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Tuesday, August 22, 2017

dream before breakfast.

This morning napped on chair before breakfast and delayed and avoided breakfast in dorm canteen. I dreamt long time secret chaser of my dad's voiceless life coach: the husband of my mom's close friend, also her niece under surname, Hu. the man over decades been cadre of his village and executed CCP planned parenting decades but he bred more than 6 children, contrary to planned parenting policy, just attempted to copy and overwrite my dad's glories. I have sibling of 6, that's long time the source of relentless hatred of the chaser of my dad as moral director. he sent his first son to CCP army in western China and always boasted bribery army leader with local feather food, via long distance parcel express. when my dad passed, the village cadre first hand attended my dad's funeral and on air joined my phone call, told me I needn't return to see my dad's bury, after my mom's dubious mourning voice in the phone some twenty hours after my dad left us. he chased my dad hard and attracted most of my old family, sometimes includes me, by his cordiality. he must uncomfort in front of my dad, his shinny hero, or mirror of his sinful, his life's meaning. yesterday long time waited salary released. no more and no less ¥3227. within half hour I dispatched and solved it. I managed paid credit debt less to spare to pay more local debtee, dorm canteen operator who claimed in urgent expenditure. I didn't know if they satisfied for when I went to return money, they absent and his helping dad there accepted. God dad, I tending asking my kid brother to loan me to buy this month medicines. he long time attracted by the cadre relative, and envied my dad's glories. he even hated me under God's shine. in my first call back after my dad's passed by, he talked to me and seemingly hardly hide his relief. now he cover my boarding, ¥700 *13 yearly and hated cost even a dime more for my hard credit debt crisis. he took over my all credit cards and then told me he lost all of them. dad God, copycat or hidden enemies, graceless cheap souls, why it hurt us, dad, for they humiliate us? manifest me more on creativeness and sin of stealth. God, dad, my startup, zhone publication online bundled with 21 adorable domains, likely starts its life from my self-prove against my asylum trap. I never expected that, mental disorder after broken heart, or sleepless nights. my world ruined after the record of humiliating. I told my son's mom when I left the asylum 3rd time and claimed my only job since then would be my blog, my murmur of my meaningful universe. now it all brought about. and enemies of zhone feared. dad God, let justice and revenge in time to wash me, cleanse my glory of dents and dusts. dad, even I don't promise killings, I do promise righteous weightless baptism.

Saturday, August 19, 2017

out of rainy and climax of summer 2017.

this is a sunny morning. I put my quilt outside for sunburn, while
since workload I preparing for coming salary. this month I borrowed
near ¥800 from dorm canteen. and the operative woman urged me to
return my debt more for they are in urgency to make use of it. I tried
once to contact my elder sister for aid but so far didn't connect
successfully. last Wednesday after I made full backup of zhone
publication online, I walked to visit my son midnight, in pains of not
attend him so long in my solitary, against risk of unhealthy tendency
the dark world trying assert on him. my son calm heard my fear and
soundly chose maintain our current life unchanged, except my purposed
new weekend reunion once a week, from 2 visits weekly. its the first
new routine in place and now I still penniless. in the week the dorm
lan administrative attempted to bring down my vpn and in 2 days I
barely surfing freedom web. so I prepared for harshed surveillance,
installing windows client which more robust and workable as new hub of
connectivities. God, dad, I'm in such a pitiful situation that I
totally under your mercy. help us and ensure our ward free web. this
week passed smoothly, lest my bothering of looking out for my son's
presence, except now when I waiting for financial support to fetch him
for monthly reunion in my dorm. dad God, sinking PRC step by step
tighten rein over overseas purchase, among which my domain investment
endangered for our registrar chosen godaddy against PRC's lawless
tyrant seizure. now they put alipay and tenpay, Chinese most domineer
online payment tools, under its account, not only for monetary profit
but also for its political advantage. my 21 domain renewal also
heavier burden in shrinking civilian income nowadays PRC. dad,
whatever is its fate with my namespace accompanies me decade, I choose
abide with your putting me on the holy road of commitment and joys.
dad God, 2017 summer now turns drier and crisp, golden moment in
northeastern China under siberia. God dad, my job and agenda fulfilled
so well that I linger here with thankfulness. guide me with larger
target and brighter goal in time for achievement brought out by our
endeavors already, esp by my son, woz's. in weeks he will step into
his junior middle school. in less promising PRC education system, what
I can expect him out of rat race among cheap young Chinese? dad God,
cater to him, Hope of China, to expertise of academy and physical
skills. his video game skill quite considerable adequate, while his
eyesight suffers. protect him from aimless and tasteless. thx, Father.

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

in proceeding informative web.

dreamt among my old family in my hometown gathering. my youngest elder
sister told me my nephew, ie. my eldest sister's first son, also
improving English by learning from his clients, aside my eldest
brother's son who almost mastered English in his self-employed work in
southern China. my nephew previously almost a hooligan in local
factory. now he owned a small business and totally self-taught English
and MBA. In dream I felt urgency to boost my son's English skill
sooner. today is my 2nd day employing new routine agenda which seeking
avoid sleepiness in morning by offering free napping in morning.
previously I usually arranged reading news in morning but mostly very
sleepy and miserable. now I shift rss reading to noon after lunch.
after breakfast I just turning on radio and napped as will. my job now
mostly concerning reading, watching, ie. informative process. quality
of sober time matters more than quantity of time available, so I
afford more napping and rest before jumping into workspace. God,
recent kodi brings so many qualified source of video and audio online,
I felt so rich on our stock of information. promise us the viable of
our ward free web, shift our focus from method of acquiring to quality
of intelligence of what we enjoyed and work with in hours and months.
dad God, coming weekend my purse is empty while I try hard to prepare
my son, woz, monthly cinema experience monthly. aid us toward the
goal. bring our hard time in sinking PRC economy to new phrase of
enjoyable staying alive. bring my investment rewardful. bring me my
Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for better management of my Royal
China. thank you, God.

Saturday, August 5, 2017

dreamt with relatives.

first dreamt likely before graduation we visit a temple. I got vision
that wisdom like underground water resource, connected among different
lakes and pools. I talked with a female monk and saw complicated
vision. then we packaging for leave the campus after graduation. Xiao
Weidong, my lower berth schoolmate committed suicide in his 30s' for
poor and jobless after graduate, intended to sent his package via
railway and his own travel among common travelers. I like travel with
my schoolmates and trying persuade Xiao join us for companions. after
nearly a week drizzles, it now left cloudy. yesterday my kid brother
buzzed in after near a month after I scorned him for his means to me,
refusing loan me ¥200 for raspberry pi, he affirm that I still
boarding and pay due to my dorm canteen after months delay. I guessed
there must be some good news there in his life, otherwise he wouldn't
be so generous. for penniless I again begged canteen woman for loan to
support my dining out my son weekends. she in surprise and asked me to
turn in on Saturday when I asked her in Friday lunch. last Wednesday
godaddy hosting support team buzzed me for my site infected by
malware, I called back and talked twice with them. a man then a female
staff received my call on air. we talked about half hour, roughly made
my claim that I was helpless and trust them to deal with possible
intrusion and challenge fixation with my poor English. next day my
infected web app, forum at http://bbs.zhuson.com , updated with newest
version while its due according the app's official blog a month ago. I
doubt why godaddy delayed update so long but still I trusted them till
this outbreak led them to fix. now with sounder update, I felt much
after returned to bed, dream still in family gathering. I persuade
some pals to loan me, telling them about my investment, esp 21

Thursday, August 3, 2017

dreamt of poverty of no show.

dreamt in army or in army training camp. in break my schoolmates asked me to write them a song for talent show but I really in brewing. a quick shooter schoolmate already wrote a song which exaggerate those propagated emotions. when schoolmates trusted my comments, I went straight and dislike promoting normal feelings to sanity. but without show to entertainment those who admire you, can be really embarrassing. this week drizzled a lot. my quilt turns wet indoor. I continued to make well usage of my new raspberry pi. but buggy rtandroid made a hell experience with lagging and frequent exit and halts. I spent half day to realize its cheap toy and shouldn't put more load onto it. isn't its independent running os satisfying? isn't it hardware essentially for handy computing a real alternative? I found the fact in huge relief and started to enjoy our dear kodi in the night. then I can't help innovative re-config via command lines rather than GUI to spare nvram on my router for better performance. when all done and went to bed, I doubt how much it worthies while a dearer product will have much ample nvram not to considerate again and again. is my job cheap or funny? or I just educated? this morning when I launched to spare nvram on my router via escaping GUI saving settings, I even mistaken network down. I had to visit dorm lan administrator for help. the woman in charge of surveillance cold shoulders to me and I finally found my fault in setting. near 11 pm my target archived and I called it a day with bliss. while I busy with my todo, some of my environment turned hostile to me. the dorm canteen woman tentatively shown her despise. woman in dusk jog also reserved for my appreciation. I'm getting old and they shame of my humble and empty promise. many secret plots against me among hooligans around. God dad, I didn't saw my farewell show and nobody deserves to probe. dad God, I was contented with my life here with hopes and distresses. bring me sooner my Royal China with my prosperous offspring. bring Asoh Yukiko, my Crown Queen from Japan, for our better life and enjoyable harmony in daily arrangement. without Japan, without China in future world of economic and sustainable.

Saturday, July 29, 2017

settled zhone 2 raspberry pi.

dreamt invited my son, woz and his mom to go cinema. his mom in anger and after movie abrupt brought my son with her horse left. I had to endure the reckless woman's rage, find my horse and in dusk search for boarding. in my aunt's village I find a villager in his house offering help. he accompanied us find my aunt's house. we talked about my family, esp my passed eldest sister's 2 children, her son and her daughter and my obligation and concerns. then I decided to visit possible home my son and his mom might settled. on way my niece passed us and offer some sweet famous local feature snack to us, likely with my son with who I felt so warm in heart. I recall and chat my son how I liked the feature food and each time never enough in my childhood. its a late sleep till near noon. I'm now penniless while hours late I will visit my son and bring him dining out. last Wednesday I again worked overnight, to settle 2 raspberry pi 3 before my additional case ordered on taobao arrives, and backup before put into usage. the week spent into understanding raspberry os availability before making our choice to adopt ubuntu, libreelec, and android. in the process I learn more and sharpened my linux skill, esp after 2 failures accidentally deleted home folder with hidden mounted external disks and ruined plugged usb devices most. I had to rebuild ubuntu and multi-bootable disks in the devastation. rebuilding rewards: new os ran smoothly installing gapps on my raspberry pi android, against disk space shortage previously frequent me and failed my efforts!. after almost thoroughly perceived the situation of the raspberry pi world and community, I closed my resolution and brought it to see my son on Friday afternoon, after felt boring and sleepy in enjoying online stream our lovable kodi brings. in the vengeful small woman, son's mom's bully and scorn I arranged my son familiar with his new toy, including new os on it, and setup lunar calendar on his 2 android phones for informative lunar weather. my son immersed in new experience of kodi os, linux terminal mode. in the exciting meeting, my sleepiness disappeared totally. as to my raspberry pi's android, I likely left some remnant bugs to fix, but I will cop with it with conquered reign and leisure. God dad, this morning dream really strange and surreal. bring me sooner my new family when I enliven with it. bring my crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for our vested territory on eastern Asia, for our people and homeland. dad God, grant us affordable cinema experience this month and next around woz's new school term, which his start year in Junior middle school. grant us to visit Walmart local market with adequate purse capacity. we enjoyed the sale giant so much!
 Regalbum China

Friday, July 21, 2017

salary day addresses right.

dreamt in my hometown in a camp. first our village under huge
refurnish for tourism. my dearest passed dad, mom, both appeared in
dream. there was a town hall just under my dad's old house and in a
row of houses there was performance and performers from nearby
villagers. there were herd of visitors. then found I was in a travel
delegation, in which quite some photographers members, inc girls. we
managed to lift ourselves via a lever to higher level. in our team
there was a girl film fun closely collaborated with me and we almost
led to friend. my sinful elder cousin of my uncle's family, who worked
for government long time, again in his separation and kept aside from
our villager's ongoing emerging new business. its a sleepy morning. I
felt sad why I recently so sleepy in the morning, which so
irresistible, arbitrarily and concludes without delay. that reminds me
my 2nd elder brother's habit in which he can sleep anytime and any
occasions in minutes when spared. I long time wondering why he behaves
so, and now the same symptom likely happens on me. and I more and more
saw boring's power overwhelmingly stops a working mind. Just now a cop
called in for my PSBC credit debt. he urged me to call him back but I
wouldn't. God dad, they don't wait another 2 month when I will clear
bankcomm's debt and starts to return ccb and psbc's. as to recent
works, its quite fruitful. my ordering woz a raspberry pi 3 leads me
to research other oses like ubuntu, libreelec, rt-android, etc. the
linux based home media center, libreelec at once attracted me, as I
was in process equipping my son a better living experience including
TV and other entertainment. sooner after found it working to provide
reliable source of online stream, I deployed it onto my desktop
wintel, chromebox, and raspberry pi. with knowledge of online
community and powerful google, I soon turned my chromebox into dual
booting chromeos and libreelec, cheap but viable. my nephew, ie elder
son of my youngest elder sister, loaned me ¥230 to buy raspberry pi
for my son, but refused me another order 2 days later to update air
drier powders against wet dorm near toilet I laid on taobao.com. so I
turned appeal to my niece, ie first child of my eldest brother, his
daughter, for loan to buy myself another raspberry pi. it succeeded
with some trifle exchange of view over credibility of PRC's software
mostly shamelessly preying its user base. and this month salary barely
satisfying, near ¥3300. I mistakenly paid back ccb instead of bankcomm
to whom there is a debt under ¥2500 and can be cleared at max 2 months
within. last dusk jog I review my lingering naps and saw my wondering
dream of a new family, a real family of my own in which I authorized,
catered to my relatives. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to
support my new family. bring my girls into new reality shapes new
eastern Asia. grant me free of debt and joy of living.

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

a week long elation.

summer 2017 turns much milder after many small rains. and my room
window again gathers lots of bugs. yesterday I delivered our first
raspberry pi 3 to my son, woz for his study. we managed install it.
after 2 failures due to file system format misconfiguration, we boot
it up with noobs 4 on tf card formatted by my chromebook. in the harsh
process debug, we armateur damaged a 16GB tfcard and had to use his
32GB tfcard for his portable boombox instead. such a elation after saw
raspberry pi interface! after let it downloading Rispbian I left it to
my son and arranged he sit in front of TV and returned to my dorm. a
thunderstorm just left and air outside freshly crisp. last week
boosted by improved salary, we ordered several inspiring goods online,
inc 2 seat cover made of cooler materials for summer, a backup vpn
router, and raspberry pi 3. my own have an order for replacing used
air drier powder made in Japan in my QRRS dorm, 3rd time replacement
order with the same vendor on taobao.com. my credit debt near
clearance to bankcomm.com after this month, and my total credit debt
to other 2 banks mounts below ¥40000, a great relief for me. in this
regard, I more and more thinking my long term ownership over zhone 21
domains I cherished so much and indispensable. I also saw decades
hereafter my life and investment and intelligent property registered.
God dad, put me anxious free upon stealthy CCP and robbing vicious
human population competition pressure. promise me my vested Royal
garden and shadow of trees and plants, song of birds and bees. this
dawn dreamt a lot about prominent global topics, which now in
evaporation. last night I in deep content after watched episode on
amazon, for faith and pride. God dad, I'm in no one's enemy when I in
holy bliss. target me in your future mission all world gathering
bravery. if cheap souls can't discipline themselves, the chosen does.
let America acts and makes adjustment at will, like Trump did for US,
graciously and arbitrarily as whole family as vocation. dad God,
people nation and shrine of Holy lending its way. grant me the
breakthrough toward new land and territory that renew our old oath and
blood bond in eastern Asia. God, bring me sooner my Royal China and
Asoh Yukiko, my crown Queen from Japan. lives me another child and a
family here.

Saturday, July 1, 2017

stealthy ternination of my parcel.

dreamt of training of Royal member, ie. royal court and Prince
himself. how his attitude toward his servants, esp 3 closest
secretaries, can affect the quality of leadership. saw philosophy in
social interactive. then dreamt with my wife treated in a banquet,
with social skill just learned in train. last week's shopping online,
a backup router of Asus RT-N66u, finally ruined by PRC surveillance.
the express, STO.com, totally denied the parcel it serving, just as
taobao's logistics. the poor vendor kindly promised me to check why
the parcel missing or without ending, but after 1 day he refused to
talk to me and prompt refund me instead, likely unspoken shame of PRC
secret cop's hassle intimates him, seals his mouth. with the money
returned, I at once ordered another from different vendor now that the
market is full of the product. within the day, around 4pm, the vendor
sms informed me parcel dispatched. God, dad, how I glad to hear that!
yesterday after read news that squareup.com offer in account credit
service, I decided to give it a try. but when I trying signup the
wonderful website, my internet worsen and inaccessible for 3 hours. I
finally gave up and shut down computer. PRC dog likely warns me that
even with most powerful network hardware, they still interceptive in
my internet traffic, or blocks my financial connection with American
service. however, after dinner and a thunderstorm, I smoothly claimed
2 zhone accounts with squareup.com and its affilate, cash.me . without
US ID mostly service out of my reach, esp high expected in account
virtual credit, but still the wonderful service from the same founder
of twitter.com, generously offers us 2 vanity url,
https://cash.me/$faezrland and https://cash.me/$zuocenter . I can't be
more proud of the operation out of distress of surveillance. in the
week I also modified 2 online resource of google sites' widgets, both
of google photo's, to fit my online brand, and deployed onto my
portal. visit them on http://www.be21zh.org/regalbum . hope the author
grants my reusing his code in xml file that show my google albums' rss
source. and I honestly pray google sites, now confronted with google
new sites, don't elapse into disappear. zhone assets based on the
service remarkable hugely maintained. God, dad, this month I merely
left ¥100, grant us a happy weekends with my son, woz, Hope of China.
bring sooner my crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for better
management of my vested Empire of China. bring me my second child as
namespace billingzhu.com prepares. with adequate financial support,
dad, God, I live anxious free in this eccentric city for future open
and welcoming eastern Asia.

Tuesday, June 27, 2017

PRC surveillance's sieges turn monsterous.

dreamt near lunar spring festival at my hometown. saw changes in the
village: newly build dam control gate and road. the road near dam gate
left with deep and steep wheel dent for poor budget for concret. I saw
our village field, flowers and leisure villagers among it. In dream I
married my niece, ie. second daughter of my mom's niece in a village
around. but we were divorced newly in dream and our son left me sad
for the changing life. last week full of joyes with improved salary.
my urgent bills wrote off with it. now with ¥200 loaned by dorm
canteen I will visit asylum for medicine today. my backup cellphone, a
moto, hacked and ill behaved, so I deleted critical database on it. it
usually disabled both wifi and bluetooth. so likely hacker with direct
control on it. I wondering if the facing door, a secret cop
surveillance me since weeks ago, stealth into my room and injected it
malware. my parcel from ordering used router for vpn on taobao.com,
delayed a week still it only left one logistic information: dispatched
by vendor, and nothing else happened in other 6 days so far. another
item, a usb card reader, its logistic information also hijacked
several days till it reached locally before updated on time. PRC close
surveillance sometimes made me sad. the facing door dog, with all its
energy when just settled, half open his door all day and night,
immediately fixed my door which is tight and sometimes my son even
can't push open on his own, likely in weekends when I went to visit my
son 3 bus stops away, just under corridor webcams. now that its now
even can't hold tight upon wind, I intended directly shut close it
when I entered. the facing cop also in recent days gave up letting its
door half open to peek and eavesdrop, my cold shoulders toward
surveillance likely conveys strong dislike and ruin his fool's joys
and presumable poise. he also likely partially completed his mission:
stolen my password keeper's database, infected my portable devices
with trojans and keyloggers. the long compete for a clean os really
drains me, let me felt boring and labored. what's laughable is that,
the neighbor tall dog, once pretending cough every day and spitted
everywhere in excuse of his illness, these days silently stay
unnoticed aside, quit both surveillance and condemn the environment.
the authority has its power just upon those cheap souls and zombies
which labeled price for been controlled. dad God, save me from fatigue
of faith in long run. bring me sooner my Royal China to discipline
China and Chinese under holy. remove trifle divided by forcible
authority and in glory of united one. God dad, bring me sooner my
crown Queen, Asoh Yukiko, from Japan, for coming age. bring me more
offspring to sustain the 1109 years life of my Empire of China under
title Zhu's. bring me lighter credit debt in coming months.

Thursday, June 22, 2017

huge improvement in salary June.

gradually people around me turns better treating me. my gaze when I
jogging in dusk turns some women and girls friendly to me but also
gathers hatred. reviewing women in my life so far, I sometimes touched
by kindness and tenderness of QRRS Dorm canteen woman who operating
the small business with her diligent husband. his husband is a tall
pal, his kindness to his wife is enviable. these days I likely overdo
my kindness to them, and easier led to misunderstanding. I always
remember first time I met the spouse when their business just open,
how the woman confident and contented. I then felt I can help her with
her target, wellness & independence. now about 7 years passed I didn't
miss it. sometimes love recalls my campus life, esp master degree
seeking period when I met Asoh Yukiko. God blesses me with brave
heart, whole vision and all those memories so timeless cherished. I
don't want to hurt anyone but the canteen woman's husband likely
receiving, for his less gifted, for his property appreciated. God, fix
my poised with due humility. yesterday I gained a bonus from QRRS, my
once and long time employer, just after a day my salary released,
which increases near ¥500. the bonus addes another ¥500. with it I
renew my godaddy hosting plan for another half year immediately. also
renew billingzhu.com a year. with improved salary I ordered backup
router from taobao.com, as incredible satisfying and enzymes me in
super confident mood. 2 days passed I still felt the content.
yesterday I also retouch my homemade gadget on google sites, which now
tending to ban such hosting function and my in time usage likely saves
me extra cost from google's wonderful and generous free service. see
them on most of our zhone portals homepage, in section of blog rss
feeds and tweets, youtube, groups, donation links. its nice feeling,
for even I never master scripting skill still I probing those scripts
and tailored them into my buildups. I gain so much from my education,
my ability to self-taught. dad, God, bring me sooner my Crowned Queen,
Asoh Yukiko, and my Empire of China for larger comfort in my life, for
fulfilling the proud creator life experience. grant us a happy montly
reunion 2 days later, and monthly cinema and walmart shopping in a
pack with dearest son, woz.

Monday, June 19, 2017

living meaningfully with world videos.

Its a sunny morning, I felt obliged to get up and do something. Recent
testing tomato router script put me in a worker's mindset, absolutely
nothing else beyond of task memories. I dived so hard that I merely
recognize other things than occupied by inch in inch progress I strode
outward chaos. My son last Saturday lost his desktop logon
confidential, So I taught him to reinstall windows 10 and roughly
customizing before backup to image. He reluctant but worked with me,
while his sinful mom, a cheap junior school teacher, close watching my
tutorial on computer. She occupied her house every free hours out of
work, grasps dirty money from tuitions she ought to offered on job.
After 3 years and graduated, now she every more than 12 hours in a day
earning from the educational bits even it's shabby in quality in her
campus. I more and more felt its insane. My son due entertainment
ruined for his mom's house forever a workshop for his mom and her
cheap pupils. In this view, I recently relentlessly equip my son with
lounge TV and English programs, on which he enjoys and absorbs when
his visits monthly my dorm and on my seat. I hope the moment he enjoys
staying with me and my workspace forever prolonged. So last month I
equipped him a touchpad k/m combo for convenience of remote input on
pc and android TV. The Chinese product works smart even we anxious
about keylogger and other spy wares lawless PRC breeds, in favor of
dog CCP and state surveillance. My son more or less accepted my
arrangement, promoting him from mobile games he excels now and
adopting more language and expressive method as his new skill to
master. I times and times urged him makes fair use of our borderless
web. I hope he enjoys meanings in American culture stocked in amazon
prime video and youtube, vimeo sites. My trustworthy video education,
defied me in youth decades, pacifies me more than 2 hours daily,
broaden my world view and wishfulness so much that I have to put on
forth for my son, for his beneficial social experience and nutritional
source of moral and spiritual. God, dad, my life so rich that I'm
constantly complacent. Bring my son meaningful in his scope of
activities. Bring me sooner my Royal China to protect her from poverty
grilling the land and souls CCP and PRC only left with. Bring
producing capacity our fatherland sustains before the burning out in
cheap dealer like communism. Bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from
Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for unfinished mission we beset, among a never
seen silver proud heaven on eastern Asia. Thx you, dad God.

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

in dream lingering art college once more.

a relaxing dream in which I visited my artist friends in Tianjin art
college. at first I dreamt with BianQiong, my Tibet painter friend,
and his friend. they live in dorm like a family. then shifted to a
house near door and some of those students there working and chatting.
I using English with a friend from my hometown neighbor county, who is
humble and treated me well even I visited BianQiong in vacation but
then the moment didn't paid him enough attentions but kindness felt.
he sometimes mixed with my impression on another guy in the art
college who also attracted me with his abled attitude. we chatted in
English but my English seemingly not fluent enough and sometimes the
students there in the house perceived it. its a peaceful dream and I
without any pressure but enjoy staying. last 2 weeks I too busy to
blog. my son's nexus 6 lost due to forgot to fetch after sport, likely
accompanied by his sinful intrusive mom, a really small woman and poor
gifted junior teacher. but next day she registered the lost on local
stadium administrative and it even returned intact. I even
disappointed by my son's loose management and bad memories, but ready
to accept the misfortune. my son really glad to regain his nexus, he
hummed upstairs when I waiting him in Sunday visit. last week I under
heavy government sponsored hacking, detained my downloading windows 10
creator edition iso. I also tried to rebuild router os after
disastrous intrusion. I failed times and times to make configurations
backup. later I gave up backup now that if I left most of router
profile default then will be less shortage of ram and lagging
response. we also elated with new auto-connecting script and localized
vpn server script, a byproduct huge finding during googling our
problems. it fix our pains on ass of vpn connection which frequented
by PRC surveillance and problematic. its really a great achievement
saves. even most of the weeks busy and fruitful, PRC surveillance
turns freakier now. my facing dorm moved in some young beast with
stylish pig tail on his head, staying all day indoor babbled. most
night when I went to toilet and back, their door left opener and room
in dark, just remind me their capable of surveillance, poisoning, and
stealth. that sometimes made me unease, but I know who is more
unbalanced and revengeful. I put my fate in holy bliss. let thieves
trying rob me in day time and in shadows. CCP and PRC literally makes
everyone poorer day by day, minute by minute. its a burning fire heap
that destroys any surplus in Chinese society. God, bring me sooner my
Royal China. bring me my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for
better management of my life, of my Empire of China from my heroic
ancestor. bring us surprise in this month salary day.

Sunday, May 28, 2017

thick hatred surround me.

dreamt in a journey and next day we will return. I designed a
multimedia and have to change some text in it. I tried many ways then
found have to install then hack text string, one for title, one for
calculation result. then in a class there are some guests. on black
child played with my son and slammed my son's face. I angry with my
son and urged him to slam back. then the black dad join the war and
forced me to pay more attention and compensation. that's likely
concerns about my son's English tutorial his sinful mom arranged under
a black man's lecture in her college, Qiqihar Univ, where she still
felt romantic or fantasy. yesterday google alphago beat all human
Chinese go players. back to bed, dream continue about the lost. I saw
some collegians lived around, like my dorm crowded by young workers. I
tried asking if they saw my suitcase. no one listened in their games.
one of them likely my once QRRS colleague in tech department, Chen
Ziming, later told me alone that I too risky to put my baggage outside
of door and packed valued items. I should pay for my careless. its a
long morning and my late dream echos turbulent wind outside of window.
last night my stomach painful midnight and I had to get up to shit
twice to relieve the uncomfort. the dorm canteen's operator, the
husband of the woman, turned hostile to me. the marching team in dusk
around QRRS square also hated me, just like I didn't appreciate their
noisy boombox and coarse taste of music. young workers in the dorm
long time grudged with me, trying all means to upset me, to hurt me.
the dangers in mop sometimes put me in chill. but I have nothing but
mission. coming lunar dragon boat holiday let me so lonely, like the
Chinese girl Yang shuping lectured in her graduation ceremony in US
aroused so many blind hates in sinking PRC young dogs. dog PRC hated
anything out of its humility. they turning China more and more mirror
of bankrupted MidEast, purest poverty, now that they don't enjoy
anything in the world out of their mouths, or their teeths' tearing
and grinding. God, dad, bring me sooner my vested Empire from my grand
ancestor, for harmony Chinese family and life. bring me soone my
Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for sanity of nowadays Chinese
society. bring me more offspring for future 1109 years my new Empire
of China reset for span timespace. grant us a merry holiday, esp woz's
last children holiday coming less than a week.

Monday, May 22, 2017

dreamt of new born.

dreamt at my hometown with my old family who all catering a new baby
whose centered likely my son. lots of relatives jammed in the bedroom
once my old parents prepared for their first next generation's
wedding, my 2nd brother's. I held the infant and sending him sleep but
in a blink I only holding blanket while the baby missing. then on the
edge of bed and edge of the entrance of the room, on uneven stone or
plastic teeth of a plate the infant sleeping. his head left on bare
rugged without clothes cushion but thank God its OK. we carefully
shift him to new infant bed. my 2nd elder brother's wife, their first
son, my 3nd elder sister esp helpful in caring relatives crowd. the
infant under so many attentions that I felt he must be my newly born
son. in second view during a break I thought he might be also my
brother's 2nd son's first son. the nephew married a neighbor village
girl then soon divorced. he now rumored dislike woman and kept single,
that's his mother claimed about her own son in front of me. I think he
more likes his grandpa than his elder brother, who had 3 children now,
and merits belongs to be our family members but not a clue in his mom
who bold and shameless feminism, like generous, honest, integrity,
kind, etc, with which I told him in once QQ chat session years ago
before his marriage. today is Monday morning. I again in chill felt
boring and napped. yesterday I bought my son small fishes and shrimps
from an elder who is single and hopeless aside the road when I went
alone to buy fruits. I intended to do him a favor but he refused aid.
so I bought his all he charged ¥15, a small heap small fishes and a
small heap of shrimps. I left him a preach and 2 CNY extra and fled to
evade the elder's defying. I told my son how small fishes with small
hot pepper can be delicious for in my teenage my 2nd elder brother
quite sometimes bring home the food material after his school, ie. he
caught fishes in pond or fields. it left me life long appetite. I
really hope my son find the delicacy but so far I unable to contact
him about the dish the grandma loathed to prepare with before I left
in Sunday dusk. I also bought my son extra fruits, including litchi
and mango, preach, for my son loathed to let me buy fruits after
showered in public bathroom. I feed him with litchi and mango before
left him alone in his android games. we really enjoyed the fruits. on
Wednesday I will fetch his birthday cake ordered online, and celebrate
his 13 birthday together. God dad, I recently felt more solider to
accept de facto that my offspring limits to one son. I trust Holy
arrangement and humble of my son's mother family, her insanity. God
dad, grant me more children in my prime time. bring me sooner my
Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. link our nations, our blood
bond on new land that shared among us. bring more laugh and companions
in my life in family forever bright.

Sunday, May 21, 2017

familiar with google form in Gsuite.

dreamt with ample details migrated into US. an elder Chinese woman
with her spouse contacted me for rent her house or living matters in
America. yesterday I happily dispatched salary and sliced it into
feeding small bills due monthly, ie. laundry, groupon for shower, spa,
dining out. woz's birthday celebration also booked. local debtee
received partial return.God dad, grant me next month reserves for my
hosting plan renewal on godaddy. this week also somewhat busy. I
napped on Monday morning after found jobless and exhausted after joys
of reunited son the day before. Tuesday morning I found I can add
feedback form onto my google sites. then I launched to learn google
form, component of Gsuite, to enrich my website's interactivity. my
long time afraid of form and script in microsoft office cured by
google form's easy to use. in an hour I build up my survey for my
google sites and published, inc checkbox, multi-choice, rate, scale,
dropdown, etc lots of elements of interactive. google form's response
analysis amazingly rich, in pie chart, bar chart, and lots of charts
that's easy understanding while informative. Friday I rebuild my
portable os on ssd, after failed to fix ubuntu's lingering error. this
time I made the bootable images more cleaner and handier. in woz's
monthly visit my dorm, I demonstrated him my websites' new element,
survey. and we enjoyed snack routinely, and hot water washing feet
powered by dorm's heater just recovered from broke down. dorm canteen
loaned me ¥100, but God knows how we satisfied in the companion and
companion of hard times. God dad, my living so far designated to deal
with a salary ¥3000/month, how real hopes and joys in dealing with the
source of income. God dad, how I endear my life with the tiny time
space here and now on the planet and before climate disaster. bring me
sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and my vested Empire
of China, and our future new land of north and water peculiar cold
sweet. grant my cyberspace startup booming in business and influence
of public mind. thx for my new summer pants with mobile pockets my
nephew offered free.

Friday, May 12, 2017

in forging spacier Corp China.

first dreamt likely in airport lounge, I with my son in queue for
aboard. then it broke for awhile to let cargo unload. its likely
railway cargo, emergent quilts and pillows for distressed people in
problematic situation. once the queue restored, the conductor
suggested us buying trees on the way, instead of brought tree from
hometown to destiny, for former mostly better quality. after peed and
returned to bed, I dreamt with my old family, relatives. we criticized
each other, we enjoy chatters, we are family. esp my mean nephew, ie.
only son of my passed eldest sister who committed suicide in her mid
age decades ago, we disappointed by counterpart but still we
expecting. this week was a bit leisure. I picked up my zohosites and
sorted them into precious assets. quite some web services allow early
birds privilege more gracious than its current clients which feed.
google apps and zoho sites are such cases. previously zohosites free
charge of custom domain mapping for its sites users, but now it
charges. in recent years I saw zohosites potential and powerful on web
presenting, and more and more willing making better usage of it. so
this week I enable all free functions zohosites offers for free old
users, like blogs, spam control, custom form, collaborators, etc. I
was so contented by the gains! in final step, I collect/sort them into
my local bookmarks and web linkbook. this week also specially hard for
my financially coping with coming events, weekend gathering my son,
woz into dining out and monthly cinema, his coming birthday, his
lottery experience I promised to support, and my longing for a new
ring mouse to replace my old Microsoft arc touch. in God's bliss, QRRS
dispatched one child policy reward, ¥60, yesterday. then I gathered
courage from it to contact my niece in Wuhan, central China, for aid.
she generously offered ¥400, doubles my entrust. with it I immediately
ordered the innovative mouse on taobao.com. but sinking PRC
surveillance again exploited and delayed near 2 days in logistics: so
far since last morning my order status still maintained paid rather
than dispatched, which quite abnormal but usual in my case in recent
years shopping online. they surveillanced my vpn in accurate in
seconds: most cases under surveillances my critical submission online
result in immediate time out or offline. my conversation with my son,
each time broke amid, esp when I urging him adopting securer
connection. however, my sweet companion of google music, these days
last hours daily and that eases a lot pressure. coming weekend brings
many hope of joys when I gather woz, dearest son. God, dad, I'm so
contented with my life here so far, that almost leaves me more silence
of harmony. bring me sooner my Royal China to be more productive.
bring me Asoh Yukiko for brighter future family, and our offspring
that drives the eastern Asia coming centuries. thx for sunshine
outside, dad God, I know summer is soon under your shine.

Saturday, May 6, 2017

a drizzle after sandstorms.

first dreamt in a party where cult or mythical power shown by a mojo, likely in San Francisco. dark magic of superpower, manipulation of mind and fate. then in my routine space when I shitting I was surveillanced. I got up for pee. then dreamt in my senior school alumni, we saw magic robot through which one's life and properties can be exported. there are several robots all can export and when you delete some information it can be restored by other robot peer. most dream details lost after sleepy got up. its a drizzling morning after 2 or 3 days windy weather, or sandstorm, which tinted sky in brown. rains seemingly due ample but this summer scarce. however most plants turning green. last night I refined zhone sites on zohosites, but PRC surveillance heavily blocked me. I finished near 12am and satisfied. I also blessed in success gaining loan from dorm canteen, ¥300, for new public bathroom groupon and other trifle bills. yesterday bankcommm buzzed in, blamed me didn't return credit debt as ¥2000 as planned rather ¥1500 I paid in 2 series months. I explained my life should put first, esp my with kid. she threatened to sue. I just can't see how ¥500 means so much for a bank. this noon I will visit my son, which I almost can't wait, for the relief loan, for new restaurant we found last labor day holiday, railway hotel which likely a SOE with high standard at least we saw rich fast meals.and for my works review in a week. but financial situation still stern: next weekend movies, 4 gathering meals in weekends before next salary day, woz's birthday celebration, etc. my hosting plan needs renew, ¥60/month. dad God, my life so fit that I envy nobody. let me walk through difficulties like on meadow. prepare us for greater descending. dad God, bring me sooner my Royal China to overcome surreal. bring me my family clean and tidy with Asoh Yukiko, for our children coming heavenly. thx for the moisture last night and now, God, for the baptism in rough of rotten atmosphere ever seen.

Thursday, May 4, 2017

glad in dream met young PRC actress.

first dreamt my passed mother brought me, a kid, to a training center.
its a bit unreal, for my childhood never had out class tutorials in
rural central China. but my son, woz, he was arranged quite some by
his teacher mom. in the center an elder woman teacher whose student
includes Dilraba, the hot Uygur actress in PRC now, exchanged words
with my mom while I was impressed by the famous girl student. then on
a train, Dilraba just aboard and seated feet apart me. she is alone
and a bit unease in my gaze. I watched her and her natural beauty
likes neighbor door girl. when a foreigner or small English talk out
heard in the carriage, she complained in murmur her English not good
enough to caught it, with which I echo in common sense. in the dream I
likely feeling collegian youth. its a brown morning. the overnight
sandstorm left the air dirty and colorized. but in air dusts didn't
felt. my breakfast in dorm canteen still satisfying, even in 2 series
days the menu less choices on it. this early summer quite chill in
Qiqihar, northeastern China. I usually have to put on winter coat
against coldness in dorm. last morning I napped after breakfast in
boring chill and idle. amazon video, esp old time real people movies
inspired me a lot with righteous moral, standard of life and loyalty.
recently quite some movies on elders' life caught me in my mindless
picks. I was so enchanted that I pray God to keep me the secret of the
hidden treasure of meanings and gospel. my life enriched by review of
my campus loves movies aroused. I saw timeless love and purity of
sanity stems out independently we were young. I saw flourishing lives
in my life then and now fautless brilliant. God, dad, my son, woz,
Hope of China, his birthday near in May, I promised him each birthday
offer him ¥150 for lottery experience. and cake for celebration. we
also have cinema agenda next weekend. and our spa groupon should
renewed. dad, God, free me of trap of financial problem. with my dear
sister's son's aid, I got webcam as longing after a month, I greatly
satisfied. now I want to replace my frequently ill working bluetooth
mouse with a new innovative gear, ring mouse. aid me ¥100 for it, dad
God, liberate me in this month's salary. bring me sooner my Royal
China, esp my Crowned Queen, Asoh Yukiko, from Japan, to cater to our
family and living. bring my children in time in our life before lapse
of my prime time. thx for the life we enjoy so far and so frontmost.

Monday, May 1, 2017

no treat holiday.

dreamt in a dorm, Nankai campus or my QRRS dorm, I busy with my
desktop. likely previously I played with water and sands through my
under pants and gathered on my bottom. So I took off underpants and
half naked. but Zhang Chongfu, my Nankai deputy monitor, brought a
girl visitor and she waiting outside of the door. I at the moment
can't find my underpants and later someone thrown me it or I found it
somewhere. with almost put right I woke up. this PRC international
labor day holiday almost again a disaster for me: I hardly support any
treat entitles it. I ate a meal a day and still worring next 3
weekends' gathering dinning out with my son, woz, Hope of China.
however passed weeks proves fruitful in heavy workload. I second time
install Google Apps on woz new zte android without a single error
after many failures missing in wrong files and their directories, as a
false response to previous google play store pending download but
forever zero traffic as penalty to region like PRC where google
denied. I also deleted problemed payment account lest locked out again
for PRC's shame. I also found google doesn't deleted its gsuite
account after our purchase for zho.io 2 email accounts phrased out due
unpaid on time. encouraged by the news, I applied 3 new gsuites for
our new 3 domains, each claimed several GA accounts under trail period
and hoping these account's chrome sync, contact, custom search engines
and other user data maintained out of free trail period. we fatally
love google's web sync service. last Friday I also found time to rip
spam bots, minor errors on my dynamic sites, esp forum and light cms.
after near a year running the web apps, I more or less familiar with
their structure, system, just like I perceived and executed. long time
pains in ass, disorder among articles on dabbog.com, also totally
relinked structurally. my son now seemingly likes to bring new
smartphone with him, after many times I cursed him for unreachable
online. when I can't access him I wondered why it is so painful. I saw
most important thing I needed to share with him is my achievement in
life stream. I need treat, celebration for holy witness and double
joys devil eyes stolen most. but I prepared to live alone my stuff in
my darker and longer journey ahead, in my aging world of coldness,
hatred thick dusty land I stood decades. I don't afraid death nor
rotten time, I only care holy bliss, and my mission here in
northeastern China for future millennium, for Japan, US and my vested
land of China Empire from my glorious ancestor. God, dad, its lunch
time now, grant us an adequate lunch for the leisure time. bring me
sooner my Royal China to outpace the curious eyes upon my legend.
bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for my
children's cosy family space.

Monday, April 10, 2017

officially declare zhone 2 new domains.

dreamt of the family of my cousin, ie. husband of my mother's niece. I
once liked his 2nd daughter who is tall and slender. but long time
works in farm worn out her hands which drove me away from her in my
senior middle school summer vacation. I saw her new family in dream.
her dad invented or bought to connect his family with his offspring's
family, and his properties with wire. the wire likely controlled
digitally. I saw just dial "home to farm" and the 2 place linked and
can communicate online. I still felt warm with the girl and her
sisters and her child. then dreamt I made experiment, in which I put
pencil core into a tiny tube and heated to melt it. when I saw it
changed into liquid, just when I ready to fill in something with it,
the power down. at the mean time I urgent to urine. I pee indoor
before others returning to caught me in sight. almost peed and with
caution of fire, I woke up. last week my family acquired another 2
precious domains, zuo.center and woga.me. zuo.center is my first and
likely last unconventional TLD. most of newly added TLDs are
expensive, but .center renewal is $20. the same amount with .me, which
I promoted most to my son woz, hoping he regards woga.me for his video
game hobby as himself invented. I told my son I contented with 21
domains before my business getting bigger, and I didn't regret risks I
taken in the purchase even more or less I felt my greediness in the
making of namespace, claim of meaning and naming. I hope in a market,
its normal to profit from intelligent property. after 3 days intensive
works, I prepared publication sites for the 2 domains, inc google
sites, zoho sites, blogger blogs, tumblrs, etc. I show my son webpage
editing and publishment skill, hoping he enjoy freedom of cyberspace
as I did. yesterday I ate delicacies in gathering woz dining out. he
ordered his favorite sausage in Taiwanese franchise restaurant,
Formosa pies. I also fed him mango I sliced large portions by fork and
fruit knife. sometimes I wonder if my main treat is just eating. but
God's know I barely fed each normal day. God, dad, bring me sooner my
Royal China. bring me my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for
better life and warmth of homage. grant us a spacier salary this month
for our planned expenditure. thx, dad, for coming canteen breakfast.

Sunday, April 9, 2017

hope the violent lesson remembered.

dreamt first shared dorm with an once QRRS colleague who is a
photographer. he is a gay in dream and spying me. anything of him will
convey gay sensation when I touch them. then dream in a TV cuisine
competition. I was a candidate and my dish too slippery to stand
vegetables in decoration. I was in hurry and failed many times. then
once my boss, QRRS cable TV chief editorial who died in mid age,
pointed out the cause impersonally. when I almost gave up my works, I
woke up and in anxious of visiting my son weekend on time. last week
is a strange week testifying relation of my son woz and me, his dad.
on Monday which also in lunar Mourning holiday we booked cinema as
usual together. that had been shifted a day for all PRC people
gathering 3 days holiday and adjust a weekend for workday. the
disgusting convenience chasing hobby humiliates meaning of week from
bible, unlike US holidays. when I went over in time to fetch my son to
cinema, he was absent while his mom tutored some students there as
usual. I waited half hour till time didn't permit waiting. I buzzed
the grandma who is really an old fox, stubborn and canning, evasive
when I ordered her sent my son to cinema directly. my son already told
me he will be totally free when we booked tickets together. so my son
forgot his timetable or his sinful mom or grandma tentatively assigned
my son's occupation with his pointless art class. when I arrived
cinema and buzzed the grandma again, she still trying selling my son
to postpone the movie. my son wanted to talk to me, but my rages out
of control and I yelled him to come over at once. when they arrived, I
at once beat my son while the grandma repeated that I was insane. I
beat my son before the movie and during movie, we didn't exchange
anything while our back seat trying closer to us to tease us, likely
official surveillance. on way to lunch out, I beat my son again for
disappointed, for his unable to administrate his life on his own. I
scorned and beat him during lunch. after returned to his mom's house,
I fetched my missed a day dirty clothes after shower and left without
entering the house. after I settled in dorm, my kid brother who almost
blacklisted my phone, called in. he was informed by my son's mom or
grandma that my violence can bring me into asylum again if I exert it
again on my son. I laughed and told him that they can do anything as
they will, I'm not feared. my brother claim I turning odd, and I
shouldn't push my son so hard to American for here in China I should
abide with its situation. I replied that is two way to learn after
America, one way sending out richer Chinese to US, another way is
bring US to China. in coming most of the week, my son kept muted when
I buzzed him and sms him. I shifted our new Chinese phone from fiber
optic internet bundle to him at the end of lunch and he promised will
keep mobile reachable like an adult. even in the week I urgent to add
backup phone to our 2 godaddy accounts. after 3 days including failed
contacted godaddy support, I got thing done with synced sms log via
ifttt I previously setup on the phone. on Saturday I lingered on bed
lately to avoid boring and hard choice if I visit my son as usual.
then my son sent me sms of verification code his phone received and I
asked to transfer to me but denied times. I replied immediately things
done and asked if shower on Sunday as planned or plan B. my son didn't
response me graciously. I soon decided to visit him. it's noon. I
visited dorm canteen to fetch my washed clothes there, and borrow
another ¥200 for gathering my son in dinning out together. when I
entered the house, my son's mom blocked the door and asked in what
privilege I frequent there. I didn't reply and evade her into visit my
son in his bedroom where he practicing e-piano. after they left for
music class his mom arranged, I sorted my son's nexus in English
podcast's companion. after they returned I tried awhile video game
then my son dined out with me. now I can say storm of separation
dissolved with consent of my son's once under performance. he should
be more independent, out of childish custody. God, dad, Friday night
drizzle blessed us. now shinny morning sunshine covers my concerns
with triumph. bring me sooner my Royal China, my Crowned Queen from
Japan, Asoh Yukiko. bring our better life in reach. grant us financial
independent to broaden our cyberspace investment. allow us buy stylish
pants with mobile pockets, and a camera for my desktop computer. pl
resume my visa card and its credit limit sooner. thx God dad for all
these years' affirmative.

Thursday, March 30, 2017

with new assets' help.

dreamt with a slim guy who help doing scientific experiments like
astronaut. I roamed with him in front of a lab where just gained fund
to launch research. I saw my friend won the contract to execute
experiment with his physic manipulation. last night I finally checked
in my son's google domains account and found my only working credit
card defied by google for region of PRC. so recharging our gvoice
accounts impossible. I had to through godaddy to claim my new domain,
my only new unconventional TLD, zuo.center. just before that near dusk
I talked to my son in air that I can't help clinching those namespace
I concocted, I want to buy him a domain he likes and cultivates like
his own mirage garden. I suggested woga.me as google domains suggested
to me and let him known I waiting for his response and impetus. in
late night my kid brother sms back telling his paypal can't remit me
$60 I previously sent him ¥420 for conversion because paypal denies. I
told him just sent my deposit back in alipay. I teased him I
constantly putting money into business while he had been withdrawing
money from his workshop to purchase real estate. I warned him someday
my properties might surplus his. got back to bed, I can't sleep but
got up to check if he immediately sent my money back. after found the
fund at its position, I launched to buy our 2 new domains on godaddy.
its swift done. with these precious assets in hand, I felt surreal to
acknowledge. I burned so many brains for them, identified their
beauties in language correlation. I blamed myself in front of my son
for my greediness but after all, Dad God, I'm so lucky to earn with my
intelligence fast as finger tips. God dad, curb my passionate with
domain and focus me on my enviable assets sustain and site building,
ie. value mounting. bring me my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko,
and free me from greediness. thx dad, in this sober dawn and joyful
after battle scene, I means salvage of settlement and peace of bliss.

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

a slight rain.

last night I dreamt of a Junior middle school student. he likely
researched something and wrote quite something. I with my son then in
front of their school informed another girl classmate of the hidden
book of the boy. it likely a notebook of weapon or martial art, or
fantasy novel. I also dreamt rechargeable batteries we bought dearly
from taobao rather than amazon turns poor quality and totally out of
usable. last night I went to bed earlier, for praying my kid brother
remitting USD I entrusted him for conversion from ¥420 I badly
squeezed from salary last week and sent him immediately. for he owning
a mall workshop and possibly has USD corporate account. I will
recharge our google voice with them, and hopefully if my brother
raises his hand to some allowance, I will purchase my last domain, the
only new LTD, .center. my heart beats for the domain inspires me after
I found my blessed namespace with it. and I surely known how severely
my economy dangerous. last night its warm as usual, but this morning
it drizzles, sometimes with snowflakes flow around. this week I
enjoyed so many meaningful videos, including movies online. my life so
rich with borderless web. and started with this week, I aimless on my
site building. I sometimes napped after breakfast and worked focused
after 10am. every night I went to bed with thanksgiving. the dorm
canteen more and more treats me graciously: my food in monthly
boarding and lodging bundle turns richer and more delicious. my
laundry deal with the working woman executes smoothly, as last week I
paid her first time in time with my salary which near ¥3000. my credit
debt to bankcomm lower to 4800CNY, hopefully I can renew my hosting
plan with it after reset 4 months later. dad God, I really need a
credit card to cope with trifle bills. grant me a credit card with
foreign currency. bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh
Yukiko, bring my son his real mother, and shelter our roof under
starry sky with dreams and tears of spiritual inspirations. God, grant
me tools I need for building new China Empire in new 21 Century. equip
me financial independence to survive the coming brutal economic crisis
in the world fallen.

Saturday, March 18, 2017

peace after storm.

at first dreamt of Emma Watson whose private photos leaked on web. I
enjoy amazing sex with her. then dreamt I arrange my son woz to be
trained by instrumental music under old traditional musician likely
from QRRS art troupe which includes an old man and woman each. then in
Mao's era he or we sent to western China to re-educate. we passed
through dangerous Yellow River which threaten its bank area. we
arrived northwestern China and planted a tree from our hometown. then
dreamt I trained my son or myself badminton. I long time easily mimic
serving but response speed far from satisfying when dealing or
rebound. in dream I wonder if I just lack boring but heavy exercises
or real expertise coached. this week again especially busy. I setup
google authenticator app for our frequent google accounts 2 step
verification. for sms verification less convenient and less secure in
which each time informs PRC surveillance my logon. GFW heavily blocked
my operation first place, once lagged me more than half hour to load
an authentication code page, forced me to retreat mid way for dinner.
but next day I did it again without pains. yesterday dabbog.com
backend web app updated by godaddy hosting automatically, but it broke
and halt the site. when I tried to fix it, I again heavily blocked.
loading loops, irresponsible webpage, etc. I left its breakdown open
possible vulnerable well known and went jog after dinner. in the night
after dinner, I fixed it with less human pests, while again my
restored sites less accessible on my dorm internet, but web proxy
testifies its soundness. my facing dorm room has new residents. a
young guy frequently loose its door and shown himself on the deeper
bed busy in the leaking light. I doubting if he welcome visitors or
exchange of neighborhood, or just convenient to spy me. but my
internet these days actually under harsher surveillance and intervenes
amid. but this week not all sad, I sorted our google voice assets and
prepared to make good use of them. I deploy more google or google apps
accounts for maintain their gvoice in use. now salary will arrive
days, God dad, grant me freedom to recharge our accounts for smooth
operative. grant me financial freedom for coming laundry bill to woman
in dorm canteen, ¥200. I also badly need trousers with mobile pocket
for my son and my own. dad God, godaddy hosting plan soon needs
renewal. and I usually penniless before year end bonus. get me out of
the dangerous situation, dad God, bring my cyberspace startup with my
other concerns peacefully onto faezrland, our vested land from my
ancestor under Holy. bring it with bliss and breeze.

Saturday, March 11, 2017

dreamt of insects after first fulfilled deal of laundry.

first dream in highly dense space, human crowd with dense snakes.
those baby snakes in every atom of air, or liquid, like spray. that's
quite shockingly frightening. they didn't bite but terrifying. then
dreamt my son and his mom's family. I likely returned from long
journey and urged his mom to restore normal life. the woman and her
mom recognized our previous marriage hopelessly sank. they arranged
extraordinary a meal to farewell. when I prepare tea, I found many
large strong black ants busy moving in the jar neck. its again such a
shocking scene I almost lose clinch to the jar. they all likely
concerns the first time handover of my laundry deal with dorm canteen
woman. last week when I visited my son and brought him to shower in
public shared bathroom, I found my dirty clothes a week there was not
washed. the small woman several times threatened not to wash my
clothes even I offered her monthly ¥150 many months but recently due
to credit crisis I asked permission to indebted her. so this time I
thought ripe to be more independent. I informed my son the new expense
and he agreed. returned to dorm, I headed to dorm canteen where the
woman in charge of preparing food materials right there for ordering.
I discussed the possibility to pay her to wash my clothes. she first
defied, with encouragement from the executive woman, she accept my
proposal of increased ¥50 to ¥200/month. last Friday dusk, before I
dined there, the executive woman fetched me the washed clothes, our
first deal sealed, except my payment. for penniless, I asked the woman
loan me ¥200 for visiting my son weekends. then she told me my recent
months bill with canteen didn't clear, for my kid brother promised to
pay instead of me in his last year's visit now evaded by him. I
previously called him to pay my online shopping but my phone number
likely blacklisted and redirected. so I never knew what's going on
with him. the woman said she sms my brother but never responded. I
told her I visioned I lost my brother's aid but I never equipped
financially to save the situation, so I didn't probe my due payment in
canteen any more. the woman disliked my answer so I promised will call
my brother in the night. on jogging after dinner, I buzzed my 3rd
elder sister and hope she check our kid brother's status, she accepted
the task. when I went to toilet for toothbrush hours later, I saw the
canteen worker woman washing there. I told her I will pay her as soon
as I get my salary this month, ie. 2 weeks later. she replied no hurry
cordially. God dad, I know it will be OK after all, but the situation
now really draining. this week I also try web tutorial to setup
selective vpn routing to escape PRC main sites' discriminating foreign
ips, but so far failed. in so many programs I benefited from online
communities discussions, now I have to cope it on my own for solution.
I tried to contact vpn support team but out of their service scope and
denied help. I also contact godaddy PRC office girl last time helped
me with discount for unknown renewal price increase, evasive
conversations sucks in grudge. this week makes me sad when I last
night reviewed it, but also affirm my determination to sit with them,
those deny of service, and breakthrough on my own. God dad, bring me
sooner my Royal China to sustain my cultivation here, bring me my new
family and hope of stepping out of adversity here. bring me learning
ability in every stages in my life. bring me my Crowned Queen from
Japan, Asoh Yukiko, to better my children's life. in a few hours I
will visit my son, in your mercy our joys will doubles.

Thursday, March 2, 2017

dream from mission now.

dreamt of genius. dreamt my elder brothers, hometown folks, once
leaders in QRRS, all turned old. I passed them who playing Majiang
together and felt sad. then myself turns older and unbearable
intelligent work. then a cheap soul like CCP cadre invents
sculpturing on glass with color, replace paintings on it manuscript or
oil print. its merit is clear and vivid in 3D, but cost is material
wasted once solid sculptured, not reusable. I wondered CCP
administrative manner, reckless and environment unfriendly. then dream
the inventor, a guy super genius: he needn't backup hardware settings,
like I backup system images and important data times and relentlessly,
he talks directly to hardware binary likes operating software in GUI.
later he talked directly to a goat, let it be friend with me and my
son. the goat hears and got it. yesterday woz's new trousers I ordered
on taobao.com, for redeem my guilty in scorning him for no due respect
of new broadband internet, arrived, for its deliverer, yto.com, well
organized in its arena, really speedy. but what we demand, pocket for
cellphone, not exists on the trousers, instead, a fake pocket without
depth but just a zip for decoration. my son complained carrying
smartphone in his jacket pocket can be clogging, and loathes to bring
a new cheaper Chinese cellphone all day long. returned to dorm, I
tried to contact the taobao vendor. the site, taobao.com, quite
unfriend against its web service users, even punishing non client end
app users, from geographic restriction to frequently failing web im it
support only. I switched 3 computers, from chromeos to android to
windows, its im quits on all 3 platforms while previously it works
sometimes. I lately find the vendor's mobile phone and settled
replacing with new one our required pocket satisfied. I really need a
cellphone pocketed trousers, too, but we just can't afford it now even
its beneficence obvious and goodness predicts. in the night I watched
a documentary on world economic bubble burst emerging on youtube, that
reminds my vision Christian and other poverty pestered world esp
Islamic area, their competition lasts thousand years. government
bailout grows larger and severer, but America has to cope with
challenges from cheap human society's crowd, the bubble of wastes, esp
China and Islamic states. its time to show who is the chosen. now time
for Trump to discipline US and get rid of cheap people's siege. time
for beautiful new One world of Christian, around Israel. time to
manifest the world developmental power is not cheap human power, nor
cheap dictation in Communism, nor terrorist Muslim. only Christian the
life of prosperous, the source of plenty. time to clean the planet
with AI and robots, time to rid earth off cheap human beings and beast
alike terrorist, both too rampant and waste of land and air. this is
new mission for Trump, also mission of my Royal China of China Empire
reset ahead then lasting 1109 years. this is salvage and gospel of the

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

dream of losing smartphone.

At first I lingered gladly in tiny houses, likely with my 2nd elder
sister, likely in Japan. then found one of my 3 smartphones missing.
in panic I searched everywhere. then using its GPS location found the
stealer address. the 2 phone number is mathematical linked: sim card 1
number is added to number 2 card. I really can't afford losing them.
then many details on exact secret on the phones and their numbers.
just in panic I woke up and recognized in reality my phones all on my
desk intact. back to dream I still felt the panic painful. yesterday
is fruitful, I published monthly blog release. I watched amazon TV and
close watch small woman unstable emotionally broke her husband career
and her own life which is totally reckless and hopeless in ruins. I
wondered bitch in my life, my son's mom, desperate to hurt, means what
for her destiny. the tiny dog steps by steps went insane. my son after
a day didn't enable his indoor WIFI, likely under his mad mother's
ban. last week I got a surprising gain from QRRS, my once and long
time employer, ¥1000. I immediately renew woz's 8 domains with it,
left 3 expensive domain for next renewal will costs near ¥2000. God,
dad, its a bit dearer since last year, but godaddy China office girl
contacted me and help me finish the order with coupon unavailable
public. dad God, please allow us own our namespace as family heritage
lasting millenniums. I want share them with my offspring! grant us
financial freedom to pay the domain registrar. and please grant us to
keep our amazon associate account. we had been ditched once for poor
websites traffic. I had to mend all amazon ad code among my sites to
link with our new trackID. that's too boring and heavy load to
sustain. grant us minimum interactive rate amazon requires to sustain
our membership of its ad associate. dad God, remove us blockage the
small bitch laid between my son and me. show my son, woz, the future
world he pivots. bring me sooner my Royal China to extinguish hatred
rage, rip us off the dirty family of my son's mom and herself. put us
in sanctuary of holy mercy, and sole independence under the dome
without divided. thx for the peace in the morning, God.

Monday, February 27, 2017

dream in first school day of woz's 2017 spring term.

dreamt 2 or 3 my privileged senior middle school alumni, Zhu Zehua,
who's technical subjects usually score quite high, and some others
long time no see. we corporate and compete to produce rebellion
weapons. we also compete intelligently. we passed my hometown dam,
spring well with crowd among which we escape enemy's hunting. this
week a bit sad. gay in neighbor dorm room desperate stalks me.
surveillances my usage of toilet and follows to shit and leave it
unflushed. the sickened soul pretends coughing for quite some time and
he should dies in illness. my son's mom, the small bitch also tried
her best to challenge me. they mimic my son's monthly cinema day and
invited her mom to go cinema the night before my gathering day with my
son. all her knowledge is outdated and poor quality but still she day
by day gathering pupils at her house for tuition. one of her girl
friend whose father lent me camera when my son given birth at hospital
found some old photos of my son in the hospital agrees to send me
those precious photos but now hold back by the bitch, son's mom, for a
bargain. my son yesterday irritated me and I had to give him a lesson.
we previously agreed that our new broadband was a bliss holy and we
should make good usage. but on Sunday when I went to see him, he even
didn't power on broadband router in his house, but just reading paper
book of rephrased Chinese classic, A Dream of RED Mansions. I went mad
with his ignorance. I show brutal violent threat and scorned him for
near half hour in cause of his failing VPN and system update. I didn't
mean hurts but remind him his work, his future indispensable with high
tech including internet, while his mom and his grandma actually not
equipped it, for their cheap work mainly related with primitive tools.
my son show resolve when we went for lunch and shower, even after I
bought him extra fruits. on way returning to my dorm, I pray God to
let it the hard time for us to defeat, to slaughter our enemies by
hand and will. I beg Holy rewards us thicker after the adversity and
allow us to stick out of the dark curtain and smile. in the night I
felt guilty upon my son, and boring and sad for shopping online. I
bought my son a spring trousers with cellphone pocket. I also ordered
myself one but run out of money. so I entreated my kid brother to pay.
but the contemptible man enlist my phone number into his blacklist to
evade confrontation with me. God, let me remember the revengeful shame
sinful people insult us, the glorious One. bring me sooner my Royal
China to sustain the eastern Asia. bring me sooner Asoh Yukiko, my
Crowned Queen from Japan for peace among our heritage, our once more
glory cover half pacific ocean. grant us memories of retaliation.

Thursday, February 16, 2017

shallowly snowed.

the day before yesterday I worked overnight. the yesterday I felt
inspiration in ladies fulfilled my heart. I admire them so much, and
sympathetic to their pleasure seeking and concerns while none of them
lives in my life in past decade. in the night I dreamt first played
with kids. then among a kindergarten, I with my men with shotguns
played with kids crossword puzzle. we shoot to answer. then I likely a
royal captain of firearm brigade, operated them in war field where
fire distance matters. after wake up I wonder the small figure in
dream is Napoleon, who relentless with war fire till saw his own
failure and death after challenge Russian, the iced land. I saw
relentless love attempts for his concerned, esp women in his life. I
felt dizzy after morning alarm. even breakfast in canteen is
satisfying, I still trying finding nap after settle here my workload.
last afternoon bankcomm clearance crew buzzed in, show their interest
to interview. there is nothing new in their probation. they impotently
demanded me return at once my credit debt while It clearly out of
possibility in my situation, in which recent 3 months steadily
returning, ¥2000 paid every salary day. in the mid after found their
only aim is to intimidate me, I claimed they incapable to negotiate
with me, for there is nothing valuable or granting policy in their
holding card, so I arbitrarily quit the conversation. my work space
just resumed, I enjoyed my favorite Chinese podcasts, and Amazon prime
video in the rest of the day. God dad, last Monday after my ICBC
monthly credit statement revealed ¥700 left under account, I
immediately renew zhone 19th domain, billingzhu.com for my 2nd son, to
its longest life span, 5 years for ¥511. dad God, there is only one
thing unfinished in 2016 as annual, woz's 12 domains renewal. grant us
financial freedom to do the job. bring me sooner my Royal China to
sustain my offspring. bring Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan,
to home my new family. bring 2017 new monument for ever growing
mission to revitalize eastern Asia, for the grace and persistence of
Chinese and Japanese. thx dad God, for the snowing night and this
morning so quiet in sober.

Friday, February 10, 2017

late wake of lunar 2017.

dreamt of complicated time space pair. after 2 busy days at dorm, heat
gathered in central China gradually melt. my nose ran water a lot, and
shit softly, too. last night I perceived erotic dream drove by full
sperms, but in fact I didn't wet last night. rather, in dream I got
insight of time-space tangle. I saw a dynasty broke down and lots of
strange behaviors, like soldier don't know who to obey, court women
don't know how to survive in riot era. I saw my Nankai alumni went
class while I drift wild. I saw when time dissolves, events in space
can be floating around, losing their sequence. the result and the
cause in different time location can't be replaced, otherwise there
will be forecast, in time travel paradox. these days hard economy
again pestered me. I only gain a much shrinked ¥3000 in 2016 as year
end bonus from QRRS, my once and long time employer, comparing near
¥7000 in 2015. a policy gain, aid for poor staff, ¥1000 offered to me
by labor union. I handed over to dorm canteen at once, and next day I
had to borrow ¥200 again for living expense. now I have debt ¥1000 to
local contacts, and my anual renewal of zhone domains yet complete.
¥2000 will do the job like a breeze. then again every month I will
fight for dinning out twice a week with my son woz for gathering, and
my pills will add another ¥100. in the 3rd hometown flight tour, I
almost broke up with my kid brother who contempts me and cheats me
into endless waiting his aid. now my salary, at its best around ¥3000,
barely afford our lifestyle including credit debt compensation. but,
God, how I lucky in such failing economy maintaining such a small
burden of investment! and watch the grand produce of my endeavour and
willful. God, dad, I see so many affirmatives in holy message. please
firmly attach me onto faith of Christian. bring me sooner my Royal
China to fasten the falling treasure. bring me Asoh Yukiko to put
together the Empire dream and stipulation. grant me financial
independence to safeguard our startup so strong online.

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

dream of software.

the night before yesterday I gave my son a lesson, for he too open and
vulnerable upon cheap offers. this night I felt blessed when we ready
to sleep. I first dreamt in art college saw many students and
computers running a software likely robohelp or tin?in. its a series
tools including 3d modeling, illustration, and presentation. in dream
I felt glad to fetch my pastime skill and sharpen them. I felt that
would more or less let me more energetic. then in my hometown village,
facing neighbor village there are 2 modern office malls where once
rice field. many small companies rent space there and share
introduction multimedia, project management or progress report online
there. I still dwelling on the robohelp and thought about app as
service, or the functions of presentation. I tried hard to sync our
data or put our running data into the app. the detail of program very
lengthy in dream, even cross the intervene of getting up to pee.2 days
ago I finally got informed that our train ticket booked, after more
than 60000 times bidding online by our travel agency, ctrip.com. so
last unease resolved and we really needn't hurry, just as holy
affirmed. my son once repulsive upon my teasing infant of my nephew's,
a 16 month old boy, after I told him why I glad to help infant with
empowering them with full heart support, he forgave me and I thankful
for his considerate. his willful pal, the grandson of my 2nd elder
sister, also quit hijacking my son with all flattered. I also openly
talked about fault of my 2nd elder sister whose family less attractive
and colder in heart, with her husband and daughter-in-law. the
daughter-in-law is a slim tall woman with adorable configure and I
tried to help her when she loathe to chores. I hope they don't pitfall
like some of my relatives. after all, we are family from my passed
grand father, God in heaven now. this is a sunny morning with clouds.
hopeful it will more shiny later. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal
China to home my offspring, to guest my concerned. bring me financial
independence to liberate some of my relatives trapped in wrong idea
and habit. grant me adequate fund to renew our domains, the last task
unfilled upon new year 2017.

Friday, January 27, 2017

dreamt woz in danger.

last night woke up earlier then dwelling in dreams. first dreamt in
zoo with dearest son, woz. 2 cheap girls recklessly open cage of tiger
and let it at large. we rushed to evade and scattered. when I returned
near zoo and found tiger caught woz and indecisively bited him. in
terror I scream for zoo manager's help. when he in sight and running
closer, I approached the tiger and woke up. I timely noted it on my
mobile. then dreamt an OCR software's advertisement on media. I was
more or less familiar with pirate warez once, so I'm sure I will get a
copy of the tool. I felt glad with it I can turn some Chinese textbook
and its tests digitally for woz's usage. then all dreams about flying,
with a delegation of school teachers likely in vacation tour. I can
fly without any voyage, and use it to challenge barrage around me.
this is a pale morning and eve of lunar new year. my returning train
ticket still pending while brokerage already handed in. woz gained
about ¥2100 pocket money from his hometown relatives. I didn't send
out any gift money, including my newly marriaged nephew. but I told
him my startup and hard economy and promised will help him in future
when my situation better. yesterday is the turning day of our vacation
here, half elapsed. we made nice demonstration to country guyes about
steam online games, chromecast mirror screen, English online videos.
our poor dell notebook almost broke down after heavily load of video
gaming, in frequent freeze now. I sincerely best wishes to my
relatives here, hoping someday I can improve their lives. they already
saw satisfactions in the decade when most nephews built their
families. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to my larger family,
for my future offspring. bring me Asoh Yukiko for glory of regal
affair. grant us financial freedom to support my online startup.

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

dream near lunar new year eve.

first dreamt inspecting a girl secretary of Communist Youth league.
she later in charge of a business owned by CCYL, then the business
turns in property of girl her own. then dreamt being an India school
boy. he studied diligently and guessed or cheated to know exam's topic
so scores highest. the topic likely about self-restrain, in Chinese in
dream exactly "纲功伐满". his mom and sister celebrate his performance.
his school dean who usually stern but now also welcomes him warmly.
the boy gladly goes shopping with award, a check. this morning I woke
up by the dream and made memo on my mobile. then I fell asleep again
till my son got up. my elder sister asked us stay for celebrating
lunar new year especially. my nephew came from my hometown village to
invite our visit but I defied it for I felt vengeful against my
brothers, esp my kid brother who made us harder when he had to aid me
meanly. so I decisively evade him and his family, including the
village, Zhudajiu where my 2 elder brothers didn't extend helping hand
during my credit debt crisis last year. among the relatives and rich
meal I abrupt left to my younger elder sister's house to blog. here my
2 nephews also hurry to downtown market. my dearest son, woz, aside me
with his pc games. lunar new year holiday can be boring, for lunar
harvest season doesn't exist nowadays. I just too far from any
celebration in my family affair, nor regal affair. with additional
¥300 in this salary from QRRS, I equipped my family amazon prime
another year, but nowhere to find fund to renew another 12 zhone
domains esp. under woz's title. God, dad, pl allow me finishing last
todo annually in this month. let 2017 anxious free and firm business
as seeds soiled. bring me sooner my Royal China to house my beloved,
my children. bring Asoh Yukiko when we still breed. grant us financial
independence and ability to see through adversity. thx dad.

Saturday, January 21, 2017

hometown flight tour 3rd almost half passed.

dreamt siblings competition on economy. mafia tried to control state
owned properties and bidding for merger. I was threatened to bid but
managed to, among my relatives influence. the flight toward hometown
esp. smooth, all my unease evaporated after a night and a day's on
way. its my first time brought a luggage and I had to ask stewardess
where to fetch it back. my son grows more confident in the journey
with flight. our neighbor seat was likely a graduate girl, we made
nice chats. we only had ¥500 budget for on road cost, and it did
cover, including taxi to my sister's house in a town, our destiny.
these days a nephew's wedding in preparing, for the bride's house too
far, in neighbor province, so she will move to hotel in the county's
capital in advance. tomorrow will be the wedding ceremony holds
locally. our returning voyage still pending, for the train ticket too
scarce to buy. we paid Ctrip.com to hunt for us, and it monitored more
than 500000 times and still going. the town's business mostly cement,
whose pollution quite severe. but today is second sunny day since our
settlement and sunniest one so far. the 2 sons of my sister each has a
car. their house newly furnished. I even already looking forward to
return while my son still find funs here. all equipment we brought
with us works well here, allowing woz to demonstrate online games with
gamepads, mobile games chromecast to large LCD. hope he find friends
here. God dad, we still have 12 domains to renew, pl grant us space to
execute it. bring me sooner my Royal China to host our friends and
relatives in glories. bring my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko,
for my family and children. thx, dad.