dreamt with kid in tour.

first dreamt Pony Ma, founder of tencent.com, lives our neighbor. when I leaving my house topless, he and his parents just returning home and caught astonished. I explained I was in active art performance after found myself fully naked. then dreamt among kids. I esp cared a little girl likely a Tibetan. then with my kid traveling in delegation of my once colleagues of QRRS cable TV station. my kid creative and rushes to package and seats for the bus when we leaving a mountain village, just like myself unsettled for tour coming. this week barely looking forward to new year end bonus from my once and long time employer, QRRS. last salary brought me ￥3100, merely covered credit debt clearance monthly, 2000rmb. now I had several small bill to write off, inc tea subscription, treating neighbor kid for his lent us internet during our switching to fiber cable from PPPOE dialing, monthly cinema with woz, Taiwanese restaurant Formosa membership recharge, keep alive several debit accounts after annual fee charges, groupon showers, etc. I already had 2 local debtee with debt 1100rmb, and my web assets didn't fully renew, esp small cost but largely rewards, like amazon prime, localphone rental. I almost can't live without them. zhone's 16 domains under woz, my dearest son's title, also needs renewal which nearly charges $250. coming new year holiday also renders additional expense for dorm canteen then will out of service. I have to feed myself and treat my son in gatherings in the period. devil in dorm still pesters me, even more shamelessly and desperate. they frequently cut me offline when I enjoy passive listening or watching, ie. no my input on computer, trying to entangle me in cheap under espionage. they also deprive me off due caliber of web traffic capacity, results in badly lagging video and webpage loading loop at rate near 0 bit/s. they trying ruin my pleasure among cyberspace community. my dorm's window wall leaked, loose with many ashes broken down. I invited dorm director, a young tall and beautiful woman, to inspect if it turns dangerous. but she brought 2 technicians and they claimed well around. I still don't believe in. I want change to another dorm room well in shape and to evade the dark and poisonous souls around my current dorm, esp the spitting and cough pretending cow in facing neighbor. my current residential situation likely predefined before my move in, doomed to frustrate me and intimidate me into sad silence among criminal and sick. they hated my brilliant website long enough. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to revitalize my mission so far so joyful to discipline Chinese in new millennium for future gracious survival, for greater transformation of its people and culture sound and independent. bring my son and myself via airline to our hometown in 3rd journey anxious free. grant me independent finance to maintain our web investment and growth of presence online.

in need of caring.

dreamt detailedly about Japanese chore machine. there are 4 or 5
cabins, with different functions, like washing clothes, shower, put on
clothes, sleeping, massage, etc. each item has checkout or deduction,
financial log function. shower and put on clothes let me lingered a
lot. clothing charges 198 Japanese Yen. I even can't leave but trying
more and more till penniless. they are all 360 rotatable, around human
body inside. putting on clothes let you extending arms and shift your
waist to slide into clothes with string direction. it even can be
erotic. I later anxious if showering robot including smart toilet
cover function. its a silent Tuesday morning. since Monday morning
hoarfrost appeared on trees. salary day coming and I put on so much
hopes. next month I will book airline and railway for our hometown
tour, among rumors that during lunar spring festival holiday train
ticket will be scarce. last Friday night my son, woz, Hope of China,
ported a night in my dorm. recent credit debt crisis drove me away
from caring his living, so many occasions I asked why he always put on
his school uniform which is boring even in weekends, he didn't reply.
I thought his mom or the grandma would buy him more or less clothes in
my hard time. but they never. in the night when we lately went to bed,
I found my son slept with an old style cotton-padded trousers, likely
the trousers too tight to take off, my anger roused thick. I know at
the moment his sinful mother never bought him new clothes. I tried to
pacify myself but can't. so I got up and ordered 2 winter trousers and
2 pants for being stylish my son deserves. I asked my kid brother to
pay instead of me, for my only reservoir in ABC bank didn't bundle
with mobile number and can't spend online. so next morning I brought
my son on way returning his mom's house visit ABC bank and settled it.
just when I preparing to pay via alipay, I found my order already
paid, likely by my brother. so I additionally bought my son a pair of
winter shoes on my own. I asked my son let me know next time when
something needed. God, dad, what a misery my son was once! what a
affirmative my role as a proud dad meaningful! dad God, never let that
happen again, never deprive me from support my son's living! bring me
sooner my Royal China to sustain Chinese children, China wet and land!
bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, to improve
my son's standard. in coming year end fulfill us with due joys and
anxious free. grant us a flight tour for better means of travel and
timespace.

in woz's cold, and my sciatica.

dreamt of Jack Ma or alike. dreamt I was in relocation. then enrolled
by a company like Alibaba.com. I found my colleagues in confidence to
buy its stock shares at high price, near $21. then I felt the company
boosting. then Ma came to interview us, while I busy with reading its
finance report or company establishment. Ma had no place to sit down,
for the online seat among my roommates occupied by me. after found
that I calmly shift the stool to Ma. its a facing lake ground house,
among other flat houses which now Alibaba's warehouse and delivery
center. there were lots of flies with silver coat when I reading the
document. Ma offers our department deduction rate 12.3.4.12%, which
quite generous. he likes leisure and strategy, grow up from wealthy
southeastern China. last weekend I brought my son, woz, Hope of China,
going cinema. we watched Japanese animation "Your name", which
currently records largest box office. its a touching story, reminds me
of my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. woz complained too soon
after last month's cinema. he upset by his internet unaccessible, for
his mom attempting switch another ISP, replacing cable modem with
fiber Optic cable while the telcom claimed currently no channel
available and had to wait for next upgrade of capacity. however, we
managed to borrow neighbor's internet to play his favorite game,
"garden warfare 2". his cold lasts 2 weeks and no recovery soon. his
cough lets me anxious. I tried to hold him longer showered yesterday
in hotter water even he complained, hoping the heat drives away more
or less his cold. God, dad, in your bliss I didn't visit hospital for
more than a decade, share my fitness with my dearest son, bring him
more exercises and sports trains. spare his sight from intensive
android games. grant his proud dad to equip him a pair of new shoes
before our hometown journey 3rd, and clothes update via his cousin's
online shop. God dad, bare us even in poverty and illness, unshakeable
joy of hope and faith. bring me sooner my Royal China to uphold my
Empire of China in 1109 years ahead, far more stable and concrete
sovereign with neighbor Japan, and America. Grant us financial
independence in coming salary. thx Dad.

planning winter vacation with woz.

recent unsettled matters leads me less blogging. this dawn dreamt my
broken bromance with my Tibet artist friend, Bempa Chungdak. I saw in
his domineer friend, another artist when we made friend in Tianjin
where they studied art and craft design in Tianjin art college. in the
bossy friend, Li, or my once department leader in QRRS, Sun, his house
with his family, ie. his wife and only child. I waited Bempa spare his
time for me, while he silently co-works with his partner, later shift
to a workshop and closed the door behind. I saw their sculpture and
other works, till they open the door again and returned to the lounge.
Bempa still kept me muted, can't left his pal away. so I bitterly
left, knowing our bromance fades forever, likes what I have now in
reality. these days coming lunar new year festival holiday enthusiasm
haunted me a lot, I longing for 3rd flight with my son, woz, to our
hometown. my 2 elder sisters both asked me to come in gathering to
spend the largest festival among Chinese. and my youngest elder
sister's little son will hold wedding ceremony then. my sister
promised offering us ￥5000 for flight and travel. my son likes air
travel very much. but my credit debt will refrains us from modern and
elegant voyage inc airline, according rumor on PRC's finishing civil
solicitous credit system, even the cost between airline and railway
almost ignorable. my acide kid brother tentatively advised us to pick
railway which is dirty, exhausting and slow, according his research
there is a straight line between Qiqihar and Wuxue, our hometown. he
had tried most means to hurt me, lower promised aid monthly,
cheatingly evaded returning my credit cards he took away. there must
be hidden iron curtain in his living sphere. even last month salary
casually incresed to ￥5000, the department cashier woman attempted to
coerce me into obedient and idiotly satisfied. I have more renewal
online to pay while my only working credit card diluted its facility
to zero. God, dad, improve me higher to see safety of my properties,
shift me anxiousless from uncertainty of my unclaimed sovereign. dad
God, bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and my
Royal China. bring us home and palace for settlement. grant us an
enjoyable journey in woz's winter vacation, and workable credit for
spanning things network in our living standard.