my marriage in dream.

dream of my new marriage. my passed parents prepared me for new
marriage. my 2nd elder brother managed custom and celebration team
from the village, Zhudajiu. I saw my parents-in-law, my fiance, who is
shy free and visited us the night before rite. I saw clear I never saw
here. last week banks' call of returning credit deficit were frequent.
I buzzed my 2nd brother, kid brother and 2nd sister. my kid brother,
likely the only one who affordable to help, always felt frustrated
upon my conversation or appeal, refuted me 2 times, but finally called
me back last Saturday. he got all my credit card number, likely trying
to cancel them. he said banks' call disrupted him a lot and can't bear
it without actively dealt my problem. God, no matter how the problem
large, I always look my business bright in the end. but I really don't
know how to return the $70000 in my so pinched situation. this month
my salary in 3 serie months as low as 1800. I had to borrow to live
up. my son woz last Friday night visited my dorm. we ate grilled
mutton as scheduled. I don't feel like to put him in panic of economic
slump. he more and more silent upon my insistent life we deserve.God,
dad, I want get through hardness alone, with hope and prayer. God, I'm
confident my debt, 75000, is not a big sin. help me reverifying it.
this spring chill lingers, and put my dorm quite uncomfortable. bring
me sooner summer heat with life we enjoy. bring me sooner my Royal
China for grace. save Japan from earthquake suffering, save my crowned
Queen, Asoh Yukiko, and show us the union fasten our 2 nations.
#God #AsohYukiko #dream #life #love

rare dream of my passed eldest sister.

dreamt of my once brother-in-law. this week I restore my 3 dynamic
sites powered by web apps. cleaning data costs some time, but
godaddy's cpanel quite helpful and setup quickly. yesterday I
demonstrated my work to my son, woz, Hope of China, and confessed how
I love my own hut of communication, my own publication like the
website. this dawn I dreamt visiting my passed eldest sister's house.
my eldest sister committed suicide in her prime time, likely after
long time disharmonious with her husband. I love my sister very much
and my old family in debt of my sister for her marriage with a worker
which life much easier than our in early hardest time of PRC. I dreamt
my siblings gathered to visit my eldest sister's house. on a fork road
stop we met our brother-in-law, a widow now, trying repair his
tricycle. his son, my cousin grew up his teenage in my old family
after his mother's passed by and under my parents' custody with his
younger sister, offer a silent helping hand in the house and delayed
there while most of my siblings leaving. I tried to blog after got up
but memory scattered and I napped again. then dreamt I was forbidden
to communicate with the brother-in-law, but get a "matb" certificate
of permission to create access with the past. I also dreamt I on my
website considering published a worker's poems. he is an employee of
my once workplace, QRRS. his poems mostly old styled and mirrors PRC
old custom. I likely then attending a site owners' seminar. last week
PSBC bank urged me to return overdrawal of my credit card. I contacted
my senior middle school alumni and one of them offered me ¥1000. even
I badly need ¥5000 to facilitate fluit of my credit, I can't blame my
alumnus' poor kindness. I hope step by step break barrier of locked
credit. God dad, my web site, esp powered by database and web apps, is
my contribution to the world voices. pl help me maintain it and let it
booms. grant me renew my hosting plan graceful and reasonably secured
duration. grant us the cosy workspace we enjoy now. bring me sooner my
Royal China, my girls and my offspring in time. dad, let my dearest
eldest sister stays in my heart and forever in love. let the coming
history witnesses the blessing her concerned.
#God #AsohYukiko #dream #life #love

dream of flying.

So I napped again after a sandstorm noon. I dreamt using water as fuel
and a pair of light wings. I flied over a slop and carefully
calculated fuel consuming. on the hill of my hometown, I finally ran
out of water fuel and woke up. in the past week banks called me
several times but now less burning. I hope my business outruns the
ever accumulating profit in addition principal in a decade. this week
financial hardness embarrassed me so miserable that sometimes humbled
me to bite, esp occasionally an old cop near retired age ate his rich
lunch in dorm canteen with his pal in canteen. after restored hope of
life, my dinners in canteen even delicious since then, from complain
of loan from its operating woman. this week my restoring dynamic sites
also makes proud progress. backup partially imported to new database,
and fresh web apps targeting new domains tried and satisfying. our new
site gathers thin traffic but God, plenty of holy world, let me feel
capable of the online presence now and then. my own especially glad to
see these beautiful huts of interactive, of hospitality, of service,
regardless sunshine nor turbulence. they will be history and morality,
will be testimony of holy commitment. previously I tried hard to build
them on google infrastructure, but now financial situation hardly
support it, and compatibility with php less satisfying. now I found
cheaper hosting at godaddy. and free hosting at byet.host. God, dad,
let the freedom of cyberspace persistent, let the internet affordable
forever. above all of them, I gladful upon hardware upgrade last year
I pushed recklessly. dad God, bring me sooner my Royal China to foster
good world closing the sinking PRC, bring me sooner my children, my
girls with whom I prayed so long online. in coming salary pl allow me
to alleviate more or less my credit overdraw burden. grant us purchase
power among my dear credit cards. thx, dad, in this chill afternoon.
Photo Description: woz, Hope of China, has painting lesson arranged by
his mom. here his talent artwork in early stage.

rarely dreamt of youth partner.

dreamt first time of youth friend, Qiuxiaolin. yesterday I napped
several times but still today felt exhausted. after canteen breakfast
I satisfied and napped. I dreamt Qiu xiaolin, my Nankai alumnus and
close friend of literature, visited me in my hometown. some neighbor
kids, Zhudahua, Zhuhongying, etc, played our pingpang ball. sometimes
they asked my judge for who can play. I told them there r several
balls and enough. Qiu must discussed our favorite literature and also
relaxed with kids and fun. I had 2 friends in campus. one is Qiu,
another is BianbaQingda, Tibetan artist I never contacted soon after I
stepped into my empirical career in QRRS. that's nearly 20 years. Qiu
is now likely a professor in his hometown, southwestern China,
Bianba's paintings getting public and must also return to his
hometown, Lasha. and that's all I knew. they have my best wishes.
yesterday is lunar mourning day, dorm canteen out of service again. I
ate KFC breakfast and a cheap but consolidate lunch. the additional
cost made my reserve for reunite son in weekends in April turns even
poorer. God dad, grant me freedom of living dignity. empower me rent
hosting service online for my business on the earth in holy
affirmative. bring me sooner my Royal China to enlighten the eastern
sky. thx for peaceful moment of nap and crisp air after last dusk
drizzle.
#God #AsohYukiko #dream #life #love

my university pals visited me in dream.

dreamt of my Nankai schoolmates visited my house in their study. last
Saturday I worked overnight to install ubuntu for my son's computer
which frequently hacked by China surveillance. so this morning I
napped. in dream when I returned to my house likely also my ex-wife's,
to my surprise, all my Nankai alumni there resting, playing card,
chatting, etc as tourist, just like when we studied in campus. they
likely in their 2nd field practice except without me who is old and
trying hard to make a living. I saw Chenxinjian, Chengfeng I recently
contacted for help, also saw Muyunhe, Wangyanping, alumna whose
comment is sharp, saying I getting old. they all settled in my house
at home. this month my salary in serial was around ¥2000 while my
living cost for my son and my own is the number and additionally bank
charges ¥1000 for my credit overdrawal. in frequent banks calls, I
felt more or less burnout. I contacted some of my senior middle school
alumni for help. most of them evade me, but a promising guy, our
always number one academic score holder, acquainted my hardness. last
Sunday reunite woz, my dearest son, Hope of China, is quite warm
memory now. we dined rich, played games heartedly, chatted on profound
far sighted topics. upon my shortage I offered him 2 options, less
visit or dined cheaper, he chose the later, which made me prouder. its
sunny spring now, fine weather these 2 days encouraged me putting on
my best clothes. for God's mercy, my nephew, elder son of my dearest
youngest elder sister, who operates an online clothes shop, prepared
me some alternatives. God, dad, my life so far is enjoyable. pl don't
deprive our leisure and pleasure in the moulding of our Empire of
China of 1109 years ahead. only living happy deserves our vested
kingdom. pl help me step by step relieve my burden of bank loan, and
grant us of purchasing power continuous. thx dad, bring me sooner my
girls when we matter each other. enliven me by new children I breed.
thx for this silent morning after KFC breakfast.
#God #AsohYukiko #dream #life #love

goods' goodness.

dreamt of international cargo. in dawn dream, I prepared my packages
to Sweden where I will study. on half way I found my packages missing.
then found I mispelled and hijacked by malware. on half way where
there is crowd watching soccer world champion, I miserable search all
hijacked packages' label and corrected them with my designated destiny
while maintained hijacked address untouched but move it to lower
propriety and wouldn't executed for trial and test. then in remote
country I possibly waiting for the only missing package uncorrected,
and doubting if its a serial compression in which missing a member
package will ruin all others, or all independent compressed packages
in which missing one will only affect itself content. the dream likely
an echo of what I saw last night I returned from visiting my son. on
the bus stop I noticed railway station setup its cargo handling office
where previously rented to 3rd party business likely small hotel, etc.
its likely now has their business booming and office restored. I saw 2
young couples leaving from the office and likely they fetched their
cargo. I enjoyed online shopping last year so much. now the PRC
government installed higher tariff trying smoother overseas purchases
booming among Chinese middle class. its a whole pack aiming prevent
Chinese better informed shifting from poor Chinese quality to world
including political, life, society, ethic all aspects. dictative PRC
attempting stop losing customers inland by monopolize their poor
official offers like north Korea where people lame generations and
generations of prey. how I cherish overseas purchases last year and
cozy of online shoppings which now almost impossible under my current
hard financial situation. God dad, PRC sinking dictation want harness
domestic consuming boost economy and employment while never afford
losing control on monopoly of supply, the most important role in
industrialized production chain, and through which American people and
world economy help China in past decades so much to allow diligent
Chinese labors engaged full fledged and improved their lives nonstop
in more than 40 years. the ccp is a bitch, grace never sheds light in
its stoned heart, and relentlessly sinking China with it when times
ditching them with their poor quality and means of troublemaking. dad
God, bring me sooner my Royal China and my beloved children, my queens
for peace and pleasure of now. please ease my credit deficit and allow
me shopping online as usual. in the coming salary allow me make use to
alleviate my debt burden more or less.

a year's plan in the summer time.

20/5/2014

an in time rain again. ^ last dusk I was chased by dogs. dirty old woman tried to defame me. in the night I should enjoy American TV dramas, but recent PRC banned lots of culture products overseas, claiming they against PRC's moral system. but I still find fun alone and idle. the rain didn't start when I went to bed, but in dawn its rhythm brought me dreams and peace. I dreamt as an intern in CCTV, PRC's assigned authoritative and dominative media. I interviewed by high rank cadre of the media tyrant & fear of clumsy. I indeed in dream of poor qualified, in fact felt miserably uncompetitive.then I did field survey of society, in minority area.a kid &his elder sister talk with us in their mountain village. they are funcy and cute. dad, God, so many burdens and hostility around my Royal China, so many protection U put us and stand us upright, God, I don't deserve a complaint for bareness nor dependence. the battle last long while I prone to homesick. God, dad, coming years more depressing in the economy as well as social and politics. God, guide me and my beloved through the warren and safe onto my promised land. God, dad, in this raining morning, with my girl Lyu's attending, I felt steady and inspired.

12/5/2014

a blessing rain from my girl Lyu.^ this week felt extreme lucky. I got my own 5 letters domain, zhone.mobi, for my long time used namespace for my family, an alias of oneizh for whose logo I designed years ago. during hard time of PRC's sliding low economy, I cling to concrete asset like the domain, with which I gathered courage to buy 5 years at once. my debt this month amounts to near ￥2000, but I felt easier since last sunny day and moisture days follow. this week also especially long for PRC public calendar shift labor day vacation and made the workweek 6 days. My son hesitated to me when we reunited. later he explained last week I blamed he didn't try new video games hurt him. we soon enjoyed together again, with lots of game playing. I treated him Dico's lunch after more than a month's break for hard economy. the weekend can't be more splendid. this dawn I dreamt first helping my 2nd elder bro rip ghost from his son or grand son.then dream on a train, usually most jamming and noise and dirty travel method, we occupied a small space,say kitchen, and cozy.after a meeting, one Guy, Xiu haitao, a big build Guy among my Qrrs colleagues once loaned me to pursue master degree in Nankai Univ back to 1999, gave up and left the kitchen with his baggage. when I got up to pee, I felt afraid of ghosts. I soon boot up for breakfast in canteen. the rain too beautiful to miss. God, bring me sooner my Royal China. help me stroll over the hard time in sinking PRC and its tyrant party. fetch back our leisure life style with dicos meal, and online shopping once a week or monthly. thx dad, God. secure my cyberspace assets and ease my concern of their security.

3/5/2014

dreamt exile. ^ First dreamt escape with General Chiang Kai-shek's army. Then dreamed with a German family. They live in the only tiny forest in Germany. their son tried to make friends during exile, make use of drug to feel better. his aunt, a girl, brings his parents to rescue him, forced his physical exercise in their yard. I liked the aunt in dream. after I scrabbled some of the dream and continued to sleep, I probed advantage of German. I played with the family, esp the father. Its a funny international labor day. my son expected it heartedly, for it includes movie "Captain America 2" in 3D cinema, steak lunch, visiting my dorm, and luxurious breakfast next morning in U.B.C coffee. it turned out really memorable. during the vacation I also claimed family 13th domain, riveryog.biz. its the only 8 letters domain we have. the .biz also enchants me so long. its all nice except hard finance weighted me lots. my eldest brother promised loan me ￥1000 while several days passed the tranaction didn't happen. I actually worried about draining out situation in my business. I hope I can break down barrier of debt, but it more and more shakes my confidence. God, I saw ur affirmative and uphold to it. God, dad, just let my work and life rolling like usual, smooth like deep river. God, I have lots to hope, but most in hurry is my Royal China. bring me sooner my girls, my Queens into my new family, and our children beautiful and gifted under new realm of my Empire of China, spans 1109 years follows.

24/4/2014

dreamed of being a graduate and in love with a girl Lyu. ^ in dawn dream I just after national graduate exam, and enrolled by Jilin University, an ivy league campus. my crushed girl Lyu also will study there the same year and only us 2 enrolled by the Univ. the term. my major is Cg, computer graphics and post effect, with parents, which odd in both eyes of girl Lyu and mine. my 2nd elder bro accompanied me to report in open season. he hurried me to sleep same bed in dorm with him but I felt queer & rejected. a little girl slept on a bed near me talking me while her grandma ordered her leaving. they beat each other. I tried to save the crying girl,then wake up. Girl Lyu loves me too.her major now forgot. when I met her among our classmates, I felt so sweet and so is she. in the end of dream, we got to know the campus is not in down town but quite rural. God, this month salary arrived lately, 200 more than March's. thx for the gift. we still in debt of ￥1000 and more. I hope I can fix it with my salary in coming seasons as summer can be busier season and brings more products ordered for the SOE, QRRS, my once and long time employer. celebrating the salary quite impressive. I bought my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, toast duck as planned, we enjoyed it so much. next day I bought him persimmons after knew he missing it. handing in subscription for boarding and fruits went also quite smooth. sometimes only experienced hard time before you know normal life and its costs so important to be sustained. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China, my Queens, Asoh Yukiko, girl Lyu, girl Zhou, girl TW. thx for this blessing morning enacted me before 6am. thx for life comes so peaceful.

10/3/2014

From 2014 admires

From 2014 admires

From 2014 admires

From 2014 admires