among dirty PRC surveillance.

dreamt my passed mom rescue my education again. she visited my enhancement class and entrusted me not gave up. my sinful cousin, ie first grandson of my grandpa, also appeared among parents of high education seekers. my mother prayed for my higher education so hard that I touched and started focusing, standing firm among those preparing university entrance exam national wide. later I haunted zoo where I returned with missing. I queried the attenders for some animal, say dolphin, the crew told me I should visit next area in the zoo. I retreated. yesterday I first time gave up gazing my favorite woman dancer in open space of QRRS plaza. one of the dancer among the public exercising team shew contempt last dusk and let me wonder consequence of local mafia's interference, including the world largest mafia, CCP. when I passed them before the music whipping the dance, I heard some of them laughed loudly, apparently tried to attract me. when I returned my dorm, the facing room again half open their door, indicating their threat of break-in of my dorm under PRC surveillance cooperation. in the night the surveillance desperately booted up to interact with me, meddling my episode watching and youtube night news stream. in boring of the total control of my web traffic through China telecom gateway, I tried to reach out my contacts on my mobile, till sms one of my Univ. alumni with good wish. near bedtime ie. soon after 10pm, the state agent on upper floor again gathered to gabble, their noise likely amplified to echo in my room, desperately aiming to intercept my routine and mindset. they are rats lair before flood, cling anything might evade ruin or elimination. like dying CCP or the tyrant in nowadays PRC, their race before fate wipes them from their root timed and doomed, since their improper disability and hatred toward people of China, the peaceful tribe. God dad, rip me sooner poisoned PRC surveillance against my sanity. secure my work space in brilliant sunrise. if it means killing, let me annihilate enemies of my Empire of China from my ancestor, let me cleanse the lice of bloodsucking, thief of intelligence, hooligan of mob and violence in gracious blessing Christian universe. save my world before ruin, survive my people in global food crisis. grant us happy weekend tomorrow, grant me another meal daily. thx dad God, in this anxious free December morning.

celebrate my first sabot, quality of choice.

dreamt a guy likely my once colleague, Xu, accompanied me to tour his campus. it's likely a privileged university, say Peking Univ. or Tsinghua Univ. he then showered in a jammed basement spa, where a sophomore just locked in mistakenly a night. after shower he let barber there to haircut but the latter refused, for his hair style always short and straight like me, and lately refurbished so no need to do it again. then they two rode bike through the hill roads in the campus, trying joining a volleyball team there playing. the guy's girlfriend ran into and stayed awhile with the guy. yesterday meant much for me, for my first Japanese sabot arrived. PRC surveillance obviously meddled, first delayed logistics several days after the taobao vendor handover. when I buzzed the vendor, she checked it and claimed the goods ran short and asked my permission for a replacement. she replied lately and trying avoid my contacting. after second deliver, it costs a week to fulfill, much longer than usual. even arrived Harbin, our provincial capital, it took more than 2 days to reach me when should in day. but after all, it satisfies me. I put on as soon as unbox, and ditched PRC plastic product I bought online several months ago and wrecked recent weeks. the toilet room near my dorm frequently heavily messed by blue collar workers around, and heavy dirt on ground with dirty water, now I wouldn't afraid it, for the sabot has less contacting surface on its bottom, less likely got stained in the tentatively hate drove fouled open space, likes total PRC under hooligan CCP monopoly. my socks didn't have 2 toes, so I ordered a new set from taobao.com copes it. seemingly the wooden sabot not so cold indoor and hopefully new socks will put my feet in comfort. last dusk also rewarding me. I found spices coupon dispatched by my once employer, QRRS, due to expired next Monday, I launched at once to shift it to my son. I met him when he leaving his middle school. I handover coupon, pocket money, OS patch on portable storage, kissed his cheek and left. in the night after contacted him I booked 2 dining out for coming seasonal holiday, a buffet and a Japanese cuisine. I also settled monthly cinema next next weekend. on night before yesterday I buzzed my hometown nephew and his dad, exchanged view and briefed recent changes, urged the young man to seek learning in cyberspace. the kindness driven by gratefulness my concerned women left me around. I appreciate so much for fullness in my life entering late half. they left my waist painful in the night and I pray cure in thanksgiving. God dad, my new socks arrive hours later. grant us financial Independence. grant me another meal daily, or complementary some bread daily. bring me sooner my Royal China, my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. in these 2 one meal a day weeks, thx for hanger didn't pester me. grant me meanings in my starvation. survive me and my world in the global crisis of food shortage.

cloudless highland from dirty messy canteen kitchen.

dreamt first at hometown where a wedding ceremony underwent. then found it was my marriage. there are many traditional protocol in ceremony. the cousin, ie. the first son of my dad's elder brother, and his mom, who long time envied my family's luck, meddled in traditional practices with their evil intention. in the end, our tribe entrusted to train ourselves for ethnic war and fatal adversity. then dreamt Elon Musk, with his father, both successful entrepreneur. I wondered why them driven to be so diligent even overactive. then lengthily a dream about family affair at hometown but now I forgot it now after late sleep. QRRS, my once long time employer, dispatching its annual rice coupon, I was informed by departmental cashier last dusk to fetch this morning. so I at once went over to fetch it. the refurnished HQ of the SOE has a gorgeous ground hall in which sunny and spacious. with this coupon my weekend reunion with my son will be glorified. I just broke contract with dorm canteen after its operative family shown despise. I now will hunt for meal everyday and risk penniless every living. I buzzed my younger brother who had been supporting my dorm canteen boarding for 3 years or so, monthly ￥700, about the change, but he yet not offered the aid direct to me after the cancelled deal. last night I thought of my financial hardness, my pinched purse which only left less than dozen bucks, and I recognized my support to my son's pocket money in a season, ￥800 remit to his alipay account boosted by last month's exceptional strong salary, near 6000 CNY around thanksgiving holiday. my dearest son cares about my empty promise to prepare his monthly pocket money 250, but in last year it constantly shift to other usage, say recent 2 purchases of computers. this poor niche now again confronted with premature requisite. God dad, brine me sooner my Royal China, bring me my Crown Queen from Japan, Asohu Yukiko, for coming glory. grant us independent finance. rid me sooner PRC merciless surveillance, insane cheap braking dog around with 24*7 espionage, esp on upper floor where they relentlessly made noise to notify their meddling. grant us happy weekend with dine out Mcdonald. thx God in this sunny winter morning when I freed from routine canteen breakfast hussle and totol free agenda like a hunting bee.

as lonely as journey of sands.

last busy week I achieved lots. I reinstalled 2 OSes on new 60GB ssd converted usb; I restored OS on my ZTE mobile and successfully installed Gapps on it. these took me 2 overnight works. on Saturday my son and I enjoyed 'fantastic animals' movie. human love touched me emotionally in the movie. we dined out fish hotpot after cinema. Sunday morning I let my son updated his devices, ie. wintel's first monthly patch in size of 30M since larger version upgrade v.1809, linux update in size of nearly 90M. my son claimed it was the lightest workload weekend. he enjoyed awhile youtube gaming stream before heading to lunch out with me and later bathing. it was a winter sunny day. I told my son how PRC authority banning idea exchange, banned society history and memories. they want the dictator replace all educator and parenting, only his work instead all jobless adults. I review PRC open policy decades when most needed technology imported from Christian world and greatly enhanced people's life quality while current tyrant disobeys his ruling party's retreat which won it timespace to last its ruling. they forbidden people review nor learning after which otherwise would self-proving the world esp USA saves but not hurt Chinese and China as CCP long time propaganda. they will saw CCP long time delayed China its due pleasure of life, grace of society, by constrained them in cage of war threat but in fact it's hooligan's guild's threat. now PRC tyrant day by day cheatingly curbing social freedom, like internet business, small business, basic freedom of personal data in their mobiles. they killing civilian with warm water and heating constantly & accelerating. the tyrant most terrifying thing is his jobless and ditched by all his patriots for his improper education. he is in fact an brainless monster.

last Sunday I also saw my son's mom's new family. when my son and I returned from spa to his house, a man received my son's parcel. he likely the stupid woman's choice. I ate some oranges we just bought with my son and let my son open his TV and English program and left. I don't know how devil CCP penetrating my son's life, but God, dad, you know my son preparing to cope with challenge before his throne. God dad, mercy in your Mighty.

long tail of upgrade.

first dreamed ordered some new device. later added another 4 or 6 copies for backup. in dream concerned the report yesterday that some of PRC invested scientific telescope unable to enroll crew to attend or do research in those remote area. PRC reportedly newly open scientific startups stock market in Shanghai. those are all PRC traditional way to do business: heavy money injection, but no human capital, for itself too cheap to be gracious. they long time buying cheap nerd researchers to copycat western military innovations, but none of them ever be normal human, but bitch to defame the sunny world of Christian. loop in their neck hangs too harsh to allow them not to brag their contribution recklessly before condemned to rat race or dying meaninglessly like a smoke.

this month too busy for me to review. we settled new chromebox 3, our second one, with woz on his own tested recovery mood and installed it in his bedroom. I totally rearranged my portable OSes, esp after equipped myself 2 portable devices, ie. usb stick ultrafit and ssd with usb converter case. I deployed 2 redundant linux against hacking attempts thicker and thicker around, esp on upper floor PRC state intelligent agents non-break surveillanced me, sometimes desperately begging interactivity. we also refurnish woz 2 old google devices, nexus 6 and 7 with new custom roms. now their OS both upgraded from original 6 to android 8.1. my son under my guidance gradually familiar with linux command line.

amid these 2 weeks, I also felt my darkness in aging and loneliness, esp when waiting for visiting my son. we had once reunion weekly upon his mom doesn't at a loss. harsher surveillance around let me sad, the more they felt unable to afford us, the more I felt my destine to replace PRC with my Empire of China under Zhu's. God dad, the turbulence in USA shows more urgent need to tighten migration control, for human always has membrane, we doesn't love anyone, esp those against our belief, our grace. naturally we love our own, our disciplined universe, not a mass of chaos and flies. USA in danger of defining itself. and Chinese does the same nowadays. earth defines blessed, against rootless Arab and Indian. bring me sooner my Royal China, my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. bring me new family, dad, God, when it matters.

toward secondary after battle field empowered by second chromebox 3.

dreamt visiting my teenage friend, Fan Yifu, who likely resident in Wuhan or Xi'an metropolis during my relocation. his brothers also there jammed in a condo hardly refurnished among a dense residential area or slum. in the morning they all busy with heading to their offices and left me alone even I had to pay their bills. that reminds me how PRC peasants' offspring in PRC open policy decades, how they earn from USA buyers and supported by USA cash flow from pure famine, how they fed their hooligan government now turns aggressive and doomed fate of been upgraded, how their new young families left with now in half poverty. the Fan, previously a junior middle school teacher graduated from normal college, relentlessly these years not to be dropped by my higher education comparably and finally earned a musician higher education and now a faculty in western China university. our friendship turned bilaterally diluted. yesterday our second chromebox 3 arrived, after many anxious checks in its logistics. PRC surveillance around insanely attempted to break amid when I preparing enabling it. I will unbox it with my son, woz, in this dusk when he monthly visits his dad's dorm. its so exciting for me, for after so many frustrations we still in the reward of our fights, the free wardless web. last night I was again blocked from watching episodes via kodi. they even sometimes let my chromeOS ill performance, say browser's theme messed up, kodi within forked andriod environment exit or hangup abnormally. but since yesterday my podcast stream turned more fluent, likely insane PRC surveillance policy adjusted. God dad, where is freedom of choice of internet content? where is our right to enjoy our lives at will? bring me sooner my Royal China, bring me sooner my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for better life after high quality Japanese wins from their ambitions world war. bring us people powered government, and God inspired Royal family under my title. thx God in this golden sunny morning.

a month in business.

dreamt strangely about some PRC Henanian and Shandong migrants on new land where I saw in dream. their secret gangster waving wars for sovereign. I saw a gangster from Shandong migrants contacting Heinan's for something, passing their tomb area and cautious manuvior over the host tribe. the dream quite strange but still I felt my son with me in the dream. last weeks very busy for me, includes 2 overnight works. I successfully flashed custom rom on my son's new HTC 10, updated its os from v 7 to Android v8.1, evaded bloater apps inherits from native OS, esp malware from PRC. another task carried out is preparing woz's new chromebox 3. I thought I can do something before draining waiting for its half month arrival from amazon China's overseas logistics, I prepared my current chromebox 3 months ago just bought, for migrating to my son's usage. the main goal is to install dual boot on its 32 GB ssd, which found too pinched for 2 OSes. the world developer community too short time to response the chromebox officially released this June, results in no working hack to boot any usual bootable ISO on the platform. I prepared several linux installation usb images and trying install them onto the chromebox 3 but all sucks. the only script hack to install linxu manually online onto chromebox is through chrx.org's service, yet our chromebox's fresh new kabylake cpu architecture refused it. after all the failure, I rejoiced with google chromeOS' rebostness to restore from recovery usb made online. in less than half hour, our chromebox restored to factory default and I called hacking a satisfying end. I contacted with chromeOS solely on the 32 GB ssd minipc. in the mean time, dorm canteen denied loan for my monthly bill to return alipay's virtual credit, amount ￥1500, claimed their last loan 2000 CNY to buy our second chromebox drained their most, while I took granted that the loan referred above is a one time specific loan and alipay credit loan is routinely. so I asked my nephew who managing online shop at taobao for helping me cope the shortage. he second time extended his arm. next day after I settled my chromebox and preparing monthly cinema with my son, I really penniless and had to contacted my hometown 2nd elder sister for aid. her granddaughter just underwent surgery in Beijing still she generously loaned me 1000. with it I returned dorm canteen 500 for affirmative, then I completed groupon our monthly cinema and dine out. PRC cinema here in Qiqihar underwent changes largely: much less shows for our favorite foreign blockbusters, even there were few, their schedule mostly unsuitable for hot moments in leisure time. however we still picked one this month. and taobao.com, the largest ecommercial in PRC, now trying restrict my purchase online, with countless verification code upon trade, attests PRC insane surveillance's fear of the power of my choice. God, dad, grant us a wonder monthly relax today. bring me sooner my Royal China. bring me my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. secure my workspace wardless web and fruitful. in this golden Autumn morning, Dad God, release my wish for improving our live.

equip my hometown nephew with our retired chromebox.

dreamt witness my younger brother hard earning his corporate. near coast he risk his life to stumble in mud as high as half waist covered and dropped power line electrified the thick water. he likely collected sea product from coastal sea. our mother likely over-watched our meals. last night sms chat with my nephew, IE. 2nd son of my 2nd elder brother, directed his usage of our shifted him chromebox. he first didn't know his smart TV I ordered him from taobao.com in rush needs to switch to hdmi source. so his TV screen disconnects from chromebox and let him doubting if need a new additional screen. after found his ignorance, he rush to install web cam but failed to setup it. I shown him skype remotely and he reported on other end it was working and saw my cam stream. lately around 11pm I went to bed and felt hard to sleep for the satisfying result of migration of our old chromebox. he previously reluctant to talk with anyone but now he offered me his mobile number. and I felt his enthusiasm for tech. in this week I also ordered my son a new chromebox from amazon China, to replace the displaced lounge pc. dorm canteen promised to loan me, but my nephew, IE 1st son of my elder sister's, cashed before canteen loan on book. my nephew quite smart and understood my situation at once my entrust, I really grateful and thanks God our lovable families. its a sunny morning, God dad, bring sooner my Royal China for better life I can have now. bring me my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. coming PRC national day I penniless, grant me bread for the long vacation. grant us a working HTC 10 which on road returning from vendor's repair after I ruined it with custom rom. dad God, thanks for such a wonderful fruitful operation pack.

through muddy field after flood.

dreamt of previous colleague, Xu, a guy sometimes listened to me, asked me about cheating way. in field esp a stream among farming fields, he washed his pack and listened to me why my cheating way not working for him and fixation aftermath. his long time department leader, Ma, also appeared in dream. this is a sunny morning. recently I found new way to entertain myself. I listen to English podcast via my mobile on which open web enabled, while sunburn outside twice or more the dorm mini-garden. mobile data plan we bought mindless now harnessed for good. these days also sleepy after breakfast. obviously PRC surveillance burned lots of brains to espionage my work routine and attempted to ruin it, clog it interim. they prepare their interrogation every minute before fatal strike aiming ends me. I immersed myself in enjoyable balance daily. they also tried to control people I concerned, esp dancer woman, jogging women I glad to share my dusk roaming time with, coerced them into cooperative wrapping us under tombstone. sunburn let me hanger, and I ate my dinner much delicious and ate more. God dad, let me anxious free upon my daily bread. grant us new working mobile, HTC 10, from damage. let this salary day recharges me and coming Mid-Autumn day with fun. let my coming birthday decorated with cake I promised my son, after found he enjoy his birthday cake so much. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain my life praying so hard. bring my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for extending my life under summer time. let my workload fruitful and grows with my emerging Empire of China. founding my land with prosperity.

in fear of no fear.

these days pestered by upper floor's rats a lot. they had access to PRC telecoms account administration and frequently closed my Internet connection. since last week it totally shutdown my Internet after they failed to intercept my vpn traffic. in 2 days my dorm fiber optics broken, I had to rely on my mobile cellular data. at first I thought it would soon resume. later I thought might be I forgot to hand over Internet fee due to busy workload around salary day this month. waited to Monday I recharged my dorm Internet and found it wasn't caused by my account deficit. my account valid still cut out of service by PRC Internet cop. late Monday my fiber optics network restored after filed connection failure complain. in the harsh I bought my son a second mobile, a product of HTC, Taiwanese digital producer, for the price too attractive. after broke neck looking forward twice, first time a cheap bolt version then replaced our order to HTC 10 for popularity and max compatibility, we got it. then misled by online developer's community, I upgraded is OS to android 8 and unable to unlock its boot loader. I tried all means, in wilder sought for replace its verizon bundled OS with custom rom which easier and user friendly. after so many tries, I finally turned it brick when trying flash its boot loader. after nearly half month relentlessly sought settling it, now I had to wait the vendor repair it in another half month. this is a peaceful sunny morning. it's not too bad, isn't it, God dad, after so many best buy in this Summer and Autumn? I felt so bounty with these equipment and ready tools. in every sense of office and warehouse, I had it. this month also saw my younger brother sent us moon cake when lunar Mourning Day coming. I shared some with my concerned people around the dorm. it's bountiful, too. I also talked first time to my nephew, ie. second son of my 2nd elder brother, since his marriage broken and refused female in his life as his mom rumored when a year before my elder sisters shared their lunar Spring festival with us. my elder brother carefully protected his dear son not to hurt by reckless chatter, but this time he allowed me talked with his innocent kid. I urged him not to give up enjoying life, material living. I demonstrated my workspace I gathered in my half life, with my recent satisfactory. my nephew listened a lot, admitted his continue efforts to carry on family life. I also told my elder sister my complacent upon this year's purchases. I fearless under espionage around trying paralyze my workspace, humiliated me by torn apart my vpn and secure web. God dad, the rats on upper floor made relentlessly noise when I worked. rid me off the hazard sooner. bring me sooner my Royal China, bring me my Crown Queen, Asoh Yukiko, from Japan. bring me sooner my new family and house. grant us, esp my concerned son, woz, his enjoyable school experience. violent dark web of PRC trying these days to afraid me, let them fear, scatter their mob. God dad, save us in faith securer.

trap is deep.

dreamed in my hometown I likely in my vacation. the village driver, the only son of passed carpenter, asked me to find my younger brother to help him drive for an event. I open my proud book I reading which full of symbols and very precious legacy, to search my younger brother's phone number. it soon settled and all happy with that. my brother in dream already a nearly millionaire with his mills. the dream very vivid after I got up. I intended to blog it at once around 6am. but the upper floor's insane PRC surveillance, likely a freaky, made sounds warned me the under skin espionage, so I would rather wait. the state backed agent not only surveillance me, but also every chances attempted to terrified me with its psychotic: reckless closely approaching me and coercing me with noise it can made with the thin floor. last week we refreshed with my younger brother's loan for monthly cinema and dine out. he previously attempted to detain my help cry, refused twice my mobile calls when I try to change our broadband capacity, which requests ￥500 but in fact that's dirty cheat from unqualified chinatel staff while in its official office the crew girl charge free to change our plan for 200MB/s within a data bundle charges 82CNY/mon. my mean brother each time reluctant to draw his purse, usually in cause not to admit my investment or deluxe lifestyle. I had previously determined to carry the data plan change on my own. so when he buzzed back claiming he had been accompanying his son to park, I told him nothing special. but he is listening, so I told him my story: my son's mobile 4G data plan deficit and intending upgrade to speeder broadband. he almost defied it in hurry to close talk to drive. returned to dorm, I felt I hardly cope the expenditure with my poor salary. so I sms him he can loan us ￥800 as he previously admitted to help me repair my erode tooth base. he replied he only responsible for my living, not my other costs. I waited a night. next day I sms our ancestor's legendary: Ming Dynasty's 1st prince tried to use imperative force to restrain his blood sibling, killing family love with ruling power, which only resulted in disastrous himself suicide in Royal city he inherited from his grandpa, Founder of Ming Dynasty, with his all fondness. I didn't expected reply nor reward. but next next day when I search all means to pay groupon for our monthly cinema and dine out, I found my brother already remit us 1000 CNY 2 days ago. I had previously check my financial account several times and never gained. so I doubting if my brother aid's arrival hacked by state intelligent agency, just trying defying power of my claim and prophet. after all, the ￥1000 let us so plenty in entertainment and business capable: I renewed zho.io for 2 more years with our domain registrar, equip myself another ssd of 128GB. It's just too wonderful to be so rich in availability. last weekend, I also overnight worked out to switch our old chromebox OS from chormeOS to chromiumOS, which adorably native supports Android apps, even google play store. Sunday night I non-break 6 hours to re-flash my son's new zonfone 3 with custom rom world developers contributed, after found previous OS let down chinatel gsm calling and sms. even finally I didn't fix sms and calling failure, but LTE data at least working, allowing us making full potential of our new data plan with chinatel: no limit of data! and my son's wifi heavily under PRC surveillance attacks, almost all internet traffic through the router disabled vpn. we badly sought auxiliary channel to evade deadly blockage in falling PRC wasteland cyberspace.
God dad, bring us sooner our viable work space, secure our growth independently entrenched by state backed hackers. bring me sooner my Royal China for relieve all trapped Chinese in felling PRC. bring me my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for unites Japan and China after turbulent world war 2, for ambitions 2 nations manifested in centuries, in tears, glories an proud. grant our workload meaningful and intact through ruin of PRC dictation, rampant fires of national revolts in insane depress and depravity.

among hardened PRC surveillance & mob hateful.

dreamed my university era artist friend, Benba Chungdak. at first with his friend Li Moufeng, in the campus I familiared. then in Benba's house or my house we at leisure. my son joined our conversation. Benba in dream now a well know artist. we talked a lot. my son trusted our guest and learned. my dorm internet under a new wave of surveillance and breakin attempts. I already gave up router but client, which also sometimes unstable. new weekend arriving, there is a new blockbust PRC granted to import, Antman 2. my son chose it from 2 other optional USA films on show recently. he also delayed my invitation to visit my dorm this weekend, rather he will invite his peer in his house, likely for gaming and entertainment. It's a cool morning. wardless web turns so hard to archieve now. I more and more speechless now, amid hardship tyrant PRC exerts upon my living sphere. there are more state intelligent agents in QRRS Dorm around my room here to surveillance me 7*24, costly on PRC fragile totalitarian treasury. God dad, how long we will wait for the overturn, I in faith of the future out of burning campfire among insanely pressed domestic nations. in bitter reality, I hope it fosters revolution rips us off the poorly endangered dictation. bring me sooner my Royal China. my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, come and overturn my prison our enemies engulfed. live us freedom, so to China bitchy mob, jobless riot. game changer, Dad God, let out the active agenda for the sake of better China. thx God, survivor is U.S.

dream of certainty.

last night watched a talk show of Jeff Bezos, founder of Amazon. his easygoing charactor deeply touched me. turth of life, of fortune, of mission, expand in front of me. in dawn dream, I worked for him, then in army, both reveals truth, or secret of success, course inchangeable. aging let me harder now to memorize dream, but its scenario conforts me. it's a boring morning. the ugly lesbian again lingered in the shabby neighbor room chattering, pretending she had a job there. the whole dorm administrative team moved from their offices seperate into the dorm, mimic my office in dorm. they can't believe they doomed to lose their jobs. their cheap copycat deprives their means of living. they are all thieves in fact, or robbery of innocent. the room in my upper direct floor likely occupied by state backed intelligent agent. they constantly made noise in key situations trying to coerce me. my new chromebox frequently encountered abnormal quit, likely hacked by PRC government online. my son last night just returned from his mom's hometown journey. they visited again the woman's relatives in their hometown, a small town hours away by train. I hope my son enjoy it but affraid he was hijacked by his stupid mom in fact. hours later I will reunite him for lunching out and shower in spa weekly. my new chromebox not only securer, but largely changed my workflow and efficiency. I now consume news most of workday, rather than prevously only in the begining of moring, restricted by portable device for desktop windows might fail me in its insecure. last night I check my alipay credit, found my installment total near ￥900, which much a relief for my monthly return alipay ￥1300 and stumbled about uncommon expenditure. made clear of debt base, I immediately recharged our mobiles fee, around 300 CNY. God dad, lift my dependence on my local loaner, who might turning reluctant. grant us a richer salary this month for I due to pay some extra bills including medicine, clothes, etc. secure my worksapce with findings, revealing truth our mission concerns. bring me sooner my Royal China, my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for ease of living. let me stay in self-contain upon life stream and social motivation. guarantee my cyberspace publishing booming and plenty of self-rely.

Asus chromebox 3 inaugurated after weeks looking forward to.

dreamed at my nephew's city, neighbor city of Hangzhou, Changzhou.
among crowd I tried to talk to him, first son of my 3rd elder
sister's, tring to coach him on business and life. I also concerned
his brother in dream. It's a golden morning. last night I first close
my window before went to bed since this summer, for today is lunar
Autumn creeps in. this month exceptional weighted for I equipped
myself another chromebox, Asus chromebox 3, after our chromebox CN60
shifted to my son as his lounge mini pc. my internet frenzy almost
fading, so I felt a biz guilty for the purchase. I tried to persuade
my son accept the chromebox 3 as his gear and lent me for some years
and I almost got it. the chromebox native support google play, let it
so unique and powerful. I shifted most my daily usage onto its
platform, inc agenda management, financial booking, reading source,
watching video, etc. never over-estimates its function. I invited my
son lingered 3 days in my dorm for the gadget's arrival from British
vendor through Amazon China. I previously intended to spend a week
with my son in my dorm. but his mom scorned us when we returned for
weekly shower in public spa on Sunday at her house. My son felt enough
of gaming streams at youtube.com and rather to return his mom's
custody for homework after 3 exciting nights with unrestrained gaming
and watching online videos. the purchase initiated by my son's loan
then aided by dorm canteen operative woman's ￥2000 loan, cost us
around ￥2100 which let me so satisfied and profitable, allowing me
budget 1000 for woz's a week staying plan here my dorm. but my son
suggested end it after 3 days' rich meals and meaningful interactive
on his devices, left us 200 in pocket before this week. we also
watched a cheap France movie, "taxi 5" on Saturday. all blockbusters
denied by PRC authority, we unable to choose a quality one. we dined
hotpot after cinema, in a drizzle dusk. this summer in Qiqihar
exceptional rains let it cooler than ever. I even put on a coat shirt
last night in my dorm against chill. dad God, now almost dust down
with chromebox, I relentless with it when it hit road from UK. thanks
for the finance and logistics. with it my workload more efficient and
our informative environment more secured. bring me sooner my Royal
China, my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. my son, woz, more
engaged in his Junior middle school schedule. grant him his satisfying
performance and reward meaningful. fill my life with interests and
enthusiasm. lead us vision our mission bounds. rid me off the sinful
ugly lesbian in my neighbor room, where never occupied before
surveillance and profanity.

dream of alumni during travel.

dreamed with my alumni, likely 3 or 4 members, some with family, in traveling from Beijing to Tianjin, my university campus, then to our hometown, Wuhan, central China. they are likely my senior middle school alumni, esp some studies harder than me and enrolled by more elite university like Peking Univ., or Tsinghua Univ. one of them with his daughter while I always felt honor and glory with my son in heart in dream. the alumnus likes details, so we check our package times and times, esp ticket and private items. I later gave up and just let him to take care of those stuff for me. traveling, once so demanding task for otherwise you will punished so heavily that I sensed in dream again the unrest and changes uncertain as well as our future unborn promising. this is a clean and clear morning, after last night rain. I wondered about my miserably separated from my son and who exerts behind. Last Sunday I told my son I reviewed history of his mom's mother's intervene with her elder sister, an mad cow, just after his birth, tried to keep my baby from my reach. their plots long time aiming deprive me of my son, which still on going.
after breakfast I tried to read and re-napped due to sleepy. I visited a guy likely my alumnus Peng Jinglei. he worked in a remote area in PRC likely Xinjing. we first met his father-in-law and his son. his naughty son soon broke my glasses. the grandpa tried to repair it while his daughter returned from her school as she is a teacher. when I teased the boy with English words, Peng returned and exchange our review on each life since graduation. Peng likely satisfied by his life and cautious about our visit. when wrote this blog, I recognized that the guy can be a QRRS colleague, who now a high rant manager here. he migrated from Xinjing after graduate and later moved his old parent here, away from the turbulent western area. he married a cadre's daughter in QRRS and lately didn't have child. he might lead a careful life for his father-in-law might be as bossy as previously. his father-in-law in dream reminds me he can be another elder, my son's mom's lesbian girlfriend's dad. he once be an educator, now had some skill and knowledge, but as I claimed once in my blog, no one in their elder respectable in sinful PRC except my passed dad.
this 2 dream so vivid that a bit strange in my recent life. I more and more lost patience and faith in dreams, once so meaningful and promising. God dad, I recently so hateful upon my life who bored me into tears. bring me sooner my Royal China for 1109 years in future world. bring me my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for my aging and offspring. grant us financial ready for glory of the Son and his people, his family support. affirm faith in praying heart, and glory of more achievement ahead.

shared concerns.

these days very sleepy, esp amid moisture from rains. last night it
again thunderstorm. the rhythm really beautiful! I had to choose from
online radio music or the nature gift, and finally I muted my
artificial speaker and opt out rhythm outside in late dark silence.
the rains is so rich that my quilt in decades first time turned wet
and a bit uncomfortable. God dad, it's so good. this week I also
researched new chromebox product line and felt high time to equip
myself one. in almost a week I thought it over where to fund it, till
holy message let me give up till I my own can afford it. It's sad to
bye from it but more reasonable, for most computers we had still in
their support life cycle within next year. I love them, and would
easily let them retired. the night before yesterday I felt too happy
to waste, so I buzzed my 3rd elder sister. her son again seemingly
unhappy with my call and likely deterred it. when I talked with my
sister, she also seemingly in unrest. now I saw possibly their family
in trouble: her daughters-in-law turned hostile to her. their lesbian
tendency puzzled my sister and her sons. the wives lost vision and
discipline, while my sister and her family inexperienced. in latest
lunar spring festival we stayed together back to 2016, I should
noticed the unbalance of harmony but I usually don't probing. God dad,
the sin of fallen women in my life taught me lesson already. I hope
glory of my family, under title Zhu and Crown of China Empire, didn't
hurt those little wives. God dad, care my relatives in need. and heal
those envious hearts in shine of holy.
these days also might be hard for my son, who just entered his summer
vacation while I let him wait for August to visit and linger my dorm
for couple days. his sinful mother again attempted to censor it and
probably set hurdles. while I busy with financial supportive, I saw so
many hard while exciting moments ahead. God dad, our hope is your
mercy. let summer 2018 arrives our hearts that praying for growth. in
this tipping world torn by trade war and hate war, let's reunite in
one in unity, or consolidate us in common sense of future
non-disputable, for coming world of my title, of Holy blessing,
wouldn't be scattered anymore. (shits! PRC surveillance might broke my
pc, here again during my writing broke down my internet, which never
happened in 2 weeks after failed attempt to punish over our new
equipment last 2 months.)
It is the most beautiful summer since I settled here for near 30
years. while the season is swift here on higher altitude, I hope
sooner arrival of the sultry, and lingering season of beautiful female
flesh and sunny skyline. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China, and
my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. grant me another chromebox for
its hyper-system above chromeOS and Android. in foreseeable future,
google will bring 3rd OS merging Linux, Android, ChromeOS, let us
affordable for the wonderful experience google brings. in my son's
coming visit, let me afford a more satisfying arrangement of dining,
play, exercise, and pure gathering. thx dad God, in this cloudy
morning.

amid sedative rains.

dreamed first I shopping online at jd.com, Chinese copycat of amazon.com. I detailed dreamed to fill its form, and a female helped and checked it. I always distrust the e-commercial site, whose founder is a graduate majors Literature from Peking Univ. and almost my peer. his family name is Liu, a domineer name in China since first native Chinese Empire, Han Dynasty, founded after their title. then dreamed in a Zhu's village, but not my hometown, where also all villagers under title Zhu's, who contributed to last native Chinese ruling Empire Ming Dynasty. I saw their leader summoned and ordered youth team, woman team, etc to execute different tasks and heading to different destine outside of the village. there were hundred people there under command. this is a pale morning, I believe coming a sultry summer, even might be sooner of the heat due to here higher latitude. last dusk I review once upon a time, an infant held by an old woman watching I buying snack from nearby dorm gate vendor. I thought my snack too cheap so I didn't share with him after the snack cooked. I felt I should better offer him the snack but I thought it's too cheap and he is enough, so I just walk away with my snack. when I regretted and returned to dorm gate trying save my error and buy the infant another, they had left. I was so sorry that I still remember it. then I pray God to allow my redemption. then I thought my son's neighbor kid is an innocent kid, from his childhood I still memorized, even now he more turned like his dad, physical ready to bull those weaker. so I prayed God to allow my inviting him dining out once more with us and I felt we granted. so the night I buzzed my son to inform the neighbor and made it ready. my son nodded while his bitch mom aside scorned and opposed as usual. God dad, let the insane woman go away from our agenda, turns back to her dirty and sinful nest. we also intended to watch movie this Saturday now that PRC surveillance deprived the summer vacation all blockbuster. till yesterday we found cheapest ticket for a movie is when it just on show; if u missed it, you will pay far more to review it. so I persuade my son pick a less hot movie from their cinema season and we did, that would be 2 weeks later for us going cinema. this week I saw so many bliss and boring in my current life. I had to wait and wait for glory, for coming gathering of achievement. my life almost half empty to fill, for backup view of the vein creates. God, dad, if I meant to be secondary, let my life humble. in this rain season, I had sipped so many blessing rains that was strange in decades. I saw my hometown dream closer to me, to my destine. show the world, esp Chinese, my privilege upon the land, upon the Empire of China, under title Zhu and my glorious ancestor. bring me sooner my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and my new family, Royal China. enrich my earth life with lives and meanings. thx dad God.

tears and fears in Jun 2018

passed week is the most financially gifted period in my life. first I
got an installment from alipay for my son, woz's new mobile to replace
his worn 2 cellphones. then the vendor, Asus mobile, refund us ￥800
even lately reached us. then my younger brother offered us 200 as his
payment to launch a conversation with me. then my nephew, ie 1st son
of my best beloved 3rd elder sister's, who operates an online clothes
store at taobao.com, refund us 500 after we sent him 400 for thanks
for he bought us clothes. I used it to renew our domain, zho.io for 2
years. my son didn't pay enough appreciation to those new clothes, esp
short pants with mobile pocket, under his sinful mom's force, but I
urged him doing so and it fixed. we both put on new short pants after
shower. his new mobile, Asus zenfone 3, with an international approach
and won favor among international developers' endeavor, bring us
alternative rom to replace malware infected PRC restricted os the
devil CCP government controlled in the territory before its scattering
fate. the new os, Android 8.1, is the latest OS we ever have, that's
very exciting. we are so proud of our choice of Asus, with which we
now had 4 products, ie. chromebox, chromebook, monitor, mobile. its
refund, out of expectation and our best surprise, proceeds a week. I
pre-spend it and pray its descending after exciting purchases
including my first smartwatch, pebble v1. the kind vendor always
pacifies me with promise, but I was unease so much. In God's
affirmative, I witness the grace in time and fully. my mean younger
brother in guise of paying my coach, sent me 200 before launch a
conversation. he tentatively delayed promised support of my lodge to
dorm canteen in half year, ￥700/mon, trying hurt me and hate of my
peaceful life. in this morning, sunny and usual, God dad, bring me
sooner my Royal China. leave me evil temptation from my dark relatives
and PRC surveillance. prepare us steady development of life and skill,
and passionate. this week also reminded me of danger in PRC, esp here
in QRRS. a once dorm lodger, an once graduate newer several years then
mine, turned dogs and inspired by mafia, tried to coerce me after
first tried to humiliate me by ignore my nod. he put on black mask
half face hidden and threaten me with mob's attitude. my dorm room
lock likely under hack by dorm administrative staff, ie. the electric
tech worker, an old mule trying hurt after hopeless challenged me. the
neighbor half room of the toilet, formerly warehouse, now occupied by
administrative woman, in role both worker/staff and lodger. in that
guise the cow easily broke into my dorm and poison me or surveillance
me. God dad, I knew the holy protection, still I hope sooner the
removal of insecure environment. bring me sooner my new family, my
Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and my 2nd child. save me from
anxiousness of future financial support. grant us light joy in this
weekend cinema time.

lunar dragon boat holiday adventure.

dreamed of starvation. then in my Hometown joined workers cross ten miles of new industry area to find canteen to lunch. my once Hometown pal, Zhu Zhongwang, fetched our ready food and cooked for us to lunch. he is a worker there while I just a visitor. it was likely several decade ago soon after open policy in PRC. it's a golden morning. exercising people with speaker makes outside hot. last night one of my favorite episodes, "roseane", banned by USA media enterprises and I hated it. It's a good product and my night TV time left with large empty to fill. I chose crucifier as recently it appears on social media but the mob theme disgusting me, esp futural surreal ability drove me away. I need truth of life, esp American life alike. even tasteless but online radio still let me forget late night. yesterday was lunar dragon boat holiday. I had my only meal of noodle. I tipped the small restaurant owner ten more bucks for appreciation working in holiday. on dusk jog I offered an homeless mid-aged man with my only 1 CNY. I had quite productive talk with my son, woz, about arrangement of his gears, esp new Asus flip chromebook for video interview between us. he reluctant to use well it but he is adopting the wonderful ultrabook. his nexus 6 breaking, screen panel leaving mainboard, so I bought new back shell from taobao.com to tighten it. I really itching to see its functional. last Saturday is our monthly cinema day. I penniless to fetch my son from his piano class to cinema at No.1st Supermarket of Qiqihar. the aunt of his mom visiting and accompanied the grandma to escort my son's lesson. QRRS, my once workplace, distributed a free food coupon so I shifted it to the grandma and its seemingly graciously. we watched "Jurassic park 2" and it was almost a blockbuster. but I always inspired by spirit, not animal including wild and astonishing huge one. after movie dinner was hotpot. I penniless and woz forgot to bring his wallet on which I counted. I blamed him for unprepared. PRC surveillance likely hated my coaching power in sms with my nephew and my younger brother, so they hacked my phone to ruin my texting: it kept refreshing screen in twelve seconds and let input method constantly whitewashed my wording, let composing failing and failing. in the urgent Saturday afternoon, the refreshing screen let my transferring money a nightmare operation to execute. the hacked android just unworkable. later I shifted it to woz for his smaller finger to click but he even can't operate to evade the failing refreshing screen. so I open my chromebook to transfer money into debit card from his remnants in alipay yuebao. I did 3rd times to resolve our problem. first transferring can't on account daily but next day, second one didn't prepare enough for ATM operative fee, 4 CNY, so 100 CNY can't be withdrawn from total 103 CNY. third time I had more than 105 CNY on account and ATM withdraw successfully. my son and I finally rejoiced and we ordered additional dish of mutton. our life just so tightened. the June saw lots of small rains. last night I first time replace winter quilt with lighter one, and its coziness. now It's workday morning. God dad, grant us anxious free salary day. prepare us meaningful financial support for woz summer vacation when I will invite him linger some weeks in my dorm. bring me sooner my Royal China, my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. bring me workload in my fifties'.

under heavy siege from posting on wall eventually.

these 2 dawns both dreamed of enemies and my revenge. yesterday on my jog route, the old sinister, an elder man, a mad cow, again challenged me physically, took a narrow way in advance me. he copied my route twice, always bragged his mule energetic and orthodox. It really disgusting me but I trusted God the killing upon profane, anytime anywhere. it took me longer to roam when I caught sight of my mission on the earth progresses so step by step and devising broken. God dad, enemies took our road to sabotage our beautiful world's descending. near my dorm, the neighbor room of my dorm, is a half size room previously for cleaner keeping tools, now occupied by dorm administrative staff, a likely lesbian. dorm authority previously never put woman among mans' area, but the cheap cow insisted lodging among all man dorms, just for steal and spying me. day by day it hided herself in the shabby shelter to surveillance me, to profane me. likely she arranged that to take advantage of public asset for private interest, or the SOE under PRC tyrant's direction to threaten me with the trick. as to larger aspect, these 2 weeks quite satisfying: dorm internet access upgrade to chinaunicom fiber optics, whose download speed stable at 2MB/s. upload speed almost the same. I completed downloading OSes on our raspberry pi within 2 hours for 2 or 4 system images. with the utility, I can safely try more Linux distributive and more prepared for Linux world which so attractive comparing Microsoft under PRC blackmail. now my son and my raspberry pi both equipped with more elegant OSes, ready to go further and higher on the ward free informative universe. the ISP in the pass week gradually picked up to surveillance me. it already blocked me 2 days last week, forced me surfing domestic sites includes its homepage, where I found cheap but gracious mobile phone number with modest data plan, 15 CNY/mon. I had already persuaded by its sms to have a free of charge deputy phone number, but later contact refuted me saying the data plan includes deputy card requires at lease 128CNY/mon consuming. but on the website, I saw an independent phone number only costs 30CNY, so I immediately ordered one, in rhythm of rain in an aimless night besieged by deadly blockage from open web. It's so meaningful and rewarding, that I can't wait to add the new asset to all my zhone GA contacts. Monday express informed me the arrival of the sim card and I fetched immediately, even the staff of the unicom missing and handled over her colleague. Sunday I busy with trying enable other 2 GA chrome device management within google admin panel before woz returning from his painting class his mom arranged years. even failed due to google policy, we glad the 2 GA didn't bundled with central administrative which usually bans full google play store access, as status quo. my son uncertain about my blame last Monday upon his adopting a corrective glasses his mom suggested in favor of Chinese so said innovation, but never trustworthy. he tried to flattered me by turning on English podcast proactive as I frequently urged while he always loosed to abid. but I don't care, and glad to reunite him in the fruitful weekend. his internet ISP once boasted speed of 30MB but never satisfying, rather just lagging and broken frequently, likely in PRC surveillance's ordain. I even can't update his Linux smoothly there. each time when I visit my son and launch update, it's bottle neck and upset our patience. God laughs the dirty trick and burning brains wasted among all ghosted communism China wholely in ash. God dad, I'm so contented by my new internet that I here end this post soon. grant my son satisfying web and rich content of play. grant us ward free web, for otherwise I see only darkness of dictator propaganda, coarse of manipulation of social consciousness. bring me sooner my Royal China, my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. bring me closer my dream land and peace of God's mercy upon Chinese and China, my vested land from my glorious ancestor. thx for this sunny morning, Dad God.

dreamed alumus on her door.

dreamed with my son roamed in remote place near Tianjin, northern China, my university city. I carried my passed mother's corpse and search for service to bury it. we were refuted once for too expensive. then near country fair we met Gao Jun, my once alumni who soon after army train in beginning of PRC campus migrated from our major into Economics, but stayed in dorm of our school girls. her husband or brother inquired our problem and extended his help, out of Chinese taboo. we likely rested there and waited for more money remit from our relatives, or aided by Gao to settle our funeral. the northern country side scene lonely detailed in dream, different from my hometown, central China. last night it drizzled, left wet ground when I went to dorm to breakfast. last night I put 2 pillows in stack and its the highest pillow I ever had with my own, for the cover of my pillar sent to laundry. yesterday I half day roaming in dorm, except reading informative web as routine. my life more and more turned like an elder, or even worse, like those retired gathered in gate ball game outside near my dorm window view. they found no fun in the game, no challenges, no exciting, but just gather and moving. still there are fights among common Chinese, like the dorm canteen. the operational couples loathed to invest more on food materials, but spare no efforts to advertise, to celebrate its anniversary. the result is fewer and fewer customers. I usually had less than a bowl meat in a week there. it doesn't hurt me much as a mandated vegetarian, but let me slender. recent months my throat more and more choked by phlegm, I had to cough hard to spit it. my backbone also turned inflexible: after standing up it takes quite few seconds to waist straight from sitting. usually the most exciting moment in a week is to gathering my son, woz. his sinful mom tentative separates us, frequently change my son's timetable to drive my son away from my side. God dad, the drizzle turns heavier. dad God, my life runs full and merry. no matter how sinister attempted to ruin it. grant us our web business booming and self-relies. bring us sooner Royal China for better future. bring me my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for my second baby, billing zhu. God dad last salary means so much for us. my wrecked shoes, which embarrassed me again last raining Sunday when turned wet, now replace by new one. my son glad with his new chromebook bag he chose his own. God dad, in coming alipay credit returning day, let us anxious free. thx God dad.

woz enters 13th earth year.

this month my salary from QRRS exceptionally supportive: nearly 600 additional totals ￥3600, and my younger brother gifted me ￥200 for update my wrecked shoes. with it, I bought my son, woz's birthday cake a dearest one, ￥128 fruits cake titled 和风莓语. we designated praying for Japanese spiritual and English.the cake shop near my dorm and kindly offered us a set of stainless steer cake knife and forks. my son lately returned from his school, near 7pm, for his school forced even grade 7th students to have night class aiming better performance in rat race entrance exam of elite senior middle school. his mom this time actively joined us in celebration. woz, and all us likely enjoyed the delicacy, fruit cake. after first round of eating cake, my son lent himself to my planned task abrupt, setup his new account in google chrome for easy access family asset book. that lasted more than an hour and wonderfully done. I then left, urging my son listening and watching more English as cliche. on bus station, the last bus line missed. I walked 2 bus stops to return my dorm, and busy with publishing video and photo captured in the ritual birthday onto web till 11am. in this deep sleep I dreamed 2 kind of different animals, 獾 and a Chinese sound like "揉", both like kangaroo or pangolin. the training and performance of district summer sports Qiqihar municipal requisites on going now again, near 8am and loudly outside. I saw in this days how the expropriation costs, esp young lives and creativeness. dad, my son's class was lucky out of the chaos. guide us away from burning turbulence of PRC war time preparation. grant us our job meaningful and rewarding material and spiritual. in this windy morning, dad God, let the world witness how plenty our joys, perfections in our living spectrum.

woz with his 13th birthday cake.

dream of panther in hometown village.

dreamed in my hometown in a raining night. my mother locked a panther in house, or a lion or tiger. my sinful 2nd elder brother tried to risk me to feed it. I feared and escaped, gathered into other villagers' kids. my mother help me in the dangerous situation. we discussed together including with infants in the village. when the panther released to us, we found safely treated it fearful and enjoy ourselves each other. last night it drizzled, with thunders. in the morning it was sunny and I sunburned my quilt. then I busy with sorting my contacts in google accounts and on my mobile, till I found it drizzling. I hasted to collect my quilt but the dorm keeper woman shown me my quilt already shifted by someone from yard to dorm corridor sofa. it smells with sunburn crisp. seemingly I should appreciate the anonymous helper, but why he or she knew that was my quilt or at least belong to Dorm No. 1, not other dorms share the central garden? last Sunday my son first time brought his new flip chromebook out when we dined out before shower. for he changed his bag, he forgot bringing wallet with. we penniless and without membership card we blocked from checkout the spa. I first haunted nearby barbershop to borrow ￥30, but the mean hair dresser to whom I tipped quite some times refused. my son had to return to his mom's house to fetch our membership card. however, after returned home after the frustration, my son now more enjoys his flip chromebook, esp android games on it. that's Mother's day. my son's mom's girlfriend visited, with her son there to receive tutorial from my son's mom. the sinful woman preferred my son's bedroom and lingered there recharging her mobile when I arrived the house where my son absent, in his painting class elsewhere his mom arranged. I even doubting the woman spying my son's gadgets there. she soon shifted to bedroom of my son's mom's, when I launched to prepare my son bootable rescue disk with ubuntu 18 and windows 10 installation iso. we dined in Japanese cuisine noodles restaurant. the boss' son at a loss over my son's new ultrabook, evaded gathering my son but sit neighbor table. his dad queried our new gadget and that's all response we received in our gear's first public appearance, except additional some gaze in public spa from graduates of nearby colleges. woz's old dell notebook, aided by my Nankai alumni decade ago as woz first laptop, shifted to his mom. still the vengeful woman tasteless, complained my eating her grapes her mom prepared at home, without least gratefulness. Dad God, so many shameless mob on the earth. like this monthly cinema experience, "avengers: infinite war", we need cleanser, need decent extinguisher. the world of plants and animals, the Nature already can't afford human rubbish population, largest wastes on earth. grant us vision to discipline, and unbearable pains of breeding rat race, and disgusting animality among humanity. grant us sooner vision to rid off nasty Mideast, African, Hispanic cheap human cattle. enliven again our mother Earth, our Nature sustainable human friendly. bring me sooner my Royal China to pillar world strategy stage. bring me sooner my Japanese Queen, Asoh Yukiko, to spread Merit of Japan, heritage of the Empire. grant me financial independence in this coming salary day. rid me off my mean younger brother, who promised to aid me to buy a pair of shoes then next day ate his own word and cold shoulders to my adversity. let my coaching in air in wind and free any obligation between us to dilute my disappointments. thx dad God, in this misty morning.

using of job

Introducation:

last weekend I left my son in gaming on his new flip chromebook earlier, partially evaded his messy mother's beg for aid to support my son's living. I recorded her loan ￥700/mon to support my son's living expenses, which mounts to near ￥20,000 so far, and told her I penniless each month with my bills and poor salary. my son last night likely upset by his mom's attitude and shown no respect of my query of his ongoing updating his wintel. he don't know his mom's failure and harm in her family education, as normal cheap Chinese.

KeyNote:

dreamt at my hometown in my summer campus vacation ran a startup, cake and dispatching shop, like pizzahub. the shop likely founded by our neighbor, the first son of village Mao era teacher and a long time secret copycat of my dad's role model. later I found there is another established competitor, a cake shop run by 2nd son of village's CCP secretary. they both treated me with barbecue for the startup and trying invite my partnership, esp in the secretary'a house the CCP cadre and his first son, my once friend and now a bank manager, appeared, and soon I found the arena challenge, in time and season sensitive. its easy to rotten a new cake in your hands at your cost. last night I saw threat against my mean while stable income from QRRS, a SWE I worked for more than a decade till my breakup in an adventure to gain a master degree of politics. I saw nowadays PRC how people insanely reckless just for a job and its salary. I saw since Marxism and modernization, people earn from job and drove by money, and burning out of reserved. heritage and merit ditched, enthusiasm buried by post. I wouldn't work for a job. I will commit in my vision, unshakable faith and inspire of reason and grace. I saw so many cheap souls, even in elegant appearance among nowadays VIPs in CCP and PRC main stage. the tyrant just whipping hardship of living to coerce obedience from weak mob. God dad, even myself under pressure of my son's mom to accept rule of jobbing, to support my family under her stinky guide, stumbling and crawling as PRC main stream. God dad, let me work independently, under your influence of life long career of stone works, regardless orders. let me inherit and abide with my nation. let my people self-rely and self-efficient. bring me my Empire of China, my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. bring me my new baby, billingzhu. in this sunny morning and newly improving canteen breakfast, let me sing and chord in praises of Goodness.

overseas friendship forever memorized: Asus product from Amazon China.

Note:
the chromebook brings another equipment of linux into zhone workspace. never too overestimate to celebrate its fitting our need upon coming US and China trade war. its so smartly slim. I hope my son enjoy it as his new first gaming gear. God dad, how a larger surprise can be after turbulent customs deterrence and hostile PRC surveillance? God dad, its the largest gift we have now, in your mercy.
Main Content:
dreamt with my son woz on journey. we needed to return to my hometown. the ground very muddy & shitty. we managed to aboard, but soon the driver found tourists to my hometown too few so outsource us to another bus. then we passed by a historical famous Chinese china factory, yuyao汝窑（于姚）as Song Dynasty chartered china craft. that remind me my 2 once QRRS colleagues, a woman in surname Yao姚, and a guy surname Yu于. they both offspring of once PRC privilege families. Yao's dad is the company's deputy secretary of CCP, while Yu's parents is scholars redirected to QRRS implies Mao's training in rural policy.
this week esp busy with update windows with April 2018 release, linux with ubuntu 18. its quick smooth, except during my installing necessary tools I was deadly blocked from vpn. last week almost all time waiting our Amazon China parcel, Asus flip chromebook. at first its vendor delayed several days to dispatch after our order accepted. then it went from British to Germany and Poland. then it traveled to HK. then soon clear customs and arrived Beijing, where it deterred 3 times and finally refuted by PRC authority and denied us our shopping. but amazon China didn't dissatisfy me, I got my parcel next 2 days through a mid man. my son likely amazed by the gift, I accompanied him setup accounts and then left his own to play with the wonderful product. this Sunday I will check its charisma my own. in this meaningful April, my credit debt mounts to ￥1000, including 3 kinds purchases, cushions for my dorm's coldness which results in my painful waist, pants for woz esp his mobiles portable, and wire k/m combo replacement of my wireless k/m which malfunctions possibly under nearby attacks. they all dispensable. dad God, what a beautiful early 2018 for us turns out in pressing environmental adversity!
God dad, PRC's most fatal weapon against our secure informative web is disable our down stream traffic, and it kills. in recent encounters it occurred more and more frequent, each time as soon as vpn once built connection. ugly dog just out of my door. our dangers in your mercy, God dad. free us from digital wasteland and brutal surveillance and disrespects in the last barking shameless China tyrant. God dad, let me cruise glorious founding of my Empire China, let me enjoy my Royal China with people concerned, esp my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. bring life vivid with my son, my new baby in my armful. in this summer, let's wholeheartedly fly higher and atop. dad God, grant us ward free web in nowadays siege of ghost communism in China.

our parcel deterred 3rd times at Beijing customs.

dreamt in my hometown village opens a new canteen, whose breakfast very rich, including hundreds of cuisines. I hangout there and sat aside a young couple to enjoy my meal. my coat accidentally got dirty with food there. It's a brilliant morning, when I can't help first to do is check my parcel's delivery status after got up. unfortunately it stopped by Beijing customs 3rd times. yesterday I let amazon China called me to assure my parcel on its delivery way, amazon did and assured the forecast, we will receive our parcel on Friday, Apr 27th, out of its website warning of returning our ordered chromebook back. this week I mostly relentlessly expecting arriving of our purchased gift, and 2 OS, ubuntu 18 and windows RS4, for preparing rebuild our work space. it's not a torture but let you review your life in pale and constrained. my salary also first time delayed to 24th of the month, while usually it varies from 19th to 23rd. so many awaiting tasks makes April 2018 so special. after all time will win us a better world, equips us better in the world changed largely by Christian. God dad, pave our road the goods sending to us. let PRC surveillance attempting defies our purchase in vain. bring me sooner my Royal China, and my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, in time as they matter so much. grant me new monuments in building the earth a more fortitude portal of China Royal and world infrastructural of future. bring more obvious worldview of my visionary. thx dad God, in every ray of sunlight we are blessed with hope.

waiting for new arrival.

dreamt with my Tibet artist friend, Benba Chungdak, and his friend. we together build a company. the enterprise grows with our ages. in handling developing issues we stepped into middle aged and each have child. I saw touching moment daughter with dad. This week quite boring, for I relentlessly need assured our ordered Asus chromebook smoothly delivering to us, evade PRC customs’ deter or domestic censorship. Life can be easier with help from our dorm canteen’s aid, the woman loaned me ￥700 to pay alipay credit debt yesterday. It not only remove the tension, also let my ability to handle something in failing prison of PRC economic winter. Yesterday I also seeking equip our usb-c reader a tf card for data transferring and storage. woz's coming Asus chromebook has 2 usb-c ports while normal usb only one port, so I preparing shifting my usb and usb-c reader stick to him, now that his Intel NUC shifted to me and equips me a build-in card reader. We are migrating from usb stick to sd card. I long time intending upgrade our backup card storage, but always felt economically unfit for it. Now I am almost assured worthily to invest it. I also intended shift our old Dell notebook to my son’s mom, the small man long time complained her notebook I left her without battery, even I told our notebooks’ battery were shits. I even guessing she brought Trojan horses from PRC surveillance into the dell notebook my son and I used to play steam games, for she insisted worked on the notebook even she already had an old Hasee notebook I left her, after all my warns not to mess with our dell notebook. Now she can has a taste of her own bait. I felt glad to rip off the dell notebook, for it frequently refused windows’ patches. It also lagging in booting up, even running programs OK. After move it away from my son’s bedroom, my son will has a new desk to work on. I long time preparing my son an office space, but the dell notebook always occupied one. So my son usually wrote homework on a cheap table his mom used for her profiting tutoring. Now with 2 light chromebooks, my son has 2 fix computer desks to work on. that’s I long time intended, against his cheap mom's efforts to put him and her students in slavery situation, where only main business is tutorials, like in Mideast or Islamic.
God, dad, its a yellow morning now. Sandstorm more and more common scene now here. Looking into future, so many holy discipline including severe genocide ahead. Quite some races deserve no future but hell. God put the chosen breaks through hardship and wasteland, and deserted. Bring rest to breed racing. Bring me my Royal China, my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, into tangible world. God, dad, bring me to top view of the canyon.

in danger of sliding chance.

first dreamt kill a bear. I don't want to hunt but soon I slayed it in front of fear. then dreamt in my hometown just after wedding. I enjoy enviable sexual life with my bride, each time I never anxious but just insatiable courses. yesterday is our monthly cinema time with my son, woz. we watched blockbuster "ready player one". we almost miss it with fake Russian product, snow queen 3 which mimics frozen 3. we watched frozen 1 and 2 and impressed, and without hesitation we chose the snow theme movie, till 2 days before the lunar Mourning day I found we cheated by the Russian. my son soon accepted my suggestion of change. and that's rewarding. I think "ready player one" is quite impressive in visual presentation. before the movie, I told my son my decision to put investment before deposition, in risk of CCP seizure. we never felt unease upon saving woz some pocket money via alipay's yuebao, till last Sunday we found yuebao restricting our automatic deposit, delayed more than ￥800 in cash account without profit for months, due quota restriction new CCP financial regulator setup aiming to disable or malfunction the world largest fund. then I saw CCP relentlessly constrain civilian's cash flow. I felt threatened and need to take action rather than passive been robbed. also in past months, our intended purchase, convertible chromebook, turned more dearer and scarcer on amazon China. we need response swift. my son agreed. after movie we ate hotpot near the cinema. the peanut sausage ran short, and a neighbor cheap mid aged man occupied himself unnecessary a full bowl of it against shortage. we used groupon and additional cash for more mutton. after returned to my dorm, I felt the rich meal let me energetic and delayed to sleep. I check my purchase target monitoring and amazed by new chromebook on sale. I at once ordered it and paid by my deposit money for woz in last half year, near 2000 CNY. its so satisfying that I watched lately another episode of "the office" for completion of the wonderful lunar Mourning holiday. now last night dream is so sweet that I never know aging. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China. bring me my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for I waited decades. grant us one more child for prosperous Eastern Asia. thx God, in this sedative morning.

agarten.in new face.

dreamt history creation by 2 pals in three kingdoms period Chinese well known. one of them is Yuwei, with his family ie. his mother and young wife, forging his southern China country from scratch. I witness his charisma, his conquer over territory he bestowed. another guy's expanding his national border near southeastern China also in details in dream. its a sandstomy morning. last week I ripped one of zhone cms, https://agarten.in ,replace it with a tool site, a project management site. even still in experimental phrase, I already felt satisfying. my son last week installed an old famous file explorer on his android. I uninstalled it at once, and warn him the dangers of PRC government overtaken tool softwares. the file manager was a wonderful tool, but now manipulated by PRC government for large scale surveillance, like it purchased hundred of once perfect software tools mostly created by individuals or small enterprises, esp rooting tools. my son noded. in night we co-operated online to assure his google voice forwarding phone enabling. but it turns out his forwarding phone consistently working for I called his google voice last year more than once, unlike my google voice never received phone call in last year, hence google require to re-verify to enable it. I told my son we should soon seek a grocer near our public spa so as not to lack fruits on our diet. I pray God grant me budget for the delicious food. my son now a considerable smart teenage, but he still hijacked by his sinful mother, who relentlessly challenged me and my parenthood. I warned my son not to frequent hospital, but last sunday soon after we returned from spa, he was arbitrarily brought by his mom left their house, left me alone updating his linux. they likely haunt eye hospital for my son's sight, on which the small woman recently fantastically obsessed. I told my son I day by day upset by Chinese teachers. they killing creativeness and smother orthodoxy. what a low moral they totally obtained! even worsen than PRC government employee!
God, dad, a new month starts yesterday, when we enjoyed downtown hostel pork steak so much. this month my credit debt again near 600 CNY. help me clear our debt and deal our daily budget lightly. bring me sooner my Royal China, my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for spring 2018 just budding new life and hope of life. bring my son his enjoyed game and ready office space he will step in with affirmative. thx God dad.

a step closer, world democracy.

dreamt tutoring a kid playing game, in which there is a scene of lofty gate, player has to climb up to get reward to continue the game. later dreamt of math exam, on which I always reluctant to touch while my son seemingly excels in dream. its a pale morning. after a busy week preparing migrate my work space from acer chromebook to dell chromebook, this week I mostly resting. the solution expanding chromeOS side by side with linux works perfectly for me, with installing a tool crouton under chromeOS dev mode, I now enjoy security of google ChromeOS and versatile open world of linux, which so powerful and robust. Reviewing my clumsy linux experience so far, I see clearly windows losing. Bill Gates in half century spend half world wealth to improve world health and poverty is invalid. Its no hatred, but discipline Holy spiritual glad to see. Now Trump sees it, and Gates persuading USA president to continue to adopt the fake savior. God, world at large, esp abnormal humans desperate for their abnormal world staged so many ugly shows including obesity, LGBT, anti-society, etc. there are so many abused food eaters in developed countries while average people encounter hanger everyday. Killing in mid east mostly exchange for food, but so many unfair between healthier living and sick food addictive. God dad, the Earth citizen needs merit based cleanse, like Trump’s new migration law. If man can’t live a healthy life, lives him hell. So does to drug esp opium takers. US entertainment circle stealth too much applause and selling too much cheap and unhealthy idols. USA esp weak democrats promoted too much cheap democratic notion upon world among which quite some disqualifies, esp hate culture and competing in breed nations, like Africa and mideast. World crisis now mostly due to cheap human cattle, which noway to preceding to nor prioritize animal and grand nature. cheap hurts but decency nutritious. A society can’t self-rely nor self-sufficient, a nation wiped from its land like mideast. But Europe and USA still missing rule Israel learns thousand years, they let enemies inside.

God dad, its a new salary day now, but yet QRRS release my salary so far. Yesterday I review my near 2 decades in QRRS Dorm, my youth and loving among PRC most exciting era, on the land my ancestor bestowned. I saw my old friends and found their hidden gay. I found my seeking family esp offspring efforts in all my half life, on this fresh land I chosen to pick up and grow upon to polarize. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China, bring me sooner my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. Grant us offspring new to Royal China. Blessing me new monument to develop zhone web. After workday I will fetch my son visiting my dorm monthly, permits us joyful reuniting this afternoon. Thx God dad.

a invalid try to update my workspace.

Dreamt in class where my once junior middle school language teacher offering his lecture. While his speech too boring I cheated to cover my reading my own material. When he stepped down to check our listening, my heart beat heavier. But fortunately he didn’t found under my text book there was another book I hid my pleasure. I felt shameless the middle aged male teacher demands students so much to catch his lesson up while his teaching so boring and meaningless. This week half waiting my alumnus’ aid which never happened to buy my own another chromebox. I previously planned to equip my son a new convertible chromebook, but on Wednesday I was attracted by chromebox which cheaper and its ethernet interface card more powerful than a wireless card. I was inspired by the idea and pains brewing me in wanting upon which I knew on my own I can’t realize. So I resorted to my senior middle school alumni for fundraising 2000 CNY. One of them once the best scored and enrolled by most privileged PRC university, Beijing Univ, and visited my campus in Tianjin and slept my bed, to whom a year ago I entreated for aiding me to flying to visit my kid brother in southern China and got his ambiguous refusal. So this time I thought there was still cherished memories in our friendship, and his job likely earns much more than mine, for his major is international law or economics and worked in stock market after graduate. But this time, 1000 CNY as I expected solely, he again refused me and blacklist me without any word exchange, after my 4 sms and 3 buzzes sinked. I didn't bother contacting any other alumni after the denial. In the day after International Women Day, a snow continued after days break in my clueless reaching out. I still didn’t understand after looking into why someone put money before friendship and moral kindness. Is PRC economy turns harsher day by day for the once academic leader turned so mean? Or my enviable cyberspace harvest in a decade's blogging as well as holy missionary under God’s shine turns the wellbeing alumnus hatred and bitter to turn his back indecently to me? After the refusal I busy yesterday all day on my raspberry pi, preparing it more liable and useful. God sharpen my sight that my workspace already spacious and reliable, after all attempts constraining. In this dawn I felt hard to sleep, and bliss ahead so thick. So I got up before 6am to blog, for today would be a blessing exciting day with my son, woz, in our busy agenda learning and studying.
Dad God, in your holy guide I got to know weakness among highly succeeded people include my alumni. Guard me to steer through wasteland in PRC where cheap souls compete to extinguish heroism. Bring me sooner my Royal China, bring me my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko for clearer vision in eastern Asia landscape. Grant us happy weekend reuniting as usual.

dusk down lunar largest holiday.

dreamt my publishing career got happy ending: my novel published or my literature awarded. my passed mother accompanied me to return to my hometown, where new houses building. quite some villagers congratulated me while myself also enjoy my success, my narrative style studied by scholar and critics. This is a sunny morning. I still feel not prepared to utter anything. Last week is interesting: I first time settled up arch linux, which renew my experience of dos decades ago. Linux really amazing! And by chance we also experienced raspbian, another wonderful linux distribution release. Both speedy on our raspberry pi 3, which turns a full functional pc from toy. I really enjoy the gadget. Arch linux so impressive that I decided to install it after my old chromebook’s EOL met. This breakfast is satisfying, while the operative man frequently coughed during serving let me anxious his illness infectious. His wife promised to wash my clothes but likely now the task shifted to a mid aged woman works there. They kept my dirty clothes for 3 weeks there intact. And yesterday the woman washing claimed she brought my clothes home to wash, not within the dorm nor its canteen. So they cheat me, and let my clothes more vulnerable to virus, privacy more looser. God dad, this week my alipay credit debt amounts to near 700 CNY, help me in these 2 months, whose income usually inclines lower due to corporate earning less after lunar holiday. Dad God, time turns more hard to kill in my aging, my life more miserable in waiting, waiting for gathering, waiting for glories, even waiting for better meals with my son. Bring me sooner my Royal China, bring me sooner my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, to accomplish my earth life. Grant me another child, whose cyberspace I preparing since last year. Thx dad God.

snow covers.

dreamt doubting printing technology, how woodblock picture prints color accurately represent by oil. then through a magic hole, I entered a legendary world where I turned from tiny figure to a hero with sword to revenge. he refused help but judge by his own to murder his historical enemies. I was astonished by dangers and thrills in the master protagonist encountered in his brave world. Lunar 2018 first snow lasted 2 days. This morning when I went to dorm canteen for breakfast, its cover much heavier than yesterday. Quite some dorm administrative women outdoor cleaning road. Its so beautiful! And my breakfast is satisfying, esp sugar pie served first time after spring festival holiday. The day before yesterday, I worked continuously near 40 hours to rebuild portable workspace on my ssd and raspberry pi. After successfully got new oses ready and backups sound, I slept in chair when watching episode which lagging due to internet under PRC surveillance. In the night I slept sound, till next noon I got up directly to canteen for lunch. PRC tyrant attempted to rewrite rubber constitution to pave for his life time dictation, which arouse large scale debate among Chinese as well as world stage. Chinese people usually begging their living tiny space, not much social storm. But the communist tyrant wanted to humiliate Chinese now that the rubber constitution didn’t ban unconditional ruling power, as ghost communism put into fake republic leader. Chinese is a tribe that respects their interface. But their harmonious face torn by shameless power stealth tyrant now dominating the stage, who also challenges all PRC citizen with its death or wealth for last bet. Chinese in long brutal conflicts with nomad and historic lessons taught them not to expect government to good behaves but this time its fate again put in attest, God or Godless, Jesus or their folk pantheon. Review last decade’s poor western China gang’s public show on PRC lawless cheap square, I felt much sure that holy spirit leaves me prepared for monkey mimics carnival for superficial glory. Their social achievement and economic robbery turning PRC a hell of prey and nightmare of smash of minimal, failing most sinful Chinese indifferent of their outer space but their tiny live sphere, bloodless hatch and hopeless survivor.
God, dad, its a sunny morning now. Yesterday I talked with my son online for arrangement of last dining out celebrating the end of spring festival. Bring me sooner my Royal China, and my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for the rest of my earth life. Bring me with my son new study of arch linux and new ultra convertible chromebook. Grant us a smooth year for steady growth, and larger web of world democracy of sustainable.

in cloud of commons.

First dreamt of my university alumni, Wenxiong, who recently has been
a bureaucracy in his hometown province, Hunan. Then I brought my son
following someone in night street. My son asked for snack then slept
in my arms. I felt so sweet and full of live meanings with him. Then
dream we in a wedding ceremony team moving to some places, half way we
passed a relatives' village where 2 cousin girls debated with me in
English and trying attracting me or condemned my keeping single so
far. Their kindness left me relaxed. This is lunar new year 6th day.
Still there are firecrackers explode in air, far away. Yesterday I
felt hungry after 2 box of instant noodles my younger brother sent me,
so I lately around 5pm ate some rices & dumplings in nearby restaurant
and felt satisfied. Tomorrow I will brought my son dine out buffet,
where I hope I can eat more. The dorm administrative woman said QRRS
will resume to work on next Monday, while national holiday arrangement
online claims tomorrow will be workday. My younger brother buzzed me
dusk before eve of lunar new year when I jogging and missed his call.
When I called back twice, he refuted it. He is posing to ignore me to
feed his ego. All my old family, ie, my elder siblings, called by me
once before lunar new year. None of them call back. In the lunar
holiday I didn't feel lonely, but enjoy quite sometimes solitude and
joyful bountiful of time space. Internet in those days especially
stable and usually I let podcast playing all day long. USA gun control
debate after massive school shooting arouse students protest didn't
bother me. I saw many familiarity between Chinese 8964 event and
what's on US. Young lives and social motivation on large scale don't
move me much. I more confident in God's bliss, which more making sense
in believing life, from naive souls. God, dad, these days starving
left me more close to Christian calendar, and world in crisis of food
and water, and separation they bring about with hatred and murders. In
this view I am ready for selective survival, out of brutality and
cleanse large scale among human cattle. Dad God, bring me sooner my
Royal China in better world under Christian, bring my Crown Queen from
Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for life sustainable and gracious.