stealthy ternination of my parcel.

dreamt of training of Royal member, ie. royal court and Prince
himself. how his attitude toward his servants, esp 3 closest
secretaries, can affect the quality of leadership. saw philosophy in
social interactive. then dreamt with my wife treated in a banquet,
with social skill just learned in train. last week's shopping online,
a backup router of Asus RT-N66u, finally ruined by PRC surveillance.
the express, STO.com, totally denied the parcel it serving, just as
taobao's logistics. the poor vendor kindly promised me to check why
the parcel missing or without ending, but after 1 day he refused to
talk to me and prompt refund me instead, likely unspoken shame of PRC
secret cop's hassle intimates him, seals his mouth. with the money
returned, I at once ordered another from different vendor now that the
market is full of the product. within the day, around 4pm, the vendor
sms informed me parcel dispatched. God, dad, how I glad to hear that!
yesterday after read news that squareup.com offer in account credit
service, I decided to give it a try. but when I trying signup the
wonderful website, my internet worsen and inaccessible for 3 hours. I
finally gave up and shut down computer. PRC dog likely warns me that
even with most powerful network hardware, they still interceptive in
my internet traffic, or blocks my financial connection with American
service. however, after dinner and a thunderstorm, I smoothly claimed
2 zhone accounts with squareup.com and its affilate, cash.me . without
US ID mostly service out of my reach, esp high expected in account
virtual credit, but still the wonderful service from the same founder
of twitter.com, generously offers us 2 vanity url,
https://cash.me/$faezrland and https://cash.me/$zuocenter . I can't be
more proud of the operation out of distress of surveillance. in the
week I also modified 2 online resource of google sites' widgets, both
of google photo's, to fit my online brand, and deployed onto my
portal. visit them on http://www.be21zh.org/regalbum . hope the author
grants my reusing his code in xml file that show my google albums' rss
source. and I honestly pray google sites, now confronted with google
new sites, don't elapse into disappear. zhone assets based on the
service remarkable hugely maintained. God, dad, this month I merely
left ￥100, grant us a happy weekends with my son, woz, Hope of China.
bring sooner my crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for better
management of my vested Empire of China. bring me my second child as
namespace billingzhu.com prepares. with adequate financial support,
dad, God, I live anxious free in this eccentric city for future open
and welcoming eastern Asia.

PRC surveillance's sieges turn monsterous.

dreamt near lunar spring festival at my hometown. saw changes in the
village: newly build dam control gate and road. the road near dam gate
left with deep and steep wheel dent for poor budget for concret. I saw
our village field, flowers and leisure villagers among it. In dream I
married my niece, ie. second daughter of my mom's niece in a village
around. but we were divorced newly in dream and our son left me sad
for the changing life. last week full of joyes with improved salary.
my urgent bills wrote off with it. now with ￥200 loaned by dorm
canteen I will visit asylum for medicine today. my backup cellphone, a
moto, hacked and ill behaved, so I deleted critical database on it. it
usually disabled both wifi and bluetooth. so likely hacker with direct
control on it. I wondering if the facing door, a secret cop
surveillance me since weeks ago, stealth into my room and injected it
malware. my parcel from ordering used router for vpn on taobao.com,
delayed a week still it only left one logistic information: dispatched
by vendor, and nothing else happened in other 6 days so far. another
item, a usb card reader, its logistic information also hijacked
several days till it reached locally before updated on time. PRC close
surveillance sometimes made me sad. the facing door dog, with all its
energy when just settled, half open his door all day and night,
immediately fixed my door which is tight and sometimes my son even
can't push open on his own, likely in weekends when I went to visit my
son 3 bus stops away, just under corridor webcams. now that its now
even can't hold tight upon wind, I intended directly shut close it
when I entered. the facing cop also in recent days gave up letting its
door half open to peek and eavesdrop, my cold shoulders toward
surveillance likely conveys strong dislike and ruin his fool's joys
and presumable poise. he also likely partially completed his mission:
stolen my password keeper's database, infected my portable devices
with trojans and keyloggers. the long compete for a clean os really
drains me, let me felt boring and labored. what's laughable is that,
the neighbor tall dog, once pretending cough every day and spitted
everywhere in excuse of his illness, these days silently stay
unnoticed aside, quit both surveillance and condemn the environment.
the authority has its power just upon those cheap souls and zombies
which labeled price for been controlled. dad God, save me from fatigue
of faith in long run. bring me sooner my Royal China to discipline
China and Chinese under holy. remove trifle divided by forcible
authority and in glory of united one. God dad, bring me sooner my
crown Queen, Asoh Yukiko, from Japan, for coming age. bring me more
offspring to sustain the 1109 years life of my Empire of China under
title Zhu's. bring me lighter credit debt in coming months.

huge improvement in salary June.

gradually people around me turns better treating me. my gaze when I
jogging in dusk turns some women and girls friendly to me but also
gathers hatred. reviewing women in my life so far, I sometimes touched
by kindness and tenderness of QRRS Dorm canteen woman who operating
the small business with her diligent husband. his husband is a tall
pal, his kindness to his wife is enviable. these days I likely overdo
my kindness to them, and easier led to misunderstanding. I always
remember first time I met the spouse when their business just open,
how the woman confident and contented. I then felt I can help her with
her target, wellness & independence. now about 7 years passed I didn't
miss it. sometimes love recalls my campus life, esp master degree
seeking period when I met Asoh Yukiko. God blesses me with brave
heart, whole vision and all those memories so timeless cherished. I
don't want to hurt anyone but the canteen woman's husband likely
receiving, for his less gifted, for his property appreciated. God, fix
my poised with due humility. yesterday I gained a bonus from QRRS, my
once and long time employer, just after a day my salary released,
which increases near ￥500. the bonus addes another ￥500. with it I
renew my godaddy hosting plan for another half year immediately. also
renew billingzhu.com a year. with improved salary I ordered backup
router from taobao.com, as incredible satisfying and enzymes me in
super confident mood. 2 days passed I still felt the content.
yesterday I also retouch my homemade gadget on google sites, which now
tending to ban such hosting function and my in time usage likely saves
me extra cost from google's wonderful and generous free service. see
them on most of our zhone portals homepage, in section of blog rss
feeds and tweets, youtube, groups, donation links. its nice feeling,
for even I never master scripting skill still I probing those scripts
and tailored them into my buildups. I gain so much from my education,
my ability to self-taught. dad, God, bring me sooner my Crowned Queen,
Asoh Yukiko, and my Empire of China for larger comfort in my life, for
fulfilling the proud creator life experience. grant us a happy montly
reunion 2 days later, and monthly cinema and walmart shopping in a
pack with dearest son, woz.

living meaningfully with world videos.

Its a sunny morning, I felt obliged to get up and do something. Recent
testing tomato router script put me in a worker's mindset, absolutely
nothing else beyond of task memories. I dived so hard that I merely
recognize other things than occupied by inch in inch progress I strode
outward chaos. My son last Saturday lost his desktop logon
confidential, So I taught him to reinstall windows 10 and roughly
customizing before backup to image. He reluctant but worked with me,
while his sinful mom, a cheap junior school teacher, close watching my
tutorial on computer. She occupied her house every free hours out of
work, grasps dirty money from tuitions she ought to offered on job.
After 3 years and graduated, now she every more than 12 hours in a day
earning from the educational bits even it's shabby in quality in her
campus. I more and more felt its insane. My son due entertainment
ruined for his mom's house forever a workshop for his mom and her
cheap pupils. In this view, I recently relentlessly equip my son with
lounge TV and English programs, on which he enjoys and absorbs when
his visits monthly my dorm and on my seat. I hope the moment he enjoys
staying with me and my workspace forever prolonged. So last month I
equipped him a touchpad k/m combo for convenience of remote input on
pc and android TV. The Chinese product works smart even we anxious
about keylogger and other spy wares lawless PRC breeds, in favor of
dog CCP and state surveillance. My son more or less accepted my
arrangement, promoting him from mobile games he excels now and
adopting more language and expressive method as his new skill to
master. I times and times urged him makes fair use of our borderless
web. I hope he enjoys meanings in American culture stocked in amazon
prime video and youtube, vimeo sites. My trustworthy video education,
defied me in youth decades, pacifies me more than 2 hours daily,
broaden my world view and wishfulness so much that I have to put on
forth for my son, for his beneficial social experience and nutritional
source of moral and spiritual. God, dad, my life so rich that I'm
constantly complacent. Bring my son meaningful in his scope of
activities. Bring me sooner my Royal China to protect her from poverty
grilling the land and souls CCP and PRC only left with. Bring
producing capacity our fatherland sustains before the burning out in
cheap dealer like communism. Bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from
Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for unfinished mission we beset, among a never
seen silver proud heaven on eastern Asia. Thx you, dad God.

in dream lingering art college once more.

a relaxing dream in which I visited my artist friends in Tianjin art
college. at first I dreamt with BianQiong, my Tibet painter friend,
and his friend. they live in dorm like a family. then shifted to a
house near door and some of those students there working and chatting.
I using English with a friend from my hometown neighbor county, who is
humble and treated me well even I visited BianQiong in vacation but
then the moment didn't paid him enough attentions but kindness felt.
he sometimes mixed with my impression on another guy in the art
college who also attracted me with his abled attitude. we chatted in
English but my English seemingly not fluent enough and sometimes the
students there in the house perceived it. its a peaceful dream and I
without any pressure but enjoy staying. last 2 weeks I too busy to
blog. my son's nexus 6 lost due to forgot to fetch after sport, likely
accompanied by his sinful intrusive mom, a really small woman and poor
gifted junior teacher. but next day she registered the lost on local
stadium administrative and it even returned intact. I even
disappointed by my son's loose management and bad memories, but ready
to accept the misfortune. my son really glad to regain his nexus, he
hummed upstairs when I waiting him in Sunday visit. last week I under
heavy government sponsored hacking, detained my downloading windows 10
creator edition iso. I also tried to rebuild router os after
disastrous intrusion. I failed times and times to make configurations
backup. later I gave up backup now that if I left most of router
profile default then will be less shortage of ram and lagging
response. we also elated with new auto-connecting script and localized
vpn server script, a byproduct huge finding during googling our
problems. it fix our pains on ass of vpn connection which frequented
by PRC surveillance and problematic. its really a great achievement
saves. even most of the weeks busy and fruitful, PRC surveillance
turns freakier now. my facing dorm moved in some young beast with
stylish pig tail on his head, staying all day indoor babbled. most
night when I went to toilet and back, their door left opener and room
in dark, just remind me their capable of surveillance, poisoning, and
stealth. that sometimes made me unease, but I know who is more
unbalanced and revengeful. I put my fate in holy bliss. let thieves
trying rob me in day time and in shadows. CCP and PRC literally makes
everyone poorer day by day, minute by minute. its a burning fire heap
that destroys any surplus in Chinese society. God, bring me sooner my
Royal China. bring me my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for
better management of my life, of my Empire of China from my heroic
ancestor. bring us surprise in this month salary day.

thick hatred surround me.

dreamt in a journey and next day we will return. I designed a
multimedia and have to change some text in it. I tried many ways then
found have to install then hack text string, one for title, one for
calculation result. then in a class there are some guests. on black
child played with my son and slammed my son's face. I angry with my
son and urged him to slam back. then the black dad join the war and
forced me to pay more attention and compensation. that's likely
concerns about my son's English tutorial his sinful mom arranged under
a black man's lecture in her college, Qiqihar Univ, where she still
felt romantic or fantasy. yesterday google alphago beat all human
Chinese go players. back to bed, dream continue about the lost. I saw
some collegians lived around, like my dorm crowded by young workers. I
tried asking if they saw my suitcase. no one listened in their games.
one of them likely my once QRRS colleague in tech department, Chen
Ziming, later told me alone that I too risky to put my baggage outside
of door and packed valued items. I should pay for my careless. its a
long morning and my late dream echos turbulent wind outside of window.
last night my stomach painful midnight and I had to get up to shit
twice to relieve the uncomfort. the dorm canteen's operator, the
husband of the woman, turned hostile to me. the marching team in dusk
around QRRS square also hated me, just like I didn't appreciate their
noisy boombox and coarse taste of music. young workers in the dorm
long time grudged with me, trying all means to upset me, to hurt me.
the dangers in mop sometimes put me in chill. but I have nothing but
mission. coming lunar dragon boat holiday let me so lonely, like the
Chinese girl Yang shuping lectured in her graduation ceremony in US
aroused so many blind hates in sinking PRC young dogs. dog PRC hated
anything out of its humility. they turning China more and more mirror
of bankrupted MidEast, purest poverty, now that they don't enjoy
anything in the world out of their mouths, or their teeths' tearing
and grinding. God, dad, bring me sooner my vested Empire from my grand
ancestor, for harmony Chinese family and life. bring me soone my
Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for sanity of nowadays Chinese
society. bring me more offspring for future 1109 years my new Empire
of China reset for span timespace. grant us a merry holiday, esp woz's
last children holiday coming less than a week.

dreamt of new born.

dreamt at my hometown with my old family who all catering a new baby
whose centered likely my son. lots of relatives jammed in the bedroom
once my old parents prepared for their first next generation's
wedding, my 2nd brother's. I held the infant and sending him sleep but
in a blink I only holding blanket while the baby missing. then on the
edge of bed and edge of the entrance of the room, on uneven stone or
plastic teeth of a plate the infant sleeping. his head left on bare
rugged without clothes cushion but thank God its OK. we carefully
shift him to new infant bed. my 2nd elder brother's wife, their first
son, my 3nd elder sister esp helpful in caring relatives crowd. the
infant under so many attentions that I felt he must be my newly born
son. in second view during a break I thought he might be also my
brother's 2nd son's first son. the nephew married a neighbor village
girl then soon divorced. he now rumored dislike woman and kept single,
that's his mother claimed about her own son in front of me. I think he
more likes his grandpa than his elder brother, who had 3 children now,
and merits belongs to be our family members but not a clue in his mom
who bold and shameless feminism, like generous, honest, integrity,
kind, etc, with which I told him in once QQ chat session years ago
before his marriage. today is Monday morning. I again in chill felt
boring and napped. yesterday I bought my son small fishes and shrimps
from an elder who is single and hopeless aside the road when I went
alone to buy fruits. I intended to do him a favor but he refused aid.
so I bought his all he charged ￥15, a small heap small fishes and a
small heap of shrimps. I left him a preach and 2 CNY extra and fled to
evade the elder's defying. I told my son how small fishes with small
hot pepper can be delicious for in my teenage my 2nd elder brother
quite sometimes bring home the food material after his school, ie. he
caught fishes in pond or fields. it left me life long appetite. I
really hope my son find the delicacy but so far I unable to contact
him about the dish the grandma loathed to prepare with before I left
in Sunday dusk. I also bought my son extra fruits, including litchi
and mango, preach, for my son loathed to let me buy fruits after
showered in public bathroom. I feed him with litchi and mango before
left him alone in his android games. we really enjoyed the fruits. on
Wednesday I will fetch his birthday cake ordered online, and celebrate
his 13 birthday together. God dad, I recently felt more solider to
accept de facto that my offspring limits to one son. I trust Holy
arrangement and humble of my son's mother family, her insanity. God
dad, grant me more children in my prime time. bring me sooner my
Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. link our nations, our blood
bond on new land that shared among us. bring more laugh and companions
in my life in family forever bright.