dream to be free again without credit debt burden.

dreamt confined by police in library. in winter now I usually close
tight my window lest waste networked heat. but that results in late
wake up in morning and missing dorm canteen breakfast. so I set alarm
on my cellphone. as side effect, I usually felt sleepy after unnature
woke up. this morning I at first busy with setup a migrated vision of
agarten.in under domain dabbog.com, lagging internet soon drove me
onto bed. In dream I brought my son, woz, haunted nowhere to find a
place to dwell. then when we leaving I let woz waited me awhile I
returned to library to pee. enter the hall, I found some people
watching a bull head on the wall, like hunting trophy. at first I
thought that's my work, then found its in fact copies of my works and
posted everywhere in the libary, attract lots of audience. among
people arrested under the bull head, one is a policeman, he listened
my claim calmly but replied I wouldn't allowed to leave in response of
the demonstration. when I doubting how to inform my son in waiting
about my dangerous situation, my 2nd elder sister in red clothes
appeared in the library and didn't recognize me. soon I found in the
central area of the hall, my son settled there among reading crowd,
including my sister. before detained or imprison I woke up from nap.
past week I sometimes woke up earlier upon good news of coming unlock
my salary card and ICBC credit card, now that with this month salary
paid to ICBC, my credit debt to the PRC largest bank will clear. In
bare waiting my kid brother's aid to cope every month living cost,
usual it will be ￥700 since my brother latest visit, my younger
brother buzzed in. he just brought his technician toured England.
according him that cost ￥30000. I then just settled site's migration
and with confidence persuaded my kid brother additional 300 helping me
resolving running debts among local contacts, and bad need to replace
shoes. he admited in the session, a loan of ￥1000. but later 2 days he
didn't remit me as promised. he is a man vulnerable of bitter
feelings, and in the case he not evaded again. when I on bus fetchinng
my son for monthly cinema with hard bargained loan from canteen
operator woman, ￥300, my brother buzzed in to check his damage on our
schedule. he failed to persuade me gave up my redundant phone number.
after the cinema, I check ATM and the promised aid right in its
position. with it, my doubts cleared and much glad found discount area
has a nice shoes for me priced ￥40. all the weekend turns brilliant
with the aid and hope of affirmative. on Sunday morning I with my only
￥20 bought hazelnut from street vendor near woz's community after near
a month I didn't buy my son fruits as usual. the hazelnut rewards us
in quality, large, crisp and delicious. at these moment in a sunny
morning, God dad, I pray in holy my life out of uncertainty and hatred
from sinful PRC dictation, stands peaceful, firm and hopeful. pray our
happy gathering every occasions with adequate financial support. bring
me sooner my Royal China for the prosperous China as well as eastern
Asia, bring me new family with my girls and our offspring. grant me
painless purchases and supportive credit and income base, esp my
cyberspace startup. thx, dad God.

dreamt Japan preparing war.

dreamt helping Japan in war. it's a lengthy dream. at first Japan just
in war and everywhere Japanese motivated and celebrated to join army.
I happened to be in Japan and take part in their parties, from rooms
to streets, learning their culture in ritual. then I applied to join
their army and likely accepted. but it's all in prewar, I just saw
group of soldiers busy with their operations. later in a room for war
donation, I gave all my money, ￥335. the staff recognized me and
teased me on my donation, but I made him registered my share. the
dream delayed me from breakfast, but it's such a strange dream.
yesterday I busied more than half day trying install google apps suite
on my cheap Chinese smartphone yet failed. its bit boring to hack the
gear. and I saw Chinese government blocked google service in one hand
while buying from world wide to develop most hacking tool on the other
hand to break through wall with malware, just aiming compromising its
citizen's security and private. I wouldn't take the bait. the world is
sad for the poor, even google itself increase their smartphone's
price, while its gapps suite so hard to install on Chinese product in
conflict of their service. and dictation in PRC day by day risk common
Chinese life and future to build war reservoir against mostly its
civilian, then the US which responsible for world democracy and peace.
in no way the tyrant in PRC will stop playing fire before forced to
quit dangerous suicide, like spoiled son of bitch in north Korea in
cult of wicked worship and dead totalitarian. God, dad, we suffered so
much in welcome the world democracy, in Christian united world of just
and independent. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain progress
China maintains since Ming Dynasty under my ancestor's title, Zhu.
bring me new family and offspring with my beloved girls, Asoh Yukiko,
Lyu, TW. grant my son and me new flight journey, finace independent,
and booming cyberspace startup, our portal online.

sins in sinking PRC and its dorm.

dreamt with Iron Man Elon Musk. he first introduced himself to me on a party. then I with him to his factory where I saw his rocket, which has 3 different speed empower to exceed gravity of air, earth, and sun. there are some pupils made advantage of his device and nail the window open and instant shift from one side of reality to another by climbing over the window. then saw Musk's family, his ongoing projects including raising fund, his charm among people. this week a bit busy: I tried hard to install google apps on my cheap new smartphone. comparing India where every new smartphone should have google apps ready, I can safely assert PRC losing in coming decade by turning down its people qualified service like google and all free web and shift to its domestic poor copycat inherits sinful. PRC people lose so much in strangling with its top-down dictative enslavement. on weekend reuniting my son, woz, we proud of our time together. due to mounting surveillance over my son's vpn, I had to spend more time just got his android applications updated from google play store. but anything elsewhere likely went smoothly. we felt triumph upon economic pinning down, dangerous circumstance around us, all by PRC dictation who more and more insanely fearful under our demonstration and turbulent PRC social unstable. we recently seldom play windows game, for downloading from steam or origin heavily lagged by China surveillance. we just cope with free web and security update. last Saturday heat system starts in service, and the dorm turns much better for dwelling. even in solitary, dogs around in the dorm desperate entangles me. the gay in nearby room using his protend coughs as weapon and spit quite messily on corridor and disgusted me. the big dog also humiliates me with his ill surveillance: each night if I go to bed later, he will stay his door open and make alarm sounds on corridor to urge my sedative, like any of his business or concern. I pray God disappears the sin and free me from poisonous environment. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China, bring me a tidy work and life space anxiousless. grant us free of wants, finance independence, borderless web. in coming season allow us to renew our web assets as scheduled. thx for this sunny morning, God dad.

preparing passport in dawn dream.

dreamt of preparing my passport. this 2 weeks a bit astray: I too glad
to enjoy our new gadgets and their functional. also reunited my son in
celebration of PRC holiday. we went to movie, visited my dorm. before
his tour with his revengeful mom, I warned him about dangers in travel
and hope he less with his mom's desperate tour. the day before
yesterday on way returning to my dorm, there was almost an accident: a
motorist hit me and crashed my phablet in my notebook bag. thanks God,
I was intact. then I ordered a replacement from taobao.com. this dawn
I dreamt a lot about applying Unite State's passport. there likely
linked to my elder sister's recent call in which she let me know my
nephew's wedding near lunar new year and invited us to flight to join
them. at first I gladly admitted, then found my dearest sister, 3rd
elder sister, didn't really invite us. what's more, my younger brother
likely covertly plotted framing us in humiliation for we are currently
too poor. so I told my son we might rebuff it. then holy spirit
affirmed me the hometown journey, our 3rd flight tour. in dream I
first don't know how to compose application, only puzzled in wording
of causes. then gradually I see the categories of travel intention,
like business information, visiting friend, tourism, etc. then saw in
dream I chose BIX or something stands for business information
exchange, and lots of uncertainty of the audit outcome. I pee once
then dreamt again the applying process. in the end my senior middle
school alumnus, Chao Lixin, who aided me get my first domain,
be21zh.org, and a scholar in US since his Phd, and Wujiang, my Nankai
Univ alumnus, dropped me a visit. the former kindly check my
application and offer some tips, while the latter look through my
form. I finally got insight the meaning of categories of travel
causes, and saw large flow Chinese in PRC moving cross border. I saw
what happening in American embassy in China and handling of passport
application. God, my life can be limited to mainland of PRC, but grant
my son and my other offspring free migration among Christian united
one world. bring woz to peaceful nation before PRC war bubble burst
out. bring me sooner my Royal China to bring peace on the eastern
Asia. grant me financial independence and complete annual renewal of
all my domain and hosting plan. grant woz his 4th flight to his
grandpa's hometown and merry union with his cousins there. thx, dad,
in God's mercy.