proud progress in it. in the night in my dorm, I saw my son's dirty environment, so I made a decision to allow my son choose if live under my custody, in my shabby dorm room. in the weekends we ate beef noodle warrenzh chosen, showered in the public bathroom he picked. I urged times and times that in God's world he obliged to nobody, liable to nobody around him serving him. he several times let me shut up but God knows its clearer those freaky women back to what hell they from. In Sunday afternoon it starts to snow again so warrenzh went to skate as his mom suggested. he had good time on the ice ground. God, isn't it saved and blessed?
these days I also dreamed of my kid brother several times, reviewing our brotherhood in dream. this morning I again dreamed of Nankai Univ, where I attending a seminar and trying present my thesis. quite some alumni appeared there in my dawn dream. God, grant us a happy Christmas holiday, enrich our life with due season gifts. God, bring sooner my Royal China. 

26/11/2012

memorable weekends reunion. ^ last weekend descended after I looked forward it for more than a week. my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, descended to visit my QRRS dorm, first time after salary's shrink. we dined in KFC, also a toast stick from nearby restaurant where I last time rebuffed for loan to eat there. of cause we played video games. my son, Hope of China, God of Universe, shown likeness to stay with me, which let me sorry, and his mom's short of hospitality. last night I watched a Taiwan loving idol TV episode lately near 1am, burningly touched by spirit and inspiring faith of love in the story. God, u show me the merit of American and Japanese girls. God, so many meanings in the show for my concerns. God, allow me do more things i liked to make life better around me and people in my life. God, dad, thx u for this brilliant morning sunshine, and bring sooner my Royal China, so as to allow me home my son, my sons and daughters to arrive, in ur shine&grace cozily. Thx dad. 

18/11/2012

dreamed of sky-skiing with son. ^ dreamed my grand father eyes on us all time, with love. I fought in team of my dearest son against pests, like the video game we played last dusk. then we damaged something of my neighbor's, likely in my hometown, Zhudajiu village. then we skyskiing with hot air balloon. son steers while i hanged under my son. near before landing I was allowed to pilot it, and landing near our town. God, son's mom plotting against my weekends reunification with my son, God, thrust the evil, deflate it. grant me new shoes in the winter, son's ebook reader before year end. thx, God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China and show my son the true family life we deserve. 

12/11/2012

2nd snow in winter. ^ yesterday I enjoyed video game with my son so immersed. on way to dine out, I told him why girl Lv will be my first wife: the first girl, LvSongya, descended to honor me by visiting my family in my life back to my junior middle school. after showered, we found 2nd snow shallowly covered the ground. so I told my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, story of my eldest sister, ZhuXuezhen (means essence of snow in Chinese), who committed suicide when I was a junior middle school student by jumping into Yangtze River in deep dawn, likely after dispute with her husband. I admire her so much and proud of her, like our grand father did. in the night in dorm, my favorite TV series, "The good wife", telling a law suit of suicide. God, u know how I gracious I am in ur arms. God, dad, so many people, esp ur first kid and ur 3rd son, witness and benefit from ur Goodness. God, this morning I again dreamed with my son, warrenzh, so harmoniously. he covered me again in dream lingering. God, bring me sooner my Royal China in shine of God! 

11/11/2012

dreamed of genius. ^ yesterday admitted to my son its my fault to unease with him who under God's guide, for after compared myself, grateful &intact even after dishoner God put on me trapped in asylum 4 times and a pare of infectious eyes. son likely welcome it heartedly. in dawn dreamed of a proven kid genius, who calculates big math question easily. later found the young genius in fact my dearest son, who turned so friendly to me and protected me with his smartness. its a pale morning, but God, I look forward ur promise, grant us a ebook reader, bring closer my Royal China. 

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Fwd: seemingly a cozy holiday season.

4/12/2012

a strange dream. ^last night I visited my son &had good time immersed together in video games. this dawn dreamed with my cousin, Zhuwusong, in our hometown village, Zhudajiu, voluntarily donate blood. then I visit a digital tech company, impressed by their digital door keeper gears, inc computers managed card reading, and 3D animation workstations, which is my previous job. then with the cousin leaded by teachers or group, we voluntarily donate sperm. we dissected fields and choose woman in it. I managed to pick healthy and attractive woman for breeding but the cousin let me hurry. the dorm's water heat again less satisfactory, chilled me up. Its a peaceful sunny morning now. God, bring sanity to my son's living environment. bring sooner my Royal China to allow me home my son, and my sons and daughters arriving.

3/12/2012

warrenzh's first skate in 2012. ^ this weekends reunion sweeter in our hearts, for I told my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, that I prepared to live him alone with me, away from his mom's dirty and poisonous seductive home life. last Friday afternoon I visit my son when his school is in break. my son was arranged by his mom to do homework while the bitch grandma, herself a dummy stone intelligently, supervised my son. I so picked to busy on my notebook away till found the cheap grandma selling sexually to my son. so I hauled &scorned &cursed. my son soon quit his homework and played pc games with me and made proud progress in it. in the night in my dorm, I saw my son's dirty environment, so I made a decision to allow my son choose if live under my custody, in my shabby dorm room. in the weekends we ate beef noodle warrenzh chosen, showered in the public bathroom he picked. I urged times and times that in God's world he obliged to nobody, liable to nobody around him serving him. he several times let me shut up but God knows its clearer those freaky women back to what hell they from. In Sunday afternoon it starts to snow again so warrenzh went to skate as his mom suggested. he had good time on the ice ground. God, isn't it saved and blessed?
these days I also dreamed of my kid brother several times, reviewing our brotherhood in dream. this morning I again dreamed of Nankai Univ, where I attending a seminar and trying present my thesis. quite some alumni appeared there in my dawn dream. God, grant us a happy Christmas holiday, enrich our life with due season gifts. God, bring sooner my Royal China.

26/11/2012

memorable weekends reunion. ^ last weekend descended after I looked forward it for more than a week. my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, descended to visit my QRRS dorm, first time after salary's shrink. we dined in KFC, also a toast stick from nearby restaurant where I last time rebuffed for loan to eat there. of cause we played video games. my son, Hope of China, God of Universe, shown likeness to stay with me, which let me sorry, and his mom's short of hospitality. last night I watched a Taiwan loving idol TV episode lately near 1am, burningly touched by spirit and inspiring faith of love in the story. God, u show me the merit of American and Japanese girls. God, so many meanings in the show for my concerns. God, allow me do more things i liked to make life better around me and people in my life. God, dad, thx u for this brilliant morning sunshine, and bring sooner my Royal China, so as to allow me home my son, my sons and daughters to arrive, in ur shine&grace cozily. Thx dad.

18/11/2012

dreamed of sky-skiing with son. ^ dreamed my grand father eyes on us all time, with love. I fought in team of my dearest son against pests, like the video game we played last dusk. then we damaged something of my neighbor's, likely in my hometown, Zhudajiu village. then we skyskiing with hot air balloon. son steers while i hanged under my son. near before landing I was allowed to pilot it, and landing near our town. God, son's mom plotting against my weekends reunification with my son, God, thrust the evil, deflate it. grant me new shoes in the winter, son's ebook reader before year end. thx, God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China and show my son the true family life we deserve.

12/11/2012

2nd snow in winter. ^ yesterday I enjoyed video game with my son so immersed. on way to dine out, I told him why girl Lv will be my first wife: the first girl, LvSongya, descended to honor me by visiting my family in my life back to my junior middle school. after showered, we found 2nd snow shallowly covered the ground. so I told my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, story of my eldest sister, ZhuXuezhen (means essence of snow in Chinese), who committed suicide when I was a junior middle school student by jumping into Yangtze River in deep dawn, likely after dispute with her husband. I admire her so much and proud of her, like our grand father did. in the night in dorm, my favorite TV series, "The good wife", telling a law suit of suicide. God, u know how I gracious I am in ur arms. God, dad, so many people, esp ur first kid and ur 3rd son, witness and benefit from ur Goodness. God, this morning I again dreamed with my son, warrenzh, so harmoniously. he covered me again in dream lingering. God, bring me sooner my Royal China in shine of God!

11/11/2012

dreamed of genius. ^ yesterday admitted to my son its my fault to unease with him who under God's guide, for after compared myself, grateful &intact even after dishoner God put on me trapped in asylum 4 times and a pare of infectious eyes. son likely welcome it heartedly. in dawn dreamed of a proven kid genius, who calculates big math question easily. later found the young genius in fact my dearest son, who turned so friendly to me and protected me with his smartness. its a pale morning, but God, I look forward ur promise, grant us a ebook reader, bring closer my Royal China.

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8/11/2012

pale morning.^ this dawn i had a long dream, in which my 2nd elder sister gossiped with me, teasing daughter and son of our eldest brother's. this week i first time in the winter put on woolen pants and felt well. yesterday Obama won his 2nd session as American President and today sinful CCP open its 18th national party congress. God, u let us endure and see through the devil's play. God, we all look forward to ur choice, no matter how harsh it was. God, grant me replacing my wrecked shoes, grant my son a Kindle paperwhite ebook reader in year end 2012! these days i was buffeted by foreseeable weakening economy in PRC, God, save my Royal China among blizzard upon sinking PRC sieged by ghost of Marxism, or spies of Russian. God, bring me sooner my Royal China! 

3/11/2012

dreamed of Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan.^ I blog it at 4:49AM: I clearly dreamed of Asoh, my 2nd wife from Japan, with who we study politics in Nankai Univ together for a year back to 2000 or so when i pursued master degree there. Asoh in dream very kind to kid, esp our son. she really got me home in dream. God, u witness how I honored. thx, God dad. 

1/11/2012

dreamed again my troubled campus. ^ dreamed in dawn I got already passport for master degree. for discreet I didn't bring it with me when I was accompanied by my good friend (my dearest son? ) and my kid brother visiting Wuhan University, where I was enrolled. the campus quite big and crowded and I inspired by my campus life in veiw. but unfortunately we blocked by administrator of master degree candidates dorm, who asked to check in my passport. that was quite frustration, but better than my haunting nightmare that my academic record went bankrupted. Its to be a sunny morning. God, thx for the vivid dream. 

31/10/2012

dreamed of playing harmoniously with son.^ recently too many beautiful moments with my son immersed in pc games, also more exhausted on bed before getup. this dawn dreamed in my hometown village, zhudajiu, where son of my cousin's wedding ceremony holding. our family blood related even but hatred &disgust thicken between. the bride insisted counting on me and my kid brother while the bridegroom resentful to us. later dreamed my son with me trying tighten loose cogs with toolbox i gathered from online shopping and reward of a voluntary blood donation, with my lead. Its almost first time my son so harmoniously accompanies me without my notice. we really enjoy our gatherings more and more in the Autumn and winter. God, bring me my Royal China soon, grant my son a ebook reader. in this early morning i bestow ur promise, dad. 

22/10/2012

dreamed of the new Nobel literature winner.^ last afternoon I saw my son returned from his mom's hometown journey and fine, after waited near 2 hour outdoor. we played games. I told my son my salary decreased this month and urged him to be prepared for coming hard time in Chinese economy. we showered and relaxed. this dawn dreamed of the first record Nobelist literature, Moyan (means no say or no disclose literally in Chinese), the disgusting bureaucracy and star propaganda of CCP, from lying and shamelessly conceited PRC. in dream he chased & threaten crowd, likely inc me in dream, in aiming not to uncover his dark records or history of his life. Its a sunny morning now, God, grant us an elegant life, esp. enjoyable food &dinner, grant my son, Hope of China, God of Universe, a Kindle paperwhite ebook reader. God, bring me sooner my Royal China and prosperous Royal China! 

19/10/2012

dreamed of Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan.^ son's mom this noon brought him to join a marriage celebration in her hometown. i felt sleepy, and dozed after trying busy some time. dreamed of Asoh Yukiko attending me. she is so courteous. her mother and my mother also appeared in dream. the dream last quite some time but when i setup to blog it, its vivid avoids me now. its a sunny day, esp. the afternoon when i napped. God, grant my son a kindle paperwhite ebook reader. bringme my Royal China, and my sons and daughters.

17/10/2012

1st snow in winter 2012. ^ It drizzled since last noon. I ate full in QRRS canteen &satisfied. then I visit son as scheduled. his school breaks in Tuesday afternoon. the rain wet my shoes and baptized me. my son and me made proud progress in game "borderlands 2". in the night returned to my dorm, I thanks given in reviewing, from Heaven, from my son. the night i enjoyed watching American TV series, in which sound American law system demonstrates so detailed &clear. in dawn dreamed my family and my passed father, God in Heaven now. I likely at least have 4 daughters, 2 sons & a grandson in the age in the dream. we had a business, selling something on the street. my grand father cared my grandson, who is so lovable, kindly. &this morning when son's mom called in about her wireless mouse, I found snow covers roofs outside. last night I peeked through window, found snowflake but can't image a snow weather, nor 1t snow in Oct, 2012. It's harvest season, God, bring me sooner my Royal China, grant my son a kindle paperwhite ebook reader. God, see me my girls praying for me, for our promised future! 

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8/11/2012

pale morning.^ this dawn i had a long dream, in which my 2nd elder sister gossiped with me, teasing daughter and son of our eldest brother's. this week i first time in the winter put on woolen pants and felt well. yesterday Obama won his 2nd session as American President and today sinful CCP open its 18th national party congress. God, u let us endure and see through the devil's play. God, we all look forward to ur choice, no matter how harsh it was. God, grant me replacing my wrecked shoes, grant my son a Kindle paperwhite ebook reader in year end 2012! these days i was buffeted by foreseeable weakening economy in PRC, God, save my Royal China among blizzard upon sinking PRC sieged by ghost of Marxism, or spies of Russian. God, bring me sooner my Royal China! 

3/11/2012

dreamed of Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan.^ I blog it at 4:49AM: I clearly dreamed of Asoh, my 2nd wife from Japan, with who we study politics in Nankai Univ together for a year back to 2000 or so when i pursued master degree there. Asoh in dream very kind to kid, esp our son. she really got me home in dream. God, u witness how I honored. thx, God dad. 

1/11/2012

dreamed again my troubled campus. ^ dreamed in dawn I got already passport for master degree. for discreet I didn't bring it with me when I was accompanied by my good friend (my dearest son? ) and my kid brother visiting Wuhan University, where I was enrolled. the campus quite big and crowded and I inspired by my campus life in veiw. but unfortunately we blocked by administrator of master degree candidates dorm, who asked to check in my passport. that was quite frustration, but better than my haunting nightmare that my academic record went bankrupted. Its to be a sunny morning. God, thx for the vivid dream. 

31/10/2012

dreamed of playing harmoniously with son.^ recently too many beautiful moments with my son immersed in pc games, also more exhausted on bed before getup. this dawn dreamed in my hometown village, zhudajiu, where son of my cousin's wedding ceremony holding. our family blood related even but hatred &disgust thicken between. the bride insisted counting on me and my kid brother while the bridegroom resentful to us. later dreamed my son with me trying tighten loose cogs with toolbox i gathered from online shopping and reward of a voluntary blood donation, with my lead. Its almost first time my son so harmoniously accompanies me without my notice. we really enjoy our gatherings more and more in the Autumn and winter. God, bring me my Royal China soon, grant my son a ebook reader. in this early morning i bestow ur promise, dad. 

22/10/2012

dreamed of the new Nobel literature winner.^ last afternoon I saw my son returned from his mom's hometown journey and fine, after waited near 2 hour outdoor. we played games. I told my son my salary decreased this month and urged him to be prepared for coming hard time in Chinese economy. we showered and relaxed. this dawn dreamed of the first record Nobelist literature, Moyan (means no say or no disclose literally in Chinese), the disgusting bureaucracy and star propaganda of CCP, from lying and shamelessly conceited PRC. in dream he chased & threaten crowd, likely inc me in dream, in aiming not to uncover his dark records or history of his life. Its a sunny morning now, God, grant us an elegant life, esp. enjoyable food &dinner, grant my son, Hope of China, God of Universe, a Kindle paperwhite ebook reader. God, bring me sooner my Royal China and prosperous Royal China! 

19/10/2012

dreamed of Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan.^ son's mom this noon brought him to join a marriage celebration in her hometown. i felt sleepy, and dozed after trying busy some time. dreamed of Asoh Yukiko attending me. she is so courteous. her mother and my mother also appeared in dream. the dream last quite some time but when i setup to blog it, its vivid avoids me now. its a sunny day, esp. the afternoon when i napped. God, grant my son a kindle paperwhite ebook reader. bringme my Royal China, and my sons and daughters.

17/10/2012

1st snow in winter 2012. ^ It drizzled since last noon. I ate full in QRRS canteen &satisfied. then I visit son as scheduled. his school breaks in Tuesday afternoon. the rain wet my shoes and baptized me. my son and me made proud progress in game "borderlands 2". in the night returned to my dorm, I thanks given in reviewing, from Heaven, from my son. the night i enjoyed watching American TV series, in which sound American law system demonstrates so detailed &clear. in dawn dreamed my family and my passed father, God in Heaven now. I likely at least have 4 daughters, 2 sons & a grandson in the age in the dream. we had a business, selling something on the street. my grand father cared my grandson, who is so lovable, kindly. &this morning when son's mom called in about her wireless mouse, I found snow covers roofs outside. last night I peeked through window, found snowflake but can't image a snow weather, nor 1t snow in Oct, 2012. It's harvest season, God, bring me sooner my Royal China, grant my son a kindle paperwhite ebook reader. God, see me my girls praying for me, for our promised future! 

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endure but not due, winter 2012

13/10/2012

dreamed of hard career. ^ dreamed with son and his mom, talking about hard career arena in sinful PRC, where her relative managing to promote herself in a restaurant she worked for. dreamed my son worked with me in a restaurant, and we slept outside, likely in hot summer night, together, like villagers in my hometown village, Zhudajiu usual do, with my once department leader, a Sun, who once befriended me then hurt me by putting me into fear of gay more than 2 years until I defeated it and moved to seek master degree in Nankai Univ where I met Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan. also there I broke my heart for a girl collegian and later first time trapped by asylum in my hometown, for I can't accept dead/ending love with the girl collegian, likely a Fang. I and son's mom deeply concerned with our son's career in future. last night after I played pc games with son in his mom's house, we touched the topic of son's performance in his elemental school, with which so far son didn't excel. God, free my son anxious about future, nor his earthly life this world. guarantee his pleasure staying, and needless to say, his being future of China, God of Universe. God, grant my son his long time wishlist, a Kindle paperwhite ebook reader. God, bring me sooner my Royal China.

8/10/2012

a pale dawn. ^likely due to last dinner, I wake up early this dawn. then dreamed in charge of a company which produces network equipment, like switch or router. fought against office politics, encourage staff communication and International market. Its cloudy now. yesterday I stayed in dorm, in the end of this long national day holiday. I had to ask a local restaurant loaning me 2 meals, for the canteen still close. now working week starts, and I see promise in air. God, bring my son his long time wish, a kindle paperwhite ebook reader. grant us a flight to visit my hometown in Spring Festival 2013. 

6/10/2012

dreamed of hometown after chill night. ^ last night brutally cold. I got up to pee 3 times in an hour after went to bed. this morning dreamed of witchery in my hometown. dreamed some young men from Zhudajiu, my hometow village, returned for traditional lunar holiday, Spring festival from their working places scattered in China. I paid sympathy to a guy named Zhucaixue, whose career is training new workers from peasant, but gradually lost his work for the labor market in sinful PRC losing quality step by step, and now likely selling sick spiritual materials. another pal, Zhuchunlin, a lame driver also appeared in dream. some elder women gossip over us when we returned to Zhudajiu village. God, grant us a successful Spring Festival hometown journey in year end, equip us a flight tour and an ebook reader for son in journey. 

5/10/2012

looking back our national day holiday. ^ congrats! my 163 blog visitor hits archieving 22255. this long national day holiday brings us more time to play pc games together. my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, and me deeply attracted by "borderlands 2". even his mom's frequent scorns hindered us much, but we made proud progress in the action packing game! 2 raining nights I risk darkness to commute to my QRRS dorm lately delayed by gaming with son. God, bring me my Royal China, grant my son his ebook reader longing after quite some time. 

30/9/2012

dreamed of the royal. ^ recently I watched some movies about English Royal family. this dawn dreamed of my Royal. my parents appeared in my dream. I asked my mother help cross a wall of our house by a pole to fetch some clothes. later dreamed fight and cooperation between my little brother, the prince, and me, against our cousin, a Mei. Its a sunny morning. God, this National Day holiday I penniless. please help me live the coming week well and happily. God, grant my son a kindle paperwhite ebook reader. Thx, God dad! 

28/9/2012

a lengthy dream about new PRC's founders. ^ last night I went to bed earlier against chill. dreamed a lot about early years in PRC's emerging, when they settled in northwestern China, training, campaigning and producing. witness those generals, ie. Zhude, Mao, Pengdehuai, etc., their family, esp wives, and foreign friends. among them, my International coach, likely a Japanese, kindly introduced me the strength of Japanese force. It's second cloudy day. God, free me anxious upon coming holiday, bring complacent between my son and my life, our livings. God, see soon my Royal China in changing river of eternal life. 

25/9/2012

dreamed of killing. ^ at beginning, my hovering nightmare, academics life endangered me. then with my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, we enjoyed life. then dreamed in adversity I killed enemies with bullets by jabbing around their neck. recent sunny days likely pulling out: It's cloudy in the morning. God, aid me passing the coming national day holiday productively. the canteen is close during the time, pl allow me living anxious free. God, bring me sooner my Royal China, to allow me home my son. thx, God dad. 

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for sunshine in Autumn 2012.

22/9/2012

weekend reunites.^ son visited my dorm on Friday night as usual. I just successfully connected our 2 notebooks via lan and played "borderlands 2" in co-op mode in his bedroom, so exciting. we ate KFC and toast beef. this dawn dreamed with son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, likely lives in Japan. son so cool &stylish universally and constantly. then situation turned adverse for us. we managed to trade colorful threads as our business. we got up early after i first woke up by pee. son played game after watched animation online in the morning. then we had breakfast in KFC. on way returning to his mom's house, he is anxious about how long i will stay there with him playing pc games. that's not clueless but evident. soon after we picked game, his mom burst into scorns on us, as the usual bitch. I left after gamed about an hour with my son in co-op of "borderlands 2". God, rid my son off unease with games load. show us more freedom at leisure. God, grant my son a ebook reader sooner, bring my Royal China to allow me home my dearest son, Hope of China, God of Universe. 

20/9/2012

among PRC mob.^ these days covert paid violent demonstration in China against Japanese shocked me. when i jogged last dusk i even felt killing thirst in face of personal threat from mobs, not to be victimized. till connected shameless PRC with world scope Islamic raid/surge, the desperate and last wade of darkness before void, I resumed peace in God dad. this dawn dreamed Chinese government, esp the Hu, manipulated more dark tools to harm my Royal China, which in brilliant destiny. I equipped my son new widgets, inc new namespaces, to defend our gaming and warring field. God, peace is the sunshine outside. bring my girls in those sunshine, God, bring our union in blood linkage upon deadlock I was beset. God, thanks for harmony so far in my life. 

16/9/2012

dreamed of ethnic life style. ^ Its all of bliss since I visit my son in last Friday. in dawn dream i witness an ethnic group in civil war or WWⅡ, their strange custom, inc sex and marriage, dream and death, their loyalty to their royal court. I dreamed their spiritual life moved me. God, son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 now in grade 2 and his mom, even herself a Junior English teacher of more than 10 years in the smothering orthodox Chinese parish, felt helpless upon our son's English study. empower son with confidence and independence in mastering English and Japanese, shed enlightenments in his school life with pragmatic or real life practice and engagement, with which i reckon as the most efficient way to learn any subject in referred, coincides with joys. God, let son staying with the Holy every moment! God, bring me my Royal China sooner, to allow me home my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe. 

11/9/2012

dreamed of home front defending with son.^ dreamed closely watched Hujintao, the leaving President of PRC, and his wife&'s living, inc a scenario on highway. then building defending poles/turrets with my frequent domain names, like faezrland, riveryog, etc. to defend our Empire with my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 in the war. I also dreamed of campus canteen. It drizzled since dawn, adding more chill in the early Autumn. I find bliss in the rain again. God, bring us closer to family good news u promised. God, grant us an kindle ebook reader sooner! 

10/9/2012

dreamed of offering a preach.^ dreamed living in US, esp a twin city like Beijing&Tianjin. a community church invited me to join their carnival and arranged me to make a speech about my finding home in God, to believers mostly American Chinese. I then introduced my fight against adversity and God's help always in the way. It's a pale morning that's peaceful. God, bring my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, his long time wishlist, a Kindle paperwhite ebook reader. God, bring me sooner my Royal China, my girl Lv, Asoh Yukiko, girl Zhou, and my Taiwan girl who evade me so long. 

6/9/2012

dreamed of irrelevant or rampant.^ yesterday visit son for sunshine in dusk after 3 days' cloudy. I played "borderland" with son's companion and made great progress. son's mom kept driving me in debt of her, blaming gaming costs son's study time. i returned in drizzle and ate some toast on way near QRRS Dorm, thanks the holy. in dawn dreamed witnessing a genius professor, who ignore common social behavior to maintain his originality, when i worked in German university in the dream. God show me rich or plenty in rampant and irrelevant, in irregularity. I at once know the gift, the bliss among my examples regarded as challenge for mob in these chill days while my bare clothes still welcome the leaving summer. God, bring changes to my life so far praying. bring my girls, my sons and daughters in coming Royal China! God, u see the thanksgiving. 

2/9/2012

a long dreamed about handling ethnic worship. ^ yesterday I first time tried to fix a Clavus on my left smallest toe with hot water, in aim to play soccer with my son in the coming Autumn freely. this dawn dreamed being in heavy ethnic area, like Xinjinag, northwestern China, co-worked with a kid and his parent, witness their worship & magic. in the end they prepared and migrated their idol, like a huge white cake, to new mosque, after many curses, condemns against interference by PRC, and during many dark spells. also dreamed in my hometown new hospital built and lots of witchery in local community. a middle school alumni, likely in family name Tao, and a QRRS colleague once worked as Communist Youth League secretary, appeared in the dream. the secretary attempted to promote the Tao to a new position on social ladder in another big city. I managed to rescue my storage in QRRS' hostel while the Tao along me among guests of the hotel, whose dinners always rich for foreigners . Its cloudy now, even likely drizzled. God, yesterday I lost temper when my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, lingered and loathed to leave pc game. God, save our happy time in games, save my Royal China among adversity. God, u see the promised land in title Zhu's under ur shine. thx for ur grace, Dad. 

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sunshine still stinging in late summer 2012.

31/8/2012

son, warrenzh first time played soccer for more than an hour. ^ yesterday is a full sunny day. I, the proudest father, visited my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 after lunch in QRRS in-factory canteen. I bought him his favorite KFC food. we tried again our new xbox wireless gamepad with a new pc game, "Damage Inc", and enjoyed flying in jet. later we hanged outside, joined a dad and his son playing soccer on nearby sports yard. son never ran and kick so long but still energetic in near 2 hours. I myself enjoyed body practice rarely in decades. this morning i dreamed bringing son visit somewhere, and introduced son's teeth rotation. when warrenzh opened his month, i found the only front teeth hanging lonely and dropping anytime. God, allow me sports more with my son, equipping him a new sport shoes. God, bring change to my life with my girls! 

30/8/2012

dreamed of sex tour with girl Liu, my once Nankai Univ. girl friend. ^yesterday I visit son celebrating harvest of new pc games from web. my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, told me the xbox wireless gamepad we ordered online together in my dorm last Friday night arrived. we narrowly tried 2 games after i fix driver problem &settled the gear. when i returned to my QRRS dorm, Its 9:02pm. in dawn dreamed of my Nankai Univ. alumnus Liu, a girl with whom I had been in love for more than 2 years before broke up when we graduated. we traveled and made love in the dawn dream. finally we visit an American family whose the mom absent, but a father and his son. i dreamed making love with the Liu there till woke up. Its a sunny and peaceful morning. God, u know how I longing for love and making love, bring me rich rain and tender love in my life so long praying. God, bring me Royal China sooner! 

25/8/2012

our game experience will enhanced by new xbox wireless gamepad. ^ we had bought a cheap xbox gamepad which cost ￥90, but it soon ill-working. even recently our gaming desire wading in growth of years, but I, the proudest father, still suggested to equip us with a new wireless gamepad. my dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, admitted it. It's a hard month, for my pinching finance hardly support it. but last night we narrowly settled the order online, and hopefully we can find funs with the new gift among our pc games. It's sad to hear from web news that pirate pc games deeply hurt game makers, who brought us so many happy time and I even encouraged my son's career interests in the industry. God, merits save itself. world plenty and meaningfulness in the beautiful binary domain, digital games. God, bring prosperity into the educational while entertaining product, sustain smart minds in the industry and their good fortune from fruitful workload! God, let's witness ur glory and grace in my son, warrenzh's childhood engagement or activities. God, see me my Royal China, my girl Lv, my crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, my girl zhou with which I still linked with the company my nest inside so far stable, and my Taiwan girl who evade me for more than half year. God, u see all these. 

22/8/2012

dreamed of being in love with a girl in my hometown Zhudajiu village. ^ the girl named Zhufengtao. when I studied in elite Huanggao senor middle school, in vacations my mother brought me to visit her at her parents' house in Zhudajiu village. later she also graduated and worked in Shenzhen, made good fortune and help her parents rebuilt their house in the village, while her 2 brothers likely less fortunate, both cargo driver and one even kept single in his 40s. her father once a worker in the county town, and befriend me when I was a student. in dream I had warm heart in chasing his daughter. Its a peaceful morning. God, u see how I prepared myself for my coming Royal China. God, bring change into my life so far fruitful. 

19/8/2012

dreamed of alumni of my senior middle school. ^ in dawn dreamed of Huanggang senior middle school alumni gathered when our brotherhood still strong. dreamed they help each other among the meeting. late dozed, dreamed along a cargo team from southwestern China, battled with road troopers. also dreamed myself fought with young beast extorted on my privacy. It's a sunny morning. God, bring changes to my life so far here praying for my girls and my bestowed land from my ancestor with glory. 

16/8/2012

dreamed travel with son against his grandma. ^ dreamed mother of my ex-wife plotted with her daughter against my intimacy with my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲. I, benzrad 朱子卓, insisted touring with them. in a hotel they prepared dinner while kept eyes upon us, I led my son and his dozens pals exploring tunnels of the hotel till returned successfully to the dinner. God, u see my struggle to father my dearest son,warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe. God, bring my Royal China sooner and allow me catering to my sons, esp my first son warrenzh, a better life. God, see me and my girls our being intact among adversity exerted by enemies of new China Empire that will live 1109 years under title of Zhu's. God, thanks for ur promise allowing me visit my son with great gifts, in these days and future. 

9/8/2012

dreamed of teeth rotation. ^ dreamed with son visit a car show, where we take part in eating hamburger contest. when I comparing teeth with my son: his teeth grow mature, while one of my teeth, very small and young, dropped upon shaking. 

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edge between summer and autumn in 2012

8/8/2012

a timely rain in dawn.^ China surveillance recently likely hacking my stream when i watch a Taiwan episode, let it lagging heavily. that reminds me hungry dogs, ie. local mafia, among the society desperately challenging my Royal China. last night i reviewed my situation, and wish list of loan for a new xbox wireless gamepad. in dawn i dreamed of erotic and got spermatorrhea, a sudden rain follows that, brings down recent sultry. Its so auspicious. dreamed in my hometown village, Zhudajiu, we gathered to buy bacon. the owner of the pig insisted offering me a favor, I adopted and buy more to improve my living. God, if I can do, I will do it better. God, aid me improving son's gaming experience with a new wireless xbox gamepad. God, bring me my people of new China Empire of 1109 years under my title in ur shine. God, bring my girls sooner in my Royal China! 

1/8/2012

dreamed of alumni gathered to fly.^ dreamed 4 of my alumni, likely my senior middle school, privileged Huanggang middle school or Nankai Univ, all good at study, bought themselves jets. they fly into sky, enjoy chasing wind, then gabbled on ground while their single seat jets damaged by chills outdoor. so one of them, the smartest on academy, failed to return to sky and crashed his jet. on the crash site I met one young man from my hometown village, Zhudajiu. his family competed with my family long time, he has 4 children but still aiming outracing us by offspring. 

30/7/2012

lasting rain. ^ last night is the coolest night in this summer. with quilt cover i was turned to urine 3 times by chill in the night. dreamed of roommate when i studied in Nankai Univ for master degree, a native Tianjin boy. also dreamed of my colleagues, esp the current department director in my previous work unit, with which i still gain support. the rain, mostly drizzled now, continued all night, out of my expectation. God, u see how I was contented so far, pl improve my life with my girls, inc Asoh Yukiko, my girl Lv, girl Zhou, my Taiwan girl, all my Queens, in our prime time. grant us offspring in ur blessing! God, u know how close my fate's breakthrough is ahead! 

29/7/2012

dreamed of death chase by gays from previous office again.^ dreamed once close workmates turned into walking deads. they hunted me for death. the gay gangsters of my once colleagues, esp the facing desk resolved to murder me in the dream. Its the most beautiful raining night, after a sunny dusk when my dearest son visit my dorm and played soccer with me in the dorms open space. he ported here as scheduled monthly, we tried pc games till near 10pm. in the night i felt so full of holy spirit. he woke up for thirst mid night, with some water we woke up in dawn rarely at same time, then he watched an animation before we headed to KFC breakfast, where i bought a tart for a poor elder man there. returned to his mom's house, his mom banned us to play pc games and urged son to practice e-piano, so we went to shower in public bathroom. we then lunched in a nearby restaurant whose operator is a gentle young man. his mom lazily as usual laid herself on bed to gabble with him after practiced e-piano, so our son busy with kissing his mom while i busy with computer for disliking my ex-wife being failing sick against a kind or mature parent. at last i held my son on my shoulders before his mom soon felt into sleep, talked with him about old history of my hometown village's living, also common scientific knowledge he listening till the grandma arrived. in dusk after i settled in dorm in front of my notebook, a rain storm arrives. It turns so sustained and persistently that i deeply touched. i know the bliss in air. God, bring me sooner my Royal China! guard my son and his sanity by my wives' tender love. God, trinity is us secured. 

18/7/2012

dreamed of fucking Islamic founder, an elder woman.^ yesterday I dozed a lot, regret for son's loathing to play pc games with me like before. re-dwelt about the laziness of son's mom, who can day long reading cheap erotic novels online motionlessly. visit son in dusk and told him my anxious about his passive reading seduced by his mom's magazines after we two dined out together. my son listened carefully, like his smartness in most cases. also urged him sleep alone sooner when his mom listening after we returned to her house. in the night dreamed of founder of Islamic, an white haired elder woman in middle size. It rained shortly exactly the moment I disgusted by her. in later dawn dream, I worked for film or publication company, and held important photos, for which many young men risking life together help to protect. I woke up many times while the dream continues, till felt urgent to blog it. God, guide my son grow healthily, among the dirty family of his mom's, protects my son in my wives' tender love. God, bring me sooner my Royal China. 

23/7/2012

dreamed of my passed mom hosting her nieces&my sister.^ dreamed in my hometown, Zhudajiu village, in lunar Spring festival, my cousins, all my mom's close friend's children, came to visit her. their family, mostly girls, enjoy prosperous and fortune increase and built new houses. I tried to congratulate my closest friend, one daughter who is tallest among my cousins and who still regret don't married me, for her new house as well as improved living standard. my best beloved sister, also built a house near their village, whose most residents under family name, Mei 梅. after woke up, i found all my efforts to make my son's life easier, like pc games and LED TV, in fact trying do that for myself. God, see my son and guarantee his life he likes most. God, bring me new family that changes my situation. God, let me see my Royal China sooner. 

22/7/2012

dreamed of being a manager of 赵本山's company. ^ in his enterprise's leading meeting, closely watched the laugh-making star. i had 3 or 4 important innovations or breakthroughs in the dream and Zhao obliged to me, so I can see pros and cons of the legend entertained Chinese more than a decade, with his mostly ill appetite in humanity. last night still felt Mafia's threat to me and my family, but a thunderstorm makes the heat calmed down. God, bring me sooner change in my life, with my girls! God, see danger of my family beset and killing offends in time for grace and glory untouchable. 

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