stuck in dream danger.

yesterday dreamt snakes everywhere around me. this dawn dreamt borrow
books from my 2nd elder brother and sister. then found in a month I
will graduate and without job. so I go to Lhasa to work. but there my
nephew, ie. first son of my 2nd elder sister and his son and other
relatives electronic sucked and lots of panic, including some of
evilous students I found from those paid my son's mom to receive her
tuition at her house when I visited son. at last I tried to rescue my
relatives and entered the electrified room, consulted nearby kids
about safe spots, jumped and trying to reach lever to cut down
electricity then woke up. this week a bit busy, upgrading my son's
intel nuc with new and larger ssd bought by my supportive credit card
from PSBC even in credit crisis. China surveillance heavily attacked
me when I prepare clean OS and backup on it. they desperate broke the
minipc and blocked my son from enjoy American movies and videos
through VPN I prepared. each time within a week after my clean built
they ruin the encrypted tunnel, make youtube and amazon video
inaccessible. and this month my once and long time employer, QRRS,
likely busier with orders. my purse almost empty but now new salary
would improve it and better. credit card issuer bank buzzed but now we
are more polite, except PSBC didn't call in so far, on air. and some
of them threatened shift me to its law enforcement department but yet
happened. but the dorm canteen operator who lent me boarding before my
promised pay, turns complainful. last night a heavy rain loudly sang
when I bought dine out groupon by PSBC credit online. its just so
blessing, so I　dropped my son a phone even I doubt if its too late
around 9pm. but he is agile to pick the phone, as holy affirmed. this
noon I will reunite him in champion of new availability of
entertainment. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to host my
family. bring lifestyle we enjoyed so far. help me alleviate credit
crisis in this month salary. grant us happy weekends every week.
#God #AsohYukiko #dream #life #love

dream in rain.

dreamt in campus with my Nankai Univ alumni again in practice lesson.
I lost track when team launched. on half way I met some kids, I
rewarded some coins to a smart boy. when I caught up with the team,
they were leaving. I confused why these physics lessons so hard to
learn and discussed my problem with others, like ballistic track,
pounding force, etc. some of my alumni told me and I gradually grasped
it, for human have right to know what's going on in their life. so
science sometimes knows as curious as fun, doesn't always mean to
change courses, to fix something, but it tells truth even boring
truth. I met lots of classmates including girls when I arrived the
camp. on farewell party I suggested a toast and lots of biddings echo
from my classmates then I woke up. a rain in dawn turns clear even in
my dream. its a mid size rain, raindrops make happy rhythm like my
hometown central China summer rains. last night I first intended to
suffer starvation with the only noodle meal, for my only have 30rmb in
purse. near 9pm, hunger let me blue, I tried to shift focus from it
but failed. then I gave in and intended to watch and dine out my son
today, for according PRC calendar the Sunday will be a workday. I will
have to shower on Saturday rather than usual Sunday lest my son has no
vacation to do it for schooling. then I relieved and ate a candy I
prepared for my son's visit. later hunger even urgent and I had to
cost ￥5 for a street vendor snack nearby in the night. God, dad, when
is we in no want? when our enjoyed lifestyle makes us heartedly
settled? bring me sooner my Royal China to host my guests and under
Holy glory of plenty we cheer up. grant me my cyber startup booming
and credit as safe and likes a breeze.
#God #AsohYukiko #dream #love #life

dream in dragon boat day.

lunar dragon boat day holiday slides in before my notice. this morning
missed canteen breakfast among dreams and naps in early wakeup, or the
canteen already closed service in holiday likely its usual. in boring
morning I felt all world paled out in others' celebration, left me
alone and lonely. I felt cold and napped in quilt for warmth. near
noon I ate noodles in nearby restaurant after found canteen out of
service. the sunshine is faultlessly bright, but it a bit too stinging
for sunbath. I missed my son very much but decided follow Christian
calendar to reunite him in weekends, ie day after yesterday, and for
the sake of my poor wallet. which left no more than ￥30. this week my
credit card issuer bank buzzed several times, and I promised CCB whose
clearance clerk woman quite abled that I will pay it first with my
salary. bankcomm affirmed my unable to pay more than 3 times, likely
will adopt next phrase operation to secure its property. PSBC still
helping me with its credit to buy what I need, like SSD harddisk and
other item online, but its clearance clerk man too coarse to handle,
just cursed me times and times. in the afternoon I napped again to
avoid boringness, I dreamt my shared workplace visited by 2 pals of my
colleague, likely one of my Nankai Univ alumnus now lives in Canada,
or the youngest son of my uncle, which both tall and bigger build.
they invited me to name their company and trying using office computer
to find solution. I was a bit afraid them using my computer, so I
tried in mess and harsh to logout my computer but can't find keyboard
in piles of paperworks prompt. then I suddenly shout out my answer,
Tian'an in Chinese, totally safe or heavenly safe. my alumnus
approached me to cheer up before I woke up. its sunny now outside,
with classic music rather than podcast recently I listened more on
google play I felt right mood under bliss. God, dad, my income
shortage now weights me down. I saw in decades my earnings from my
blog and websites hardly supports our lifestyle we enjoyed so far with
my son since credit card power. dad, God, only ur Mightiness covers
our incomplete of life support. grant us freedom of financial
independence. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain the brilliant
way ahead. boast my web presence and traffic that means. empower my
cyberspace startup to success. dad, I'm so complacent with my web
assets. secure them and let it deserves our effort to bring it out.
#God #AsohYukiko #dream #love #life

hometown concern.

in dawn dream reviewed my passed mother helped my aunt's last child
with her 2nd husband preparing his wedding ceremony. I regarded the
2nd husband humiliated my dad and hostile toward my dad and our
family's success. but my mother always tried her best shown her
hospitality to the man and my uncle who admired her. my mother likely
hurt my dad much with her charm unselective and spare no expense. I
was asked to join the wedding ceremony in my summer vacation and
according customs carried bride's gift to fiance's family with other
young relatives in our old family. on way a steep wet slope a heavy
truck almost can't brake itself and dangerously slip downward and
almost brought me down. I narrowly escaped the truck with load of
gifts and many years after I thought its a holy salvage. the marriage
didn't last 3 years and the wife left. my mother just can't trust her
husband and fought with all her resources in her interest. then dreamt
I made 3 portable devices for data mobility. the design so effective
that I intended to shift to my son. this week began with idling then
gradually engaged. yahoo informed me to logon to keep account active.
when logon it require verification from backup mailbox, ie. google
account. in the process quite some of zhone google accounts suspended
for suspicious activities, likely PRC backed hacking. I tried several
means to report to google, which likely doesn't support human
individual handling, but machinary rules. but 3 days later, last night
my accounts unlocked and I rearranged them as planned. its such
champion like a breeze, I sang for the giant enterprise. this week my
credit card issuer bank buzzed 3 or more occasions, we agreed to shift
my unable to pay back to next phrase, even I don't know what will be.
my younger sister offered me ￥500 and I used it for weekend reuniting
my son, ie. dining out, and my medicine. I also tried to reach out to
my teenage friend, now works in college, but in vain. the teacher felt
guilty upon his empty hand and tried to arrange me in schedule to hide
his redemption. God, dad, life here runs deeper now. let's enjoy peace
of everyday. bring me sooner my Royal China to host my guests. bring
me glory of Son. grant me independent finance in my startup. thx for
the descending summer heat.

＃God ＃AsohYukiko ＃dream ＃life ＃love

woz 11 years old now.

dreamt of students protest and negotiation. after woz 11 years birthday gathering, last night I slept deep. dreamt likely in Peking Univ I gathered support students and went strike against ruling authority. my passed mother likely there cooked for canteen and listening my appeal for student's right which is vivid in dream but after breakfast untraceable. yesterday I finally told dorm canteen operator that my salary freezed by bank and I penniless. she admitted my loan for boarding. my support son's living cost also cancelled, his mom already informed by me when she inquired how I will handle the loan crisis, but even worse, I unable to hand over son's educational deposit, 200rmb/monthly as promised. she refused joining celebration I prepared for woz's 11 years birthday. locked herself in bedroom with her mother. I let my son waited for his mom return from her workplace is a waste. when kindles in position on cake by my son, we ran out of match, nor lighter. I previously intended asking son's mom to live cast the party via twitter's periscope but in reality I had to using woz's nexus mobile live stream on our own. its aweful clumsy but at least its our first live show. I quickly left my son after the reporting, in the air of contemptuous the evil woman casted upon us. in the night I published our video of the cake party, our monologue. its a chill summer, now its cloudy again in the morning. but its far from clueless. God, dad, bring us lifestyle we enjoy. grant me financial independence, esp supportive for my son's teenage. bring me my Royal China and my new family to save the broken and sinking PRC in its shrink of deterioration. prepare me for greater event in my life.

watchwoz 11 years birthday video online

or https://youtu.be/dSJNS8yCMb4

https://youtu.be/fQVEUagAaTM

https://www.periscope.tv/w/1gqxvARDdzqJB

#God #AsohYukiko #dream #life #love

salary this month hit historic low.

first dreamt I have extra flesh around edge of my feet. I carefully cut them off and my 2nd brother found worms in it. I watched it and saw 2 worms and my brother claim he saw more much smaller I didn't see. then I thought now that I long time can't gain my master degree I should consider a job for living. I reckon teaching English and perfect my language skill. my niece asked me shift my tool, a picker to her, I admitted but loathed. then the ground floor of the building, an office of editors of a publish house, full with its staff lately returned. when I retreated, I saw a guy on way and though him too poor, so I intended to offer him ¥5 in charity. but the guy shamelessly chased after me and impatiently peek my purse and attempted using his picker tool like thief to take bill from it. I took too long to find ¥5 bill and enough by the harassment of the guy and cancel my offer. by a shallowly underground well, some woman murmured what a pity, seemingly I lost a chance to gain from my last kindness. I though they know something I don't know but too many meanings or conspires led me indecisive and woke up. previously in dawn dream I painted and let my artist friends, esp. Tibet artist Benba Chungdak, check it. he likely respects it. this month my salary reached a historic low at ¥1468, which even can't cover our living expense, ie. my son and myself. I have anticipated it restored to normal, around 3000, so hard. God, dad, what's the hell ahead for falling with sinking PRC, poverty and unprotection of social welfare or civil war's cannon fodder? dad, God, what challenge I was set in? bring me sooner my Royal China for the salvage. bring me painless through adversity currectly emcompasses me. remove the crucifixion the Son reraised from. I with happiness with the Holy in the unprecedented glory.

#God #AsohYukiko #dream #love #life

dream in prewar.

dreamt of social motivation. in dawn dream I was in team to allocate social resources. I assign reward for every personel enrolled, encode frequent used amount into quantity unit, embed short code replacing frequently used long terms like compression in propaganda slogans, which includes Zhao Benshang’s northeastern Chinese folk ballad, 二人转. civil war’s fog topmost heavy in the dream, we do our best to prepare for it. my old family’s enemy, the second husband of my aunt and his offspring, one of them is our neighbor in hometown village Zhudajiu, tempted me comment on his youngest brother’s performance, I said he is kind and popular. my passed mother in dream then asked me about myself, I said anyone know me would respect me. the enemy agreed. my mother glad upon my reputation. the dream is very clear and I needn’t hurry to blog after I woke up. this week I mostly peacefully enjoy silence before change. I watched more movies online, esp love movies which remind me of my broken love in Nankai Univ, and my crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, when she studies abroad with us. I also bathed more in noon sunshine now that summer weather gradually steps in. Qiqihar this summer peculiarly cold among world report of increased temperature most places on the earth. last night I watched a Japanese episode, life in additional time. first episode about a youth values vocation more important than family and died on site and regret for his family he even didn’t know still loving him. second about common family how hard to find a better commodite like a richer meal in routine life. the good wife risk her life to bring a beef meal for her family before her decrease on rush road for discount meat. that reminds me of my burden in my trying best to support my son a better life so far, lends us to credit deficit. but I don’t regret, and only Christian saves China and Japan. only YHWH blesses world of no shortage but plenty in glory. out of him poverty and chaos breeds like rats and murders like norm, esp. in Buddhism and Islamic, in Asia and Africa. God, dad, thanks for the holy sign of rejoice. grant us a peaceful reunion this afternoon when I dine out my son grill mutton. dad, God, grant me more agile growth in my cyberspace existence. bring me my Royal China and its outline from distant view when I moulding Empire of China. fill my heart with love and brave. thx for the summer morning, God.