dream of alumni during travel.

dreamed with my alumni, likely 3 or 4 members, some with family, in traveling from Beijing to Tianjin, my university campus, then to our hometown, Wuhan, central China. they are likely my senior middle school alumni, esp some studies harder than me and enrolled by more elite university like Peking Univ., or Tsinghua Univ. one of them with his daughter while I always felt honor and glory with my son in heart in dream. the alumnus likes details, so we check our package times and times, esp ticket and private items. I later gave up and just let him to take care of those stuff for me. traveling, once so demanding task for otherwise you will punished so heavily that I sensed in dream again the unrest and changes uncertain as well as our future unborn promising. this is a clean and clear morning, after last night rain. I wondered about my miserably separated from my son and who exerts behind. Last Sunday I told my son I reviewed history of his mom's mother's intervene with her elder sister, an mad cow, just after his birth, tried to keep my baby from my reach. their plots long time aiming deprive me of my son, which still on going.
after breakfast I tried to read and re-napped due to sleepy. I visited a guy likely my alumnus Peng Jinglei. he worked in a remote area in PRC likely Xinjing. we first met his father-in-law and his son. his naughty son soon broke my glasses. the grandpa tried to repair it while his daughter returned from her school as she is a teacher. when I teased the boy with English words, Peng returned and exchange our review on each life since graduation. Peng likely satisfied by his life and cautious about our visit. when wrote this blog, I recognized that the guy can be a QRRS colleague, who now a high rant manager here. he migrated from Xinjing after graduate and later moved his old parent here, away from the turbulent western area. he married a cadre's daughter in QRRS and lately didn't have child. he might lead a careful life for his father-in-law might be as bossy as previously. his father-in-law in dream reminds me he can be another elder, my son's mom's lesbian girlfriend's dad. he once be an educator, now had some skill and knowledge, but as I claimed once in my blog, no one in their elder respectable in sinful PRC except my passed dad.
this 2 dream so vivid that a bit strange in my recent life. I more and more lost patience and faith in dreams, once so meaningful and promising. God dad, I recently so hateful upon my life who bored me into tears. bring me sooner my Royal China for 1109 years in future world. bring me my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for my aging and offspring. grant us financial ready for glory of the Son and his people, his family support. affirm faith in praying heart, and glory of more achievement ahead.

shared concerns.

these days very sleepy, esp amid moisture from rains. last night it
again thunderstorm. the rhythm really beautiful! I had to choose from
online radio music or the nature gift, and finally I muted my
artificial speaker and opt out rhythm outside in late dark silence.
the rains is so rich that my quilt in decades first time turned wet
and a bit uncomfortable. God dad, it's so good. this week I also
researched new chromebox product line and felt high time to equip
myself one. in almost a week I thought it over where to fund it, till
holy message let me give up till I my own can afford it. It's sad to
bye from it but more reasonable, for most computers we had still in
their support life cycle within next year. I love them, and would
easily let them retired. the night before yesterday I felt too happy
to waste, so I buzzed my 3rd elder sister. her son again seemingly
unhappy with my call and likely deterred it. when I talked with my
sister, she also seemingly in unrest. now I saw possibly their family
in trouble: her daughters-in-law turned hostile to her. their lesbian
tendency puzzled my sister and her sons. the wives lost vision and
discipline, while my sister and her family inexperienced. in latest
lunar spring festival we stayed together back to 2016, I should
noticed the unbalance of harmony but I usually don't probing. God dad,
the sin of fallen women in my life taught me lesson already. I hope
glory of my family, under title Zhu and Crown of China Empire, didn't
hurt those little wives. God dad, care my relatives in need. and heal
those envious hearts in shine of holy.
these days also might be hard for my son, who just entered his summer
vacation while I let him wait for August to visit and linger my dorm
for couple days. his sinful mother again attempted to censor it and
probably set hurdles. while I busy with financial supportive, I saw so
many hard while exciting moments ahead. God dad, our hope is your
mercy. let summer 2018 arrives our hearts that praying for growth. in
this tipping world torn by trade war and hate war, let's reunite in
one in unity, or consolidate us in common sense of future
non-disputable, for coming world of my title, of Holy blessing,
wouldn't be scattered anymore. (shits! PRC surveillance might broke my
pc, here again during my writing broke down my internet, which never
happened in 2 weeks after failed attempt to punish over our new
equipment last 2 months.)
It is the most beautiful summer since I settled here for near 30
years. while the season is swift here on higher altitude, I hope
sooner arrival of the sultry, and lingering season of beautiful female
flesh and sunny skyline. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China, and
my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. grant me another chromebox for
its hyper-system above chromeOS and Android. in foreseeable future,
google will bring 3rd OS merging Linux, Android, ChromeOS, let us
affordable for the wonderful experience google brings. in my son's
coming visit, let me afford a more satisfying arrangement of dining,
play, exercise, and pure gathering. thx dad God, in this cloudy
morning.

amid sedative rains.

dreamed first I shopping online at jd.com, Chinese copycat of amazon.com. I detailed dreamed to fill its form, and a female helped and checked it. I always distrust the e-commercial site, whose founder is a graduate majors Literature from Peking Univ. and almost my peer. his family name is Liu, a domineer name in China since first native Chinese Empire, Han Dynasty, founded after their title. then dreamed in a Zhu's village, but not my hometown, where also all villagers under title Zhu's, who contributed to last native Chinese ruling Empire Ming Dynasty. I saw their leader summoned and ordered youth team, woman team, etc to execute different tasks and heading to different destine outside of the village. there were hundred people there under command. this is a pale morning, I believe coming a sultry summer, even might be sooner of the heat due to here higher latitude. last dusk I review once upon a time, an infant held by an old woman watching I buying snack from nearby dorm gate vendor. I thought my snack too cheap so I didn't share with him after the snack cooked. I felt I should better offer him the snack but I thought it's too cheap and he is enough, so I just walk away with my snack. when I regretted and returned to dorm gate trying save my error and buy the infant another, they had left. I was so sorry that I still remember it. then I pray God to allow my redemption. then I thought my son's neighbor kid is an innocent kid, from his childhood I still memorized, even now he more turned like his dad, physical ready to bull those weaker. so I prayed God to allow my inviting him dining out once more with us and I felt we granted. so the night I buzzed my son to inform the neighbor and made it ready. my son nodded while his bitch mom aside scorned and opposed as usual. God dad, let the insane woman go away from our agenda, turns back to her dirty and sinful nest. we also intended to watch movie this Saturday now that PRC surveillance deprived the summer vacation all blockbuster. till yesterday we found cheapest ticket for a movie is when it just on show; if u missed it, you will pay far more to review it. so I persuade my son pick a less hot movie from their cinema season and we did, that would be 2 weeks later for us going cinema. this week I saw so many bliss and boring in my current life. I had to wait and wait for glory, for coming gathering of achievement. my life almost half empty to fill, for backup view of the vein creates. God, dad, if I meant to be secondary, let my life humble. in this rain season, I had sipped so many blessing rains that was strange in decades. I saw my hometown dream closer to me, to my destine. show the world, esp Chinese, my privilege upon the land, upon the Empire of China, under title Zhu and my glorious ancestor. bring me sooner my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and my new family, Royal China. enrich my earth life with lives and meanings. thx dad God.

tears and fears in Jun 2018

passed week is the most financially gifted period in my life. first I
got an installment from alipay for my son, woz's new mobile to replace
his worn 2 cellphones. then the vendor, Asus mobile, refund us ￥800
even lately reached us. then my younger brother offered us 200 as his
payment to launch a conversation with me. then my nephew, ie 1st son
of my best beloved 3rd elder sister's, who operates an online clothes
store at taobao.com, refund us 500 after we sent him 400 for thanks
for he bought us clothes. I used it to renew our domain, zho.io for 2
years. my son didn't pay enough appreciation to those new clothes, esp
short pants with mobile pocket, under his sinful mom's force, but I
urged him doing so and it fixed. we both put on new short pants after
shower. his new mobile, Asus zenfone 3, with an international approach
and won favor among international developers' endeavor, bring us
alternative rom to replace malware infected PRC restricted os the
devil CCP government controlled in the territory before its scattering
fate. the new os, Android 8.1, is the latest OS we ever have, that's
very exciting. we are so proud of our choice of Asus, with which we
now had 4 products, ie. chromebox, chromebook, monitor, mobile. its
refund, out of expectation and our best surprise, proceeds a week. I
pre-spend it and pray its descending after exciting purchases
including my first smartwatch, pebble v1. the kind vendor always
pacifies me with promise, but I was unease so much. In God's
affirmative, I witness the grace in time and fully. my mean younger
brother in guise of paying my coach, sent me 200 before launch a
conversation. he tentatively delayed promised support of my lodge to
dorm canteen in half year, ￥700/mon, trying hurt me and hate of my
peaceful life. in this morning, sunny and usual, God dad, bring me
sooner my Royal China. leave me evil temptation from my dark relatives
and PRC surveillance. prepare us steady development of life and skill,
and passionate. this week also reminded me of danger in PRC, esp here
in QRRS. a once dorm lodger, an once graduate newer several years then
mine, turned dogs and inspired by mafia, tried to coerce me after
first tried to humiliate me by ignore my nod. he put on black mask
half face hidden and threaten me with mob's attitude. my dorm room
lock likely under hack by dorm administrative staff, ie. the electric
tech worker, an old mule trying hurt after hopeless challenged me. the
neighbor half room of the toilet, formerly warehouse, now occupied by
administrative woman, in role both worker/staff and lodger. in that
guise the cow easily broke into my dorm and poison me or surveillance
me. God dad, I knew the holy protection, still I hope sooner the
removal of insecure environment. bring me sooner my new family, my
Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and my 2nd child. save me from
anxiousness of future financial support. grant us light joy in this
weekend cinema time.